alokaa.

our first monthsarry.

2012-01-21T04:54:00.002+08:00

its 21st today. And its our first monthsarry being together. Alhamdulillah..

Yes, we've been together since 21st Dec, 2011. 21st is the special number to me. Im in a 21 organisations. And yes, 2112 is something special. 02/01/12, we went to miri sama sama. Its just, alhamdulillah.. I really thank God.

Our loves, we involves our families along. And their positives. I even slept over at her place. Shes even slept over my place. With the families knowing, i felt blessed. Learning frm my mistakes. Yes..

We make it different this time. More plans for the future, its just awesome. Shes special. My family loves her.

She even make conversations with the parents, with the brothers, the sisters. Wow.. Im happy! Alhamdulillah..

Facing life together, doing things together. Shes my everything. Wel, i maybe said this before, but honestly, shes different. Im not comparing, but yet, thats just the fact. I want her to be my 'halal'.

My place is her home as well. Not just house for stoping by, but home. I accept her, and the family accept her too. I thank God, that God send her to me. Not just to me, but my life.

We shared everythings like we used to do. Choosing to be happy. And what else is her family accept me for who i am. Bapa, mami, nini bini, nini laki, her brothers, her cousins, her friends, even her bungsu. Alhamdulillah..

The business that we're doing is really are make everyone around us positives. Even my business partner says that, we are perfect for each other. Not just one person who said that, but many. They appreciate us.. Alhamdulillah..

Seriously, she make things different. When she came to my life, everythings great. Everyones happy. And we wanna maintain this. With God's willing.

We both knows our own limitations and we both knows we can face this peacefully. Cause we're in this together, whatever it takes. Melancholy Choleric, should be alright. She knows where shes heading. Same personalities, that makes us perfections. Not just us, but people around us whos saying that. And we both believe that. Alhamdulillah..

Somehow, i just wanna say, "Happy First Monthsarry" to us dear baby! May God always bless our relations til He stop us frm living. Amin, Alhamdulillah..

Til here guys, and selamat menunaikan fardhu subuh. Cheers.. <3 :)

we meet again.

2012-01-20T17:23:00.000+08:00

i just wanna share here how happy i am with my baby. Shes awesome. Same personality, same love langguages, and understanding. Which shes my everything to me. Everyone was shocked when i said, i knew her since i was in frm 4. Yes, we used to be friends. But, only friends who shared everything. She always find a way to find me. Wherever i go. Thats her before.

Last year, when my relations with my ex is complicated, where the moment she asked me to move on, thats when i started to pray to God, and asking Him, how i wish i could find someone who knows me for who i am. Then, few nights before im going to Jakarta, i was out with friends. Idk, somehow, i wanna pee. We stop by at Centre Point, Gadong. And there, i meet someone. Shes my long lost friend. As usual, applying people skills and asking for her number. God sent her to me. Plus, i got new name list.

After i got back frm Jakarta, the night before TPS, she misscalled me. I was shocked. Cause the next day i should call her. Then, we texting and meeting up. On that night jua, im applying what ive read, and yeah, knowing everything. And finds out that shes also had a broken relationship. So we shared everything, and i learned alot frm her. Mostly my mistakes towards my ex. Im awaken by her. But, Alhamdulillah. She accept me for who i am.

The next day, we meet again. TPS, i bring her along. That night where i introduced her to my siblings. To my sister, abng and my little sister. After that i started to know her desire. She opened up everything to me. Again, i learned something frm her. I thank God that God send her to me.

The next day, we meet up again. But this time, i bring my little sister along. We had fun. Knowing each other. Sharing everythings. And that night, i felt something. Something about her. Mostly the time i send her bck home. Everysince that, i felt something missing. Cause that night, she took away my heart.

After we meet up again, i started to forget all my past. I only sees the future everytime shes around me.

How and when we're together, will post it sooner. Til here then. Cheers..

Lets get better life.

2012-01-06T04:35:00.001+08:00

so, since i couldnt sleep, i wanna post. Just wanna share something good. Hopefully its good.

Please do agree with me that, no one is perfect is this world, and every make their own mistakes. More crazy is, some of them thinks that their good enough to be perfect. But yet, their thinking is still inside the box. Still poor mindset.

What i mean here, is that, everyone one of us has their own potential. But everyone just afraid to use it well. Everyone knows that their too good for themselves. But, still thinks that their so bad. Everything is in our mind.

Let me share what i know about mindset. Our mind is very powerfull among all of our body parts. Why so ? Cause every happens is happend in our mind already. How i know this ? Frm all books that i read says the same thing about mind. Its begin with the end in mind.

Thats why we need to feed our mind like we feed our tummy. I bet, everyone of us, like to eat good stuffs, and also nyummy foods. Who doesnt, right ? But, when it comes to mind, why some of us didnt try to feed our mind with some good stuffs too ? Like example, positive words.

Being positive minded is the begining to have positive life. Once we read or listen to positive, our life turns to positive. Being positive is always special. Not just to us, but people around us. Cause everyone couldnt make others to be positive, but everyone of us could make themselves positive instead.

In a book says this, who you becoming is to whom you listen to. If we listen to negative, we'll be one of it. But, if we listen to positive, we'll be better and better. And i believe in that. Cause, even all successfull people in the world, they listen to audio cds. Just to protect their mind.

Theres also another way to protect our mind is by reading motivational books. Theres alot of great books that can improve our self development. We who need to change first, then people around us will change as well.

Another best way to protect our mind is the places where we should be. The environment. Where we should be to protect our mind is at the positive environment. Who we're hangging out with. Who we're dealing with. We also needs to know and understand people. Applying and sharing ideas with other people. Cause, actions cure fear.

The conclusion is, we need to be simple and easy to duplicate. Thats just the great life who everyone dreams of.

I'm maybe wrong, but no one is always right. and im still learning how to guide my own life. And i always put God in me, so that no one can stop our way. Let God guide us with our prayers.

"Change your thinking, change your life."

end.

the morning lights.

2012-01-04T08:31:00.001+08:00

its early in the morning now. But yet, i couldnt sleep. Which i dont know why ? Hmm..

Somehow, let me shared my day yesterday. I wokeup early yesterday. Kononnya kn bgnkn my baby since her first day of being employee. But yet, terbalik. Ya pulang yang wakes me. Haah.. She called me and saying sorry. Aiyo.. Its all good baby.

Was planned kn jogging and after that joining daddy mengejar impian. But, since i slept late malamnya, i spent my day in my room saja. Tidur.. ;s thats bad! I know..

Then, by 1ish to 2pm, i wokeup cause my baby texted me. Tot shes busy with her work, but then inda. Pagi saja. So, she texted me kn jumpa. Since shes on ride. So, i woke up and grabbed my lunch. Melayan udang ~ hahah.

Then, few mins after that she came to my place along with her older brother and her close cousin. So, we hang around for awhile and knowing each other. Then, since shes in a hurry, around ptg-ish, i forgot what time, my baby jalan tia with them.

Then since malamnya infonite, im getting ready awal and done with my asar and magrib. By 7pm, me and the parents, went to kiulap. Then my baby came.

Infonite last nite was great. More knowledge and more information. Alhamdulillah..

Once everything done, we all went back home. Abng came, then tunang kaka came, then kaka and si princess dtg. Since sorg sorg lapar, mummy prepared foods for our late dinner satu family. I feel blessed that everyone was there. The parents, abng, kaka and her fiance, me and my baby and si princess. We eat together, shared some stuff. And funny things that, the parents tot my baby's sleeping over the night. But too bad she couldnt. Even kaka asked her to sleep over. But she has things to do this morning.

After everythings done, i sent her back home to her place. And all the way she hugs me. I felt so blessed to be with my baby. Alhamdulillah..

Enough said, will post again sooner. Cheers! :) end.

You and I, both.

2012-01-03T03:25:00.000+08:00

okeh, blogger! Since its 2012 now, here i wanna say,

"HAPPY NEW YEAR !!" ;D

i know that im late for 3days ? But, who cares ? Haah..

Can't deny that i was beeeeing busy with love ones. But, alhamdulillah.. I did celebrated my new year with her family. And i was great!! What make it interesting was, during the new year night, ada doa selamat for her parents anniversarry, and my baby blackmailed me by asking me to baca doa selamat. Wow.. Thats soooo new to me! And the parents even supported her daughter to ask me baca doa selamat. Seriously ? In front of bapa, mummy, nini laki, nini bini, the brother and his wife and her little brothers ? I was nervous!! ;s but, alhamdulillah.. Ive made it with the help of Iqbal. Wahh.. I really falling inlove. Not just with my baby, but her family. They accept me with an open heart. Alhamdulillah.. Seriously, i never felt this way before. Been accepted for who i am. I really thank God.. Alhamdulillah.. :')

To be honest, i learned from my mistake and now its time for me to make things right. God send her to me. And i appreciate that. You knew that..

21 is always been a special number. What make it special, the person im with. The kind heart person who also had desire and willing to change. Just.. We're heading on the same direction, with full of limitation, to get our satisfaction, for being perfection. Thats just who we are. <3

and we both understand that, we couldnt change the past, and past, stays in the past. We just accept it and willing to face the better. Better for the future. Alhamdulillah..

And yesterday afternoon, we had a trip to Miri. And it was great! First time, had a very long trip with love one. Its really different and cant wait bulan 3, to go Jakarta sama sama. ;D

wel, mun kan dishare panjang pulang lgi nie, but i get enough til here dulu.

"We're moving to fast, just to forget our past."

end.

She's my new chapter.

2011-12-24T21:07:00.001+08:00

its been awhile sudah i dint post anything here. But now, i think i wanna share the happy moment i ever had! :D

so, right now.. Im inlove with someone who used to be my friend. Who she is, will tell the whole world sooner or later. Harap besabar. ;p

wel, what ever happend between us is that, she trusted me frm the begin sudah. Way back to my zaman sekolah. She always came to me and shared everything to me. We even pernah lunch together. Gila, lama brabis wah sudah tu. But yet, that time, shes just a friend to me. Just a friend..

Since she once shared everything to me before, now shes my everything. And alhamdulillah, she accept my past, she accept everything that i do, and what i did. She dint even hide things behind my back. Im happy.. With the same personalities, choleric melancholy, makes me.. Wow! Simple say, she knows whats on my mind, and i know whats on her mind. Nyaman laah, capat bepkir, inda slow inda lagging. And, always have this choleric kind of commitment for the future. They said, shes my perfections, and i said, shes my everything. <3

and what greatest thing ever happend again, my families love her. She loves my family.. She talked with them. She talked to daddy. Wel, choleric and choleric. She promoted herself to mummy. She even talked about the future with abng. And crazy things lagi, shes rapat with my both sisters! Mostly kaka.. Kaka loves her. Kaka gaves her many things and also happiness. I really thank God. Alhamdulillah..

Seriously, i learned frm my mistakes. I always thank God for what ever happend to me. Alhamdulillah..

"Part of the deal, that makes you stronger." - Her.

End dulu. Cause, shes on her way to pick me up.. Need to get ready. ;p cheers!

while waiting.

2011-12-16T19:26:00.000+08:00

now that im waiting for my business partner to fetch me up, i rather blog and share little things frm yesterday.

Yesterday was great. What ungreatful is, aku inda jdi turun tutong. Ada masalah.. But yet, the problem is not the problem, but the problem is how we gonna solve it. Then, i find my way how to solve things out.

Then by 11ish to 12, i bring my sister out and terus jumpa a good friend of mine. Shes awesome! And yet, she makes me sadar. And i owe her everything! I thank you for everything.

Nah, what happend is, the rain dint stop at all.. My glasses lgi tinggal arh friend's place. And yet, kabur mata bejln time hujan ani. Aiyaah.. But yet, show must go on.

While waiting, we hang out for awhile, until adaa. Hahah. Then, we take a flight and fly.. I was.. Wanting to know her back. Since kami lost contact before. And slowly, we did know each other. I once let her meet my siblings. I just wanna make something different this time. Since before, i did my mistake, now im learning. And yet, theres always a limitations for me this time.

Cause the way she expressed her feelings, makes me wonder and makes me thinks that my ex is the one who cakapi me. I just wish you did before and make me knows all the pain you've been gone thro. Yet, everything has change. And everyone deserve a better one.

Building relations with her and fiffy makes me comfortable. Since she once said, i like your sister, cause i dont have one. But, seriously.. Now you do. :)

and so, still im waiting. And the discussion started at 8pm. Now is almost 7.30pm. Kn ke kulapis lgi. Wahh.. Alhamdulilah. The business is growing there. I somehow, thank God for whatever happend to me. Alhamdulillah..

End.

been answered..

2011-12-14T04:48:00.002+08:00

i just done my one chapter reading and now, im about to sleep. But, all of a sudden, i feel like wanna share my day.

So, yesterday i wokeup at 1ish afternoon. I was sleeping over the night at my friend's place. Bangun, terus mandi, then lunch. After that, i startup them since both them (my business partner) belum bestartup.

Then by 3ish, we send someone home, then had to pickup someone in Tanjong Nangka and di Senkurong. Then, had to pick up someond di Tasek Meradun. After that, singgah my place to drop my stuffs.

Then we went to The Mall, Gadong. Kononnya kn prospecting. But, something bad happend. Then, i met her sister. Cerita cerita, since to me, her siblings is like my own siblings too. Then, ive made up my mind just to stay at Chill. Cause, again i dont wanna ruined her day with the friends. Then, i choose just to go home. And yet, i saw shes avoiding me too. Its all good. Might understand.

Then, reached home, i decided to invite some friends to infonite since that night ada infonite. And yeah, alhamdulillah.. Atleast, i can bring one of my friend. Thank you, God. Hope, God opened his heart to fight for whats right for his family.

Infonite, was great. I managed to learn something. Alhamdulillah.. And i also, have the chance to meet new people. New friends that also a dreamer.

Then, after infonite, i follow my business partner to send our group back home. Send off to Rimba, Tungku and Tasek Meradun. Wah, atleast in the car i managed to build some relations with them by listening to some cds. Alhamdulillah..

Masa on my way to Tungku, theres an old friend contacting me. Since i havent meet her for an ages, we planned to meet up. But, before that, i was so sleepy. Since its late. But, once i reached home, i took my mentor advice, mun sleepy, tpi ada appointment, tarus bwa mandi air sajuk, and i did that. I was shaking like hell.. But, dreams catch me.

Then, we meet up and i thank God that we meet up again. Shared ideas, and build back relations. And she treat me makan. Thank you Allah di atas rezekiMu, and thanks to you babe. :D really appreciate the night.

Since the time ticks to 12am, 14th is appreared on my phone. But, since she also just brokeup with her boyfriend, we shared problems and letting all out. And since we got the same situations, all of a sudden, i learned something, and it makes me realized how hurt she is and how in pain my ex was.

The way she mentioned how her boyfriend was makes me understand how stupid i was. How stupid i was dint fight and win back her heart. My friend makes it clear how my ex dint want me back just by her expressions. Now i know, how she dont want me back. By seeing how sad my friend was makes me understand what my ex's sister told me yesterday. And all i can say, from the bottom of my heart, i honestly am sorry for what i did, dear ex girlfriend. :']

by seeing my friend tdi, makes me learned alot. I thank God that i meet you, dear friend. You makes me sadar.. :') and i thank God, i finally given the answer. Alhamdulillah.. And i made my promise, i wont gonna bother your life anymore. Now that i couldnt hold our broken promises that i, myself breaks it. I was still trying to fix it, by fixing myself first. But now, everything is clear. Its time to move on as she always want me to. I try, whatever it takes. :')

"Its time for me to move on, and focus on whats next." - Ayunni Syazwani.

End.

Alhamdulillah, thank you..

2011-12-12T13:24:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah.. Everything make sense now. I wanna thank God for giving me the chance to learn something di 15planner. Thank you, God. Nothing much to post, just that, i think i need to remove everything that unimportant to me already. And always do things that make me closer to my dreams. And my dreams, i wanna be a champion for my family, and having a quality time with them. - end.

when i go bla bla blaaa!

2011-12-11T03:21:00.001+08:00

okeh, thats just great. Alhamdulillah.. Atleast God giving me chance to show me that person who i miss. So, yeahh.. Atleast, kurang jua lah sikit rasa rindu. Wasehh ~

but yeahh.. That was really unexpected.

Somehow, i choose to run away.. Why so ? Cause, i dont wanna ruined her night having fun with her friends. So, yeahh..

What am i saying here ? :s im lost.. Antah! Inda ku tau lgi.. Damn eh..

WIRAAAAA!!! STOP IT!! FOCUS!!

Hiking esuk pagi saja memblast! Titik.. And 15planner will be much better this time. .

I promise myself that, Im better tomorrow than i am today.

End.

i somehow miss you.

2011-12-10T04:26:00.001+08:00

God knows how i feel right now. Thats the reason why i dont wanna sleep late anymore. Once im not sleeping, my mind might always think about you. Idk.. I feel missing.. But, its alright if you dont. I know, you'll have a better life now. But the moon's bright tells me that you miss me. Cause i do too. I cant deny that. Oh God.. Why You give me this feeling, again ? Do i dont deserve to move on when it comes to her ? Or maybe You want me to be with her ? Do i deserve her for living ? Idk.. Please God.. I really need an answer. A right honest answer.

Yatah bagi malas nie ahir tidur ani.. Everything reminds me of you. Lately, i even dreamt about you. But why ? Is she oke God ? Is she fine ? Does she needs me ? Oh God..

Ya Allah.. Sucikan lah hatiku, dan berikan lah ku petunjuk hidayahmu. Lancarkan lidahku agar aku bisa melafazkan zikirMu ya Allah.. Tenangkan lah dadaku. Berikan lah ku jalan untuk membuat sesuatu keputusan yang benar dan tidak menyinggung sekalian ciptaanMu ya Allah.. Amin. :,)

Its time to focus!

2011-12-08T17:14:00.001+08:00

i realized that, lately.. I've been given a dream that unexpected. The one that doesn't make sense anymore.

But when i think about it, is the person that appears in my dreams been given the same dreams as well ? It seems not. Cause, if its yes, something would tells me in many ways.

Far away behind. Thats just the words that i can replace from the words never far behind. Eventhing has change. Everyone deserve a changes in their lifes. Change to something better.

LS, makes me more humble, and listen more and understand people more. I started with the parents. Im building relations back with them. Then, family. Since all my siblings are here already. Cause, usually my little sister had to live her life at the hostel in KB. As we all know, its holiday..

Then, as a leader of a big organisations. We must atleast understand their own situations. Cause, best on conselling with the mentor, he said, the bigger the business, the bigger the devils.

And i agreed! The more we wanna focus, the more distructions we will crossed by. But, life as an eagle, always about being focus. I do wanna search a story about an eagle. Since last time..

Oh, talking about eagle, alhamdulillah my name card siap sudah. I wish i could post it here. But, later will do if my little sister want me to use her new laptop again.

Cause, last night i was doing some works on her laptop. Was doing excel. Doing time table for my routin this coming 2012. Wanna make my 2012 a big history of my life this time. Without any perfect distructions.

Road to Sydney, its like road to get you back. So, what im doing now, i closed my eyes on Sydney, but focus more to Umrah 2013. I can do it..

I really wanna go there so bad. It was in my dreambook. Atleast going there with the parents and ofcause the family. Being a better person is never enough until we've reach to a better place. I wanna be somebody instead of nobody. Thats my affirmations everyday. Being somebody.

"Dream is the key to success."

end.

Di Jakarta ku meneriak!

2011-12-05T13:48:00.002+08:00

now that im still in Jakarta. Alhamdulillah, aku ahirnya sampai jua di Jakarta. Dgn semangat baru, i wont gonna quit fighting for my rights. What past is past, and the future is now. Move on, and they said, dont ever look back to the past that hurts you. Just focus on whats ahead you. Wahh.. Its really a big slap on my face! Alhamdulillah..

Im awake now to make my dreams come true. I wont stop til i r it. And yet, destructions is everywhere. Destructions are the one who will put us under and always been the reason for our failure. Destructions can be either in a good way at the begining nor the bad stuffs that makes you lost. Comfort zone.

Grow is out of comfort zone. Things or whatever that we feel secure of. Or feel nice with. And whos sweet at the begining, that can destroy our secure future. Our dreams. Our burning desire.

Talking about dreams, i think i had a new dreams. This is what happend, last night, i was nyongkrong or should i say "lepak or chill" di Circle K, near by our hotel. I was chilling out with my Indonesian friends. But what happend, i saw theres a mother and her small daughter sleeping outside the mart homelessly. Seriously, me as a human being, inda sampai hati meliat the kid just sleeping there poorly. Eventho their sleeping, i just silently bought them food for the kid to eat actually. Inda ku sampai hati meliat knk knk yang maseh muda ampai ampai cematu gnya.

Then i talked to myself, what makes them like that ? Is it too much social life di umur muda ? Or just homeless ? What if its ever happen to me ? Adakah aku kn kena pedulikan ? Or adakah aku kena usir ?

But, Alhamdulillah.. Di LS ngajarin untuk harus sentiasa memilih a good path way. Ke jalan yang lebih baik dan bermakna to the others. Then, i remembered that i took small pillow and blanket when i was on the plane. And ive decided to just give the kid semampu ku and yet, menyenangkan tidurnya. When i stared the kid, my mind and heart whispered me to pick up the pitty sleeping kid, and let her sleep on my bed instead. But, by giving her small pillow and blanket for her comfort sleep sudah menjadi satu keamanan untuknya dari ku. Alhamdulillah..

And that night, i realized that im born to make others comfortable. Dari segi knowledge, segi pergaulan, apatah lagi dari segi business. Di DLS, i learned about, everyone of us, mesti menguasai principle #1 which is giving.

Harus selalu mempunyai sihat sentiasa mau memberi. Cause i believe in the qoute, "The more you give, the more you will get."

alhamdulillah, aku bnyk belajar and aku sentiasa mensyukuri apa yang Tuhan telah ciptakan dan apa yang Tuhan berikan kepadaku selama ani. Alhamdullilah..

Wel, since today is gonna be our last day in Jakarta, i dont wanna waste my time. Cause time is money. And money is not everything, but every things need money. Umrah 2013, im qualified! And now, its time to work hard and work smart. Alright blogger, i move on and will post again once i reached Bruland. Insha-Allah..

"There is no fear in Love." - Skip Ross.

End.

without you, im going.

2011-11-30T05:43:00.001+08:00

im stuck! Im stuck in the middle of my packing right now. Idkw.. Cause, usually.. You were there with me. You always support me no matter what. And i remember how you make me wanna write a letter to you everytime i wanna leave Bruland. But, now.. Everything has changed. I just, idk.. Even now, im still wide awake and still my things havent fully pack yet. And i realized i only have few more hours to go.

Seriously, without you.. Im stuck. I just, lost ? Lost everything.. But, my mind keep on reminding me that, LS, i will find my answer. All my questions will be answer di LS. 12pm, thats my flight frm BWN to JKT.

You usually there, always giving me support. By sending me off to the airport and you always find a way.. But now, its gone. Just like that. Somehow, i miss that moment when you said, "be good there, and think of me." that words always make me dont wanna do bad things behind your back. Eventho, youre not around me. But those words make me feels you were always there with me where ever i go.

Now, without your support, i just pray God to keep me strong whatever it takes. My eyes even fall a tears when i started packed some of my things. It reminds me of you.. But yet, where ever you are, i always pray for your success and mostly your health. Hopefully your breathe wont stuck as it always happend and i hope, mami will always getting better everyday. And i also hope the best for your family.

Now that im going, this will be a new chapter of my story. Where i try not to look back my past life. Eventho, meeting you, loving you, and having you in my life is always been a good chapter, but this time, i promise i'll make a great journey of my story. Dynamic Living Seminar Live for 6hours with Skip Ross, i am so positively will learn alot. With Allah's will.. Insha-Allah.

Eventho to end it, its never my will but moving on is what we both must do. Even its never that easy at the begining, but have to face it patiently. With the will of Allah, i'll be stronger to walk thro part of the deal. Insha-Allah..

"ya Allah, tunjukkan lah aku ke jalan lurusMu, kuatkan lah aku dari segala penolakkan dan jadikan lah aku kepada insan yang berguna diatas nama keluargaku."

end.

Leadership.

2011-11-24T21:49:00.001+08:00

salam and hello blogger. I feel like blogging. So, here. Imma share something.

Today, i wokeup early and alhamdulillah, i showered and sempat my subuh prayer. Then, i continued my reading. One chapter done today. And it was awesome! I really learned alot. Alhamdulillah..

Since, i dont wanna be lazy and in need of changging and being a better person, i now start to work out. Mostly on my fitness. I wanna be fit, instead of being fat. Inda sehat usulnya.

So, what happend is.. I went hiking for the second time di Tasek Lama. Its was.. Grrrreat ? Eventho tired, but it really does helping my mental toughness. And i learned alot! As they said, "Once our "nawaitu" wanted to learn, everything around you will be a teacher." its true! Its happening to me eversince my 4th or 5th LS.

Talking about hiking, im a person who like advancerous since i was in high school way back 2003ish to 4. I was in Scout Team before. And i had alot of experiance when it comes to jungle tracking or should i say hiking ? It was fun to be close with the mother nature and seeing all green or i should say, God's creations ? I always felt calms eventho its tiring.

Then, all that things has been burried eversince i left school. But, when i was in PPB, ive been send to Belalong since im selected for being AJK there. And its like, siuk brabis! Got team building, dream building and mcm mcm. Will shared about it some other time.

What i wanna share is about my second time hiking tdi pagi. It was siuk, sakit, sasak, stress, fun, enjoyed, tiring and if i can define it in one word, i might say, Leadership.

Being a leader, its never that easy. One mistake we made, they will duplicated tousand mistakes. Being a leader is like a fish living inside the clear aquarium. The bigger you can be, the easier you can be seen.

And as a leader, he himself who must leading on. Shown a good example. Then people can followed. Its like, if a leader who leads 3 people, then there was a dead end. Atleast 3 people still can turn back. But, what if 300 people ? Tough decisions. Thats why leaders are never easy. But, it will be easy if you think it is. Plus, all great leaders are great readers.

So, whats my point here is.. Its so obvious that problems are everywhere. But, the real problems is, how WE gonna solve it. I know that sometimes, we felt like wanna give up, we felt like wanna quit. But yet, we never realized that, if we just maintain it and just carry on with the pain and hurts, in the end, we'll get what we wanted and atleast, we'll have something to learn. Or i should say, ada hikmah disebalik kesulitan.

Just focus more to solutions, not the problems. Thats a real leader. Leading on and most import thing is a real leader, the one whos being a problems solver. The one whos never quit on their dreams.

"Pemimpin adalah pemimpi." - IM.

End.

Audioslave - Like A Stone.

2011-11-23T06:09:00.000+08:00

on a cobweb afternoon
in a room full of emptiness
by a freeway i confess
i was lost in the pages
of a book full of death
reading how we'll die alone
and if we're good we'll lay to
rest
anywhere we want to go

(chorus)
in your house i long to be
room by room patiently
i'll wait for you there
like a stone
i'll wait for you there
alone

on my deathbed i will pray
to the gods and the angels
like a pagan to anyone
who will take me to heaven
to a place i call
i was there so long ago
the sky was bruised
the wine was bled and there you led me on

in your house i long to be
room by room patiently
i'll wait for you there
like a stone
i'll wait for you there
alone

and on i read
until the day was gone
and i sat in regret
of all the things i've done
for all that i've blessed and all that i've wronged
in dreams until my death
i will wander on..

Creep - Radiohead.

2011-11-23T06:00:00.001+08:00

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell I'm doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out the door
She's running out
She runs runs runs

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here..

good becomes great, bad becomes worse.

2011-11-22T07:24:00.002+08:00

salam and morning blogger. Seriously, ive been off the limit this lately. Lost everysince i received that msg. But somehow, alhamdulillah, ada bisikkan azan memanggil.

I learnd that, life must have satisfactions. Once we get satisfied, people who's we're dealing with also deserve it like we deserved. Whats worse is, when we felt the satisfactions but, people don't. Thats obviously goes to the term of jealousy.

Last time, i went to Time Square with a friend. And there i saw the actors frm Malaysia. And seriously, i saw one of the artist's girlfriend looks jealous when her boyfriend taking pictures with different girls. But, frm what i can see, thats just part of the deal. How she humbly just shut up and sit there quitely. And she understand that she deserve that at first place. Artist ? She couldnt do anything.

Then i think back what i did wrong. Its alot! But, with God's will.. After what happend between us, i managed to learn and contacting back all the girls who has been with me just by saying sorry for my any wrongdoings. Thank you, and thank God for what happend. Alhamdulillah.. Eventho, its not all.. But, dgn izin Tuhan, i'll find my way to say sorry with the guide of my prayers.

Perfect ? No, i am not.. Just that, everytime i face Allah with my prayers, i felt like im being myself. I was sunked and lost in my love life. I dint blame love, but love doesnt stands for, Legs Open Very Easily. Then i realized how easy they were and also how easy them to move on. Oh God, kids nowdays.

But, whatever happens, it always frm Allah. Either we take the chance to learn, or just leave it and having fun with the sins ? Its your choice.

What i learnd lagi, bad things, negative things, easily influenced them. But when it comes to good things, positive things, people just ignored it without thinking. So pitty how they dont wanna take some chances. But again, only God knows.

Idkw i post this, but.. Im just being random lately. Being phlegmatic should i say ? Tau ikut ikut saja.. Nyehs, stupid!

Somehow, i am back on track. LS are just around the corner. Need to focus more, and dream more bigger! To have my own twins babies. ;p Oh, i just love babies! Hahah. But, sabar saja. Now, Im focusing more to Umrah 2013. And by that time, i'll get married. Insha-Allah, dgn izin Tuhan. :)

"Dimana ada kemahuan, disitu ada jalan."

have a great day everyone. God bless. Cheers!

End.

Cake - I Will Survive Lyrics

2011-11-17T12:10:00.002+08:00

At first I was afraid,
I was petrified
I kept thinking
I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you'd done me wrong
I grew strong,
I learned how to get along
And so you're back from outer space
I just walked in to find you here without that look upon your face
I should have changed my f**king lock
I would have made you leave your key
If I'd have known for just one second, you'd be back to bother me
Oh, now go walk out the door
Just turn around now, you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die? Oh not I
I will survive, yeah
As long as I know how to love, I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live,
I've got all my love to give
I will survive, I will survive,
yeah, yeah

It took all the strength I had just not to fall apart
I'm trying hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry but now I hold my head up high
And you'll see me with somebody new
I'm not that stupid little person still in love with you
And so you thought you'd just drop by and you expect me to be free
But now I'm saving all my lovin' for someone who's lovin' me

Oh, now go walk out the door
Just turn around now, you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die? Oh not I
I will survive, yeah
As long as I know how to love, I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live,
I've got all my love to give
I will survive, I will survive,
yeah, yeah..

Ada hikmah disebalik kesulitan.

2011-11-15T04:54:00.001+08:00

i dont know why i sounded desperate when it comes to 14th. It supposed gonna be our great moment. The 20th monthsarry. But then, its no used when what i get is only been ignored. Whats the point ? But yet, let me share how i rolled my 14th.

When it turns 14th, i was wondering about her. Was expecting frm atleast a single text or whatsoever frm her, but nada. So, its alright. Alhamdulillah.. I bet she forget about me sudah. That fast ? Wel, cant deny that.. With new bunch of people shes hanging out with, new invironment shes having, new stuffs and i bet, new life shes holding. Wel, thats congrates to you for being easily moved on.

Somehow, i was watching movie with them. And i learned alot frm that movie. Since the night before, i got inpired by the movie, 'Facing the Giants'. Yet, it says that.. Once our nawaitu is despretely wanted to learn, everything around you will be your teachers. I agreed with that.

After that late nite movie, i was having a little conversations with my good friend about, my love life, since hes sleeping over. Somehow i learnd that, not to give up on something that we really want. And yet, my guts told me to get her back. But, i guess thats my weaknesses for not doing it, instead, damaging my mind with thinking ? Sakit jua jadi meloncholy ani. But, i just believe in miracle. I believe that God has a better plan for me. Amin..

By 8ish morning, we wokeup. Cause swimming every monday morning is our schadule. Since lama sudah rasanya inda swimming atu, so why not ? We reached Anggerek Swimming Pool by 9ish and we swim. It was great, but sunburn saja. And by 3months ahead, i know that i could swim better. Dgn izin Tuhan. And i know that i really should quit smoking for good. Pindik nafas besigup ani. And i felt unhealthy. Since im working out for my fitness, so yeahh.. I think that i should. Insha-Allah..

Then by 12ish, went back home and Alia was there. And God knows how much i miss my little lover. Spend time with my niece, and i want me who teach her how to walk. Just like i did to Iman.

After done with my zohor prayer, i went out to Kiulap then went to jalan muara. To settle the signing up thingy. Then had to go back to Kiulap. Then, balik..

At home, i took my 15mins to continue my reading and was chit chat with my oldest brother for having a new phone. Still confused which one is better. Between, iphones or htc. But, since soon to be we're going to Jakarta, plan kan beli blackberry jua. Aiyo..

Then i realised that it was dark outside already. And plan kn jogging, cancelled. Tetidur wah.. Aiyaah!

Done with my isyak, then i went for my dinner alone. Kaka came, and chilled with her til abng came. We minggle around and wishing all the siblings were here with us. Then the parents came. Few mins after that, kaka's fiance came. Then we went out.

We went out to get some foods. Went to pasar malam, and beli sikit, tapi rezeki banyak kena bagi. Alhamdulillah..

Balik rumah, and enjoying the foods. I enjoyed eating lambchop. :9 seeeeeeedap!

It was fun to hanging out and mingle around with the one we love. It wont felt empty eventho you were and when you felt missing. Somehow, i thank God for whatever happens. Alhamdulillah.. :')

just remember 3 things,

1. God.
2. Family.
3. Business or Jobs.

"Every heavy storms, there's always a rainbow at the ends."

end.

Karna ku sayang kamu.

2011-11-12T17:41:00.000+08:00

Seandainya, kau ada disini denganku
Mungkin ku tak sendiri Bayanganmu, yang selalu menemaniku
Hiasi malam sepiku
Kuingin bersama dirimu
Ku tak akan pernah, berpaling darimu
Walau kini, kau jauh dariku Kan slalu kunanti
Karna ku sayang kamu

Hati ini, selalu memanggil namamu
Dengarlah melatiku
Ku berjanji, hanyalah untukmu cintaku
Takkan pernah ada yg lain

Adakah rindu di hatimu Seperti rindu yang kurasa Sanggupkah kuterus terlena Tanpamu disisiku, ku kan slalu menantimu

Seandainya, kau ada disini denganku
Mungkin ku tak sendiri Bayanganmu, yang selalu menemaniku
Hiasi malam sepiku
Kuingin bersama dirimu
Ku tak akan pernah, berpaling darimu
Walau kini, kau jauh dariku Kan slalu kunanti
Karna ku sayang kamu
Kan slalu kunanti
Karna ku sayang kamu..

Dirampok.

2011-11-12T06:19:00.000+08:00

Orang-orang yang berbahaya bukanlah mereka yang memukul anda dengan tongkat pemukul dan merampok anda dengan senjata.
Pencuri tidak akan menyerang ciri-ciri karakter anda atau meremehkan kemampuan-kemampuan anda di depan anda!
Kemungkinan besar seorang teman yang bermaksud baik yang akan menghancurkan tekad anda untuk menang.
Tidak, ia tidak merampok anda, dengan menodongkan senjata, ia hanya berkata, "itu tidak bisa dikerjakan."
Ketika ditunjukkan kepada ribuan yang telah berhasil ia tersenyum dan berkata, "Mereka lebih unggul! Bijaksana secara kepribadian dan kemampuan, mereka lebih unggul daripada yang orang lain dapat lakukan!"
Tidak peduli apakah kata-katanya itu salah. Kerana, anda merasa "orang lain" pasti mengenal anda!
Jadi, anda dirampok dari harapan anda, dari impian-impian anda untuk sukses.
Dirampok dari berkat materi yang diterima, dirampok dari iman anda yang berkata, "Aku bisa," dan dirampok oleh seorang teman yang bodoh dan tak bersenjata.
Jadi, orang-orang yang paling mematikan bukanlah orang bersenjata, tapi orang yang paling mematikan bukanlah orang bersenjata, tapi orang yang memberitahu anda "itu tidak bisa dikerjakan!"
Kerana apa yang telah diambil oleh para perampok dapat diperoleh kembali, tapi apa yang dapat menggantikan tekad anda untuk menang ?

Bermimpilah lebih besar. Hilangkan rasa ketakutan dengan memperjuangkan impian anda.

End.

so yesterday.

2011-11-11T08:24:00.002+08:00

salam and goodmorning blogger. Alhamdulillah, i started my day with my subuh prayer. And when i opened up my blog, i realized my post was very rude, so i just deleted it. Inda ku sampai hati membaca.

Anyway, today has a great date ever. Its remind me of an ex way back in school days. We once pernah couple thro this date. 11.11. But, what makes it different, awal ani datenya is 11.11.11 more nicer and ruuuuggedd! I just wish i could make something good and make a memories thro this date. Friday tah lagi. I'll find a way.. :)

so, let me just share my yesterday. I wokeup somewhere around 1ish to 2 i guess ? Went out frm my room, and both brothers was there. So, join them mingle mingle til kaka came. So as them parents. We chit chat and talk about the world's update ? Hahah.

Then i endup doing my zohor. After that, my friend wokeup since hes sleeping over, then we have our late lunch. Andangnya drumah ani we usually lunch around 3ish to 4pm ? Freedom of time to have quality time with the family. Financial freedom lagi we'll have soon enough. Dgn izin Tuhan..

And so, since i supposed ada follow up di TS at around 4ish, after lunch im sending off my dad to Kiulap. Balik rumah, doing my Asar, since inda jdi follow up, i just stayed at home til dad minta ambil. Once he did, we jalan and picking up dad di Kiulap.

While in Kiulap, me and my friend went window shopping near by sana. But then, mun kan membeli baju atu, alang alang tah di Jakarta. Since im counting days awal ani. And yet, pasal belayar ani, i am so jealous that my brother had a free trip to Paris this coming 24th kali. And what makes im jealous brabis lagi, he got stop by di Amsterdam. Oh my.. Always been a dream country for one of us. Inda apa, my honeymoon, im going there with my future wife. Amsterdam, Venice and Hawaii. This three places is a must go for me on my honeymoon. Insha-Allah..

Then, sending dad home, and we went to Gadong just to kill the time. By 6ish to 7, blik tia. Stayed at home til around 8ish to 9, we went out. Planned kn ke Jp, but we end up ke Gadong ? Gadong jua.. But somehow, ada jua tejumpa jumpa old school mate. But sudah on my namelist. Hee.

Then by 10, we went to Jp. And it was sunyi brabis, but i did saw my ex girlfriend way back in Primary School jalan with her family. Wait, why lately im dealing back with my exes ? Hmm.. But alhamdulillah, ive managed to say sorry to them for my wrongdoings towards them. I believe whatever happend to me right now is based on my past karma. Thats why God shows me my past lately by sending them exes to my present just to forgive and forget towards my mistakes before. But, alhamdulillah i had my chance to say sorry to them just to have their peace in me and maybe peace in them.

Then, since im in Jp, sampat lah jua menungking. Thanks to my bestfriend who always there to remind me in everything i do. And thanks jua that you who understand me in any condition i am having right now. Thanks, Aqezzah Sirat. I love you! :'D

and so after Jp we went to Waterfront in Bandar. Inda ku paham tempat atu. Why it was build at first place ? Oh, i get it.. Untuk merusakkan kaum belia or should i say the young generations dgn kegiatan tidak bermoral, kegiatan melepak sampai ke subuh dan kegiatan social yang menjahamkan remaja di usia muda. Thats why..

Why i said so, because.. Asal i went there, mesti ada sekelompok anak anak muda yang mabuk mabuk, pergaulan bebas, lepak lepak. But then, antah lah.. Im not being sibuk dgn kehidupan drng, is just that ive been there. And i really knows how it feels. The comfort zone. Zona yang nyaman. And usually, kenyamanan adalah punca kegagalan. Gagal dari apa ?

Gagal untuk menghadap Tuhan. Sedangkan barang yang wajib tplng ditinggalkan ? Yang inda wajib di buat tplng nie ? So, gagal untuk menghadap Tuhan.

Apa lagi ? Gagal meluangkan masa bersama Keluarga. To know them well. Know their personalities. Their love languages. Sayang sekali mun di abaikan. Family comes first. Once we know the meaning, we'll be blessed. Dont ever miss it. Be a champion for our family. Jgn pernah gagal demi Keluarga.

And lastly gagal on educations. Ani lgi parah nie. Mana inda, masuk class, ngantuk bgas lepak malamnya. Exams fail, inda beguna kan merah mata. Inda guna kn menyasal. Endup, memalukan keluarga.

Just remember, once parents menagur or memarahi, thats just for our own good. How i know ? Cause ive been there.. Somehow, i thank God for whatever happend in my life.

Why am i that far, idk. Just that, they said, belia aset Negara. But look at belia nowdays. Sakit..

Somehow, bck to my story, after dari sana, we went back home tia. Was with them abng tdi. Then, tidur. Tbgn subuh tdi, atu yang post diatas tia.. Wel, til here then. Have a great Friday. Cheers.. :)

when i go blablablaaa ~

2011-11-10T07:29:00.000+08:00

salam and hey blogger! First of all, goodmorning. :)

so, im gonna share something weird happend just now. Its funny how i got mentiond by unknown and ada link nya that i wish i could open it. But, wait til im using proper apps for twitter. But some how, that link got a reply frm my posted. When i checked, it was my 1month post to my almost-so-called lover. And i find out that she followed me back. And that makes me, idk.. Go thro it ?

Seriously, i really know the pain you having. And i know i never was good enough for you. I know i maybe a liar. And i also noticed that im not that perfect. Im not that well-born. I did mistakes which i can learnd frm it. Im confused! :'s

seeing back all our tweets before make me miss you and mostly when you call me 'sayang'. It somehow, can make me smile when i think back how happy crazy unlimited life we had. But yet, i just couldnt do anything. I dont wanna annoyed you. But somehow, i can see you're being happy and moving on. I just dont wanna interupt and try not to bother you're life. I only can pray for you and your family well. :')

seriously, its never that easy to let you go at the first place. But, you pushed me away by asking me to move on. I did, but i know deep in me that i couldnt let you go. But, once said, true love, it'll come back and know where to be headed.

Am i sound like im hoping ? Idk.. Hopefully this coming LS will brainwashed me for good. I am so cant wait to go Jakarta. Please come fast.. I know that all answers ada di LS. Skip Ross tah lagi.. By reading his book awal ani pun makes me think wide open. I am so sure this upcoming LS is gonna be mind blowing. Which i suppossed bringing you along with me. But, its alright. I maybe deserved someone better. Shes just not ready to live the life that i live right now. Shes too young to handle i guess. But, shes always the smart one in me. Always been.

Wel, idk already.. Im just kinda lost without you. Eventho i tried not to. But i know very well that i need to learn more frm my mess that ive created. Leaving just like that, never been a better solutions.

Idk what im saying, just a crap!

End.

Dream catch me.

2011-11-09T06:17:00.001+08:00

salam, and goodmorning blogger. Idk what to post, but i feel like blogging.

Wel, last night it was a great infonite. Menaikkan semangat. But, semangat gnya inda cukup without the works. So, i need to work smart now. 90x stp, per month, thats one of my goals for this month. 1 done, so 89more to go.

Countdown! Yes, being a melancholy, we needs countdown. I need countdown. Just to work smart and to get smart results. Its time to focus more. Sydney next year ? Wel, im more focus to Umrah upcoming 2013. I must qualified with the whole family. Seeing the video masa NBT, with the Umrah Trip. It was amazing! Memanggil manggil sudah. I wanna feel it. And being insaf ? Why not ? To be a better muslim guy. Always been a dream in me.

Talking about dreams, i just need to focus more. I just need to bigher my dreams. I just need to search more desire. I just need to find something that makes me run more faster. Yet, bringing both our families Umrah always been my dream before. It is still since i owe mami a sin. Not just a sin, but too much sins ive made. I wanna bring her atleast Umrah sama sama untuk menebus balik all my wrong doings towards her daughter. Insha-Allah, dgn izin Tuhan, pasti tidak akan ada halangan. Amin.. :')

yes, im a dreamer! A big dreamer and also a big achiever. Once i can dream it, i definitely can achieve it. Think big baby, and dream big. Thats the only key to succeed when we put believe in it. Idkw im this far.. But, now i realized that i need to do something. Its now. Today, and won't be Too Late. Insha-Allah..

"Dimana ada kemahuan, disitu ada jalan."

have a nice day ahead, and smile always. Cheers..

End.

i've made a mistake.

2011-11-08T07:08:00.000+08:00

salam and goodmorning! Damn.. I really dont like this anymore. To sleep in the morning, and wide awake at night ? It seems inda sehat rasanya. I seriously need a change. A big change in my life. If people deserve it, why not me ? Why not Wira Julaihi ?

I know people do mistakes, cause i know too that no one is perfect. Ive made up mistakes. And somehow, ive learnd frm it. Always did.

Frm the book that i read, it says that we need atleast one minute with our ownself. Think positives, and spend your one minute with just yourself. And i did try, but.. Unfortunately, you appears. Ireallydontknow already. What to do, and did not do. You appears, thats when i started to get confused.

I tried my very best to follow whatever you said, but sorry to say, it didnt work. But, if thats the best for both of us, i will never stop trying eventho its full of pain. God will guide my way of being right.

Yet, i dont wanna look back. I dont wanna look back on whatever wrong doings ive made. Its somehow, make me goes negative. I agree with my ex-girlfriend by saying, just think positive. If shes worth to wait, time will tell. Thanks, Dirah. You've always been the best one when it comes to advice me.

Life must go on. No matter how struggle i was sebenarnya to move on like you asked me to, but idk.. I always believe in miracle. We both believe in that, i know. Just appreciate for whatever happens. Part of the deal will always tested us. How strong we might be.

Why im posting this, idk.. I just find out that one of my friend get thro breakup and she also been asked to move on. Seriously ? I know how it feels.. Struggle! Only God knows.. But, sabar saja tia.

Focus masalah, sakit saja otak. Move on, move on tah tu.. If she thinks shes better, shes right. Oh God, napa tia post ku sampai jauh kemari tia pulang ? Im sorry..

End.

genap sebulan since you want me to move on.

2011-11-07T17:43:00.001+08:00

i wish i could text you and make it right. But, its no used i guess.

Somehow, today's genap one month since that happend between us. But, yeah.. I felt missing, cant deny that. I felt empty, and i felt naked without your smile and everything.

But yeah, atleast ive find out, we're not that different at all. May God bless us both. We're not perfect, i know.. And we deserve better in anything.

I wish i could say how i feels. :)

end.

Not 'the problems', but 'the solutions'.

2011-11-07T06:52:00.001+08:00

salam and goodmorning blogger. First of all, again i wanna say, "Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha" to all muslimin and muslimat. May God always bless us with strong strength, love, and also mendapat rezeki yang halal. Amin, and alhamdulillah..

So, blogger! Here, i just wanna share my few days back and things that i learned.

It all started with a special time last friday with our mentors frm Indonesia. It was so great! Awesome brabis. And seriously, i miss Jakarta already! Batah end of November ani. But, sabar.. Hee.

So, yeahh.. No just mingle with the mentors, but we had the chance to learn something new about everything. Mostly about life. I learned mostly about life. Alhamdulillah..

Then on saturday night, we had our night. Our Leaders night, and it was crazieee! So, complete informations and sharing frm the mentors was valueable. Its, great. Menyadarkan brabis and its really awakenings frm the sleep, and being lost. Since one of my goals to be a better person and being a great leader, that Leaders Meeting was really helpful brabis. Thank God, and alhamdulillah..

The next day nya, on sunday, which is yeterday, wah.. Lagi tia gila banar! Its really mind blowing, and i got inspired by all speakers. Mostly frm our guest speakers.

Not just them, but the environment make it happening yesterday with all positive people and excited leaders. Siuk brabis.. Its really different frm before before yang pernah terjadi. But yet, aku bersyukur atas apa yang terjadi to me myself sebelum ani, and alhamdulillah im in this Business with my family. Thank God.

Seriously, i learned alot. And mun kn di post, luan banyak, so i just share yang really had an impact to me, is about, problems are everywhere. We cannot run frm problems. Even in lifes. But then, what ive learned, all problems punya solusi. Ada solutions.

Mikin dipikirkan masalah, mikin bertambah plng masalah. But, why not focus more on solutions instead of problems ? 'The why', then you'll find 'The how' to settle it. So, the more you focus to, thats you will get. Everyone knows that, i know. But, we just dint apply things that we know. Thats our problem. But yet, not the problem yang penting, tapi solusi.

"Every problems, theres always a solutions."

til here, adious.

End.

Only God knows better.

2011-11-05T08:01:00.000+08:00

salam and goodmorning blogger. First of all i wanna thank God for whatever happens to me. Alhamdulillah..

Let me share here, yesterday it was a very great day for me. Idkw, but yeahh.. Let me start it frm the first time i opened up my eyes yesterday. I woke up quite late. And i planned to cut my hair masa patang. But then, i ended up with my business partner the whole evening.

We went to Kiulap, to decorate for the special time party malamnya. So, we've been askd to look for the stuffs that needed. Which, end up with two items only ? Gila bah.. When pink things involves, thats when i get lost. Inda wah ku pemandai. :s how i wish i still have the one i love, i bet she will know what to do. Ada jua orang kn di-refer. But, sabar saja. :')

so, we send the stuffs back to Kiulap, then we went out for shopping. Since the themes was pink and white, and, since we've been asked to use pink, shopping baju pink plng nah. We end up in Gadong. And yeah, found it. Seriously, it was my first time beli baju warna pink. Silly..

Then, went back to Kiulap. And yeah.. Mendangankan men-deco, then by 6ish, rush tarus begunting nearby my place. Then, went back home, tarus bsiap. Around 7ish, we reached Kiulap. Since the party was in Kiulap. Then, thats when something happend to me.

We celebrated, eat, chit chat, and sharing. Sharing frm the mentors makes me think wide open. And you, poped out on my mind in all of a sudden. I bet its because their were sharing more about relationship. And, whatever the masseged yang kena sampaikan atu, its true. Its about ego.

Cant deny that every single one of us, ada egois. Including you, and me. Its true when they said, ego tidak harus diasuh dan di belai. Every since then, i keep on blaming myself for whatever happend between us. We once created our dreams and going stronger. We once pray to God to protect us whatever it takes. We even shared every single things together. We even make ourself promises. To be together no matter what, and always been together whatever it takes. Idk, but you poped out on my mind out of nowhere. It really does made me think it back and how i really wish to fix everything back to who we are used to be. But, idk.. Miracle happens. :)

summary to the special time last night, it really slap my face with their sharing. And they also said, most importantly is, our relations with God. Alhamdulillah, it makes me sadar for who i am. And i will try my very best not to do the same mistakes whatever it takes. I will focus more to my dreams.

After the celebrations, i went follow up kan my business partner pnya kedalaman. Then after that, went back home. Minggle around with the siblings and friends. While watching big fat liar. And again, you poped out. It seems, something which i dont know apa. Like, the more i dont, the more it does.

Then makan, and after that, we've watchd sang pemimpi. Ive watch it for the second time. And idk, i made my keputusan not to miss my Subuh prayer. And after that, as always i pray and asked for an answer towards you.

Then, i end up kn baca buku, one minute for yourself. Kali, i was wondering whats my bookmark for this book. Since before, i used picture as my bookmark, it makes stand up and ambil family picture that i keep frm very long time ago, and guess what ? I found a very first letter that you gave me, along with your pictures that always been my fav.

It really does make me think, why shes never been that far away frm me ? Why must you appeared again ? Why ?? Was it same goes to you too ? Are you think about me too ? God.. If you do, you know what to do. Kill our egos together. And God, He knows everything. Cause, the mentor shared, always greatful for whatever happens. :')

"Only God Knows."

til here, cheers guys, and have a great weekends. And you, have a great day ahead. Semoga Tuhan memberkati kitani sekeluarga.

End.

God's timing always perfect.

2011-11-03T03:21:00.001+08:00

salam blogger. Idkw, but i feel like wanna blog. So, here.. My 2nd day, was not bad. Wel, theres a friend sleeping over. Lapang lah jua otak. Inda jua tpkir kn itutu.. Haaah!

Yet, it was a great wednesday tho. Biasa, with Alia and them. Never bored me.. And plan kan jalan yeterday patang, tpi inda menjadi. So, stayed home. And learning something yesterday. How to organised everything in a great conditions. Being melancholy is always needed, not just sometimes, but all the time.

Then, before 8pm, when out with my business partner to close NBT tickets, and gone to wywy lambak. Oh, wywy lambak, where i first time meet and know someone whos awesome to me lately. Not just being awesome, but a nurse to heal my broken heart, and a teacher frm different school. Hahah. ;p somehow, she makes me awesome. Cause she is awesome. Cant deny that.. Hee. <3

oh, jauh tplng nah.. And so, wywy lambak, had the chance to meet them all, meeting new friends, even long lost friends. Wahh.. Siuk tdi.. Best part is, sampai wah hajatku tedapat lagu ahh!! Hahah. Bnyk processnya.. But yeah.. Never give up. And sometimes, you gotta roll the dice. Hee.

Making appointment, sampai inda sampat jumpa tia.. Inda apa, God's timing always perfect. Hee.

But had the chance to meet and built relations to new comers. It was great last night. Alhamdulillah.. And today, and tonight, i know its gonna be a very busy day and night since friday we got challenge meeting. Wuhuu.. Siuk!

But, yang membuatnya inda siuk, mostly, their more gonna talk about relationship. Oh my.. What a waste of almost 19th months, in the end, its ended just like that. Nyehs.. But somehow, alhamdulillah.. Ada hikmahnya. Getting more focus, more freedom, more rezeki. Alhamdulillah..

Bah, til here dulu then. Gonna get enough rest for later.. Adious people and have a nice sleep. Goodnight! ;)

my November opening.

2011-11-02T10:52:00.001+08:00

salam blogger, and a very good morning. So far my November comes with a great opening. Mostly when it comes to infonite. Semangat lah jua leh nya.. And it makes me focus on my goals.

Let me share my first day of November. It all started with the end of everything. Including the book i read pun abis sudah. And now, new month, new book. Hee. Yet, i cant wait to read book by Skip Ross, say yes to your potential. But.. My guts tell me, i should read book pasal moving on. And its in english. Plus i need to improve my english so bad. Eventho i do have private english teacher, but, need to be more better. I wanna be a better person. Who doesnt right ? Everyone does.. :)

so, it also started with prayers too. Its true when they said, its better to fall inlove with God, so that people will loves you back. Cause, i believe in karma. What goes around, always comes around. Npa tia ku jauh sampai kemari ani, antah.. Idk. ;p

then, Alia's was here jua. And it calms me and cheers my November. And makes me wonder when can i have my own kids, my own twins. Oh, i still dream to have it tho. One day, insha-Allah. :)

then out with dad, and yeah.. Had the chance to share ideas with him in the car, know him well. Know his love langguages, personalities. Oh, how i wish i read those books before when i was 18yo. But, its alright. For sure i wont do the same mistake that i did to my kids in the future. Insha-Allah, kalau ada rezeki. Hee.

At night, i got class. Weekly class moved again, every Tuesday. And yeah, tonights gonna be a great night. We got coordinate meeting for coming NBT. :D busy opening for my November. But yet, once your busy, problems will disappear. Problems will run away frm us. Cause, the problems is never the problems, its how we solve the problems. :)

somehow, yesterday i learnd something thro qoutes secara inda langsung. It says, "Past is always been a past, and memories is always been a memories." cool. It makes me speechless tho, but antah.. Why should i think about it right ? Move on.. And i think i should read that "move on" book. Hee. :)

after infonite, we got business discussion and yeah.. Always been a fun business discussion when it comes to the siblings. Hee. So far, my November opening is so awesome. Hope, same goes to you baby. Cheers guys, and have a nice day. :))

the end of "October" and here comes November. :D

2011-11-01T00:25:00.002+08:00

salam blogger. Wahh.. October has ended, and here comes November. New month, new life, new goals, new dreams. And yet, past is past and now is the future!

Seriously, sekajap masa atu berlalu. Let me flash back my October.. Its quite awesome. Atleast, i got to learn something in it. Harus bersyukur for whatever happends. Atleast i know, shes not the right one for me. Thank God it happens awal. So, true.. When it says October is full of drama, tragedy. Mcm mcm! But yet, i get to meet new member and new people in it. Alhamdulillah..

So, since its November.. Lets move on. Move to the next level of life. Next focus, next goals and next path. The whats next is i need to be more focus to my goals. No more perfect distructions, no more kiddo's problems, no more past. Its straight ahead now.. Love God, Love Families, and Love my Business. Thats the first thing first.

Since im free, its time to fly high.. Its time to run. Its time to learn something new. Its time to jump high. And its time to go big.

I dont know what im posting actually.. But, yeah.. Lets move on, and run faster ahead. Dreams are waiting for us. For me! Haah.. "Move on" ? Oh, yess !! :D

if im the problem, are you willing to be my solutions ?

2011-10-31T15:54:00.001+08:00

salam and hello blogger! :) today, i feel like wanna blog, so i blog. Haah..

So, lately.. My lifes getting better and better. Eventho deep in me, i know im not. But, wth ? I want it to be better. So, i say it better saja. Haah! Stress much ? But, life must go on. Thats what we should do. Everyone knows that. But yet, whatever happens, happens. Somehow, heres some fact about what happend.

A week before our 19th monthsarry, she wanted to end our relations. Eventho i dont, but i have to. Whats the point of loving people who doesnt love us back ? Instead, she wants me to move on ? If shes are mine to hold, she wouldnt be that far. Thats my prayers eversince then. Until, she said, she dont want to hold on to me already. Thats when everything has stop. I stop.

Then, when everything seems alright, she came out of nowhere. With a shitty textmsg. Mcm, i was like ? Wtf ? But, yeahh.. Somehow, i heard a voice saying that shes still want you. Thats why she textd. But the rest, they were saying, sudah lah.. Shes just messing up your mind. But yet, i realized that shes not that far away frm me. Thanks!

Funny thing is, shes saying that im the one who is gone away ? Which im not ? But, yeahh.. Move on, gone, goodbyes.. You who did it, i dont.

You once said that i shared our loves to everyone. I never did. But now, i do. I shared my loves to people around me. Mostly to my both families. :')

eventho i still love you, doesnt mean im gonna wait for you all these days. Cause, i did wait, hope and want you to be around me eversince us happend, but you dint fight back for us. And maybe i fight not that hard enough to get you back. Somehow, i only know this, if you are meant for me, you wont be that far away frm me. I believe that.. And thats when our memories cant be faded away. Isyftvftimytn.. :')

"When there's a will, there's always a way."

end.

missing.

2011-10-17T11:17:00.001+08:00

salam blogger. Here i wanna share that, i felt missing this few days. And ive been confused. Confusing so bad. I dont know what to do already. Im confused between, i should or i should not. Eventho she wants me to move on, and want me to forget her, but, seriously, i couldnt. The more we dint contacting each other makes me missing you so bad. I can see you, i can feel you. I just, still inlove with you! I can't deny that. But thats the thing, should i contact you and confess my feeling to you right now ? Should i fight for my right to have you ? Should i meet you face to face and talk just to settle this ? But, the thing is, i dont want to pajal and force you. I dont wanna annoyed you. Plus, i couldnt do anything sudah. Even i tried my best not to think of you, but i admit it, the more i dont wanna think of you, the more you appears in my mind. Everytime i read books, i only can see your face, your smile, your shadow. Everytime i dont wanna think of you, mikin kuat tplng tia. I even tried to forget you by contacting other girls thro facebook apa, tapi still.. You are still the special one for me. I bet, this is because our prayers selama ani. Im not hoping, but i know, if youre the one for me, you wont be far away frm me. I believe that. You'll come back, and finish what we have started. Incase you read this, i honestly wanna say im so sorry for what i did wrong to you and baby, please do come back, i miss you so much. Do contact me. :')

p/s: listen to your heart baby, cause we both know, deep in our hearts, nothing can stop us unless God take away one of it frm us. 143. :')

if you're not the one.

2011-10-14T13:23:00.002+08:00

salam blogger. Its 14th today. And it should be a special day ever for me. But, let it just stays in the past. :')

somehow, i just wanna share that why am i still dreaming about her ? If shes not the one for me, why i can see you in my sleep ? Why God gave me that dreams ? Ya Allah..

I know im not that strong enough to face this. I never what this to happen, but yet, it happend. And it happens along with the reason. But, what reason ?? I dont know.. All i know, God's timing is always perfect. :')

moving on ? Yes, everyone asked me to. But, its easy for them to say and maybe its easy for her to say and to move on. To me, i know this gonna take awhile. Gilaa.. No used of saying loves mun sekajap dpt melupakan. Thats bullshit. Somehow, this bullshit, happens.

Actually, i still cant accept it. But, my surrounding asked me to, makes me. Eventho, i say no, but i know every no theres always a yes. The families, friends, asked me to move on. Even the sistem as well. But, yet.. It takes time. Cause i know, in me im still inlove with you. :,)

but yet.. Shes always been special to me. I might agreed with what they said about her. Eventho its hurting my feelings, but .. Idk. All i know, Tuhan pasti menunjukkan ke jalan yang lebih baik to both of us.

You wanna end this, i'll end it now. You want me to move on, i'll move on now. You want goodbye, i give you my goodbye. :')

since you seems okeh for what happend, i only can pray for your better life. Always be good. And, happy used-to-be 19th monthsarry to both of us. Deep in our heart, we're still together until marriage seperate us. :')

cheers.

Random

2011-10-13T11:18:00.000+08:00

salam, blogger. Idontknow where to start, but i always dreamt or should i say angan angan ? about that someone. Why ? Its like this, i saw you coming mengajutly to my place and saying sorry to all my family for what you did. And you come to my room and you saw me sleeping. But you dint bother me, but you lay down next to me instead untill im awake. You wait for me and first words that i hear once i opened my eyes frm sleeping is you saying, "i'm sorry, and i love you." :')

idontknow what God's tryna tell me this time by giving me that dreamt. Idontknow.. But all i know, i wont lock my door everytime i go to sleep now. Might never know, miracle do happens. Im not hoping, but im wishing for it instead. But all i believe is, if you are mine to hold on, you can always find a way back into me. If not, then its alrght. :')

i guess til here dulu then.. Cheers! :)

iDREAMyou.

2011-10-09T19:09:00.002+08:00

salam. Blogger, today was awesome! I just got back home frm NBT. Woh.. Its different brabis rasanya. Empty. Seeing my friend with his partner tdi, wah.. It remind me of us chasing the dreams. But yet, i sees you still. And i almost texted you saying what i felt tdi til now. But yet, its not worth it, i know.. Wel, i dont.. Antah! Lost sudah.. Feels like wanna high myself off crazily til stupid. But yet, i had commited to myself, its enough with that stuff. And move on to a better things. Dreams ? Yes, thats more better. I saw them travelling. Since mum's dreams wants to travell, so its a why not to make it happen. Travelling for free with the family, thats what i can see tdi. And your face poped out everytime i blink. :')

since theres no one to share, i just share it here. Even if theres someone where i can share, its gonna be the family. I learnd something about sharing jua. Mesti ada pihak yang sakit hati. So, i should not share with random people this time. Lately, i learned alot. Alhamdulillah.. I thank God for whatever happens to me. And i always appreciate to someone, and thank you for being part of the family for almost two years. Thank you and may God always bless you. Amin.

I just need to find my new dreams this time. And yes, i know i can dream it, and i know i can achieve it. "Hold tights your dreams, and never let dream stealer steal your dreams." thats the qoutes that i put in me. Good evening guys, and happy always. Cheers.

it fixed.

2011-10-09T08:55:00.002+08:00

salam. Wahh.. Goodmorning blogger! :D alhamdulillah, im awake and alive today. I still had the chance to live and to learn more about living. Somehow, this few days back, i was aiming to fix my sleeping timing and yes, it works. :D

so, let me share here hows my days this week. Eventho it was not so good, but i managed to face it and tried my very best to move on. With the help of book that i read right now, it make me understand more for what just happend. But, yeah.. Nothing last forever. Not just the relations, but the pain as well.

So, yesterday, i was out with my business partner for a breakfast. Since ive been askd to build relations with her, its a why not ? Then we had our breakfast at ca mohammad in gadong. And since she wanna upgrade herself with her studies, whe went to Bahagian Pendidikan Lanjutan. And terus i wanna refun my tickets. But, since batah.. I just walk around and who might never know i might find my diamonds ? :)

since abng kanzul was there, sama ya tia all the way. And since hes going after that, i was with my other business partner who studied there. So, had to chance to know new people. His friends. And i even had the chance to meet my friends there yang applying. Long lost ugama's friend, mates masa kraja, and ramai. It was fun. Eventho, cematu.. Secara inda sengaja, i was hurting someone's feeling. Which i dint expect that at all. Even her texts was .. Mad ? Idk.. I was guilty jua on a same time. But, i might understand. Shes being emotional on her period mood swing. So, she needs the space. Or she deserved another lover. Cause what ive learned frm yesterday lesson, if its a real lover, they will find a way to stay and growing while learning frm their mistakes.. Cause, no one is perfect in this pretty world. Thats why theres learning.

Nah.. Jauh pulang ksna! Somehow, at 2pm yerterday, we got beauty clinic training with mentor frm Jakarta. It was great. Bnyk belajar. Eventho im too weak, but my mental makes me stronger. Thank God.

Then, after the training, i was sempat consulted with my mentor, kajah about my problems. She who always askd me if i attend the function alone. Somehow, shes understand. With the young age, the process atu banyak. And her solution, mun sudah bru cemani mengusut, and you both cant handle, its better to find another. You will meet someone better in your way heading to your dreams. Dont think too much, just think for your future. :')

then, on my way home, i saw her and her friend heading to my place. And yeah, shes giving me back all my stuff and go. And yet, it makes me stronger. Stronger to run towards my dreams.

Then at 8pm, we got LC Swing. And it was awesome! I learned alot and i learned something new. Alhamdullilah.. Somehow, ada hikmah disebalik atu. Walaupun in a bad situation, theres always good things waiting. Yes, everything is fixed. Bad to good, negative to positive, no to yes, you to me, dark to bright, and stress to success towards my dreams. :'D

"If you can dream it, you can achieve it." - Walt Disney.

oh, again!

2011-10-08T05:30:00.001+08:00

salam. I just post it straight to the point. Everythings hard before easy. True. Inda pernah sanang if you aim for a better one. Must been given alot of process. And some, its unexpected. Padahal, baru jua ani, sudah tia. Baru jua atu, ani tia. But, whatever happens, happens.

I know that God's timing is always right. No wonder i be given that dreams. At first, i ignored it, but yatah sudah tu. A sign lah tu kali ahh. But.. Semua pnya hikmah disebalik atu. I believe that. Dipertahankan sesuatu yang diperjuangkan selama ani, its only alot of wasting time. But, inda apa.. The learning process that matter.

End or no end. Sama pun saja. Everyone is still alive. Breakup, is just part of the loves game. But breaking up with the best player, thats the lost. But yet, player are everywhere. Fit or fat, that aint matter at all. To win or to lose, never the point. Cause winners, are the one who stays longer.

Somehow, i thank God this happend. Exactly the right moment where 'this babe' are coming. She always remind me, she'll be mad once we did this. But now, i believe she never care sudah. If she did, she wouldnt gonna end this. Again ?

Biar tia lah. Maybe shes just given to me just for me to learned something about life. But yet, i think its the time to learn something new. Not frm the same person anymore.

Talking about what happend, well.. Seriously, what i did was based on internet's world. The other world yang hanya words who do the talking ? But yet, i know my limits. It only stays on the net's world. Thats in my case. But yours, ada wah gambarnya tarang tarang. Tubuh sama tubuh. Mun kan cakap pasal sakit hati, aku bah inda pernah bejumpa orangnya. Kau ? Almost everyday ? But then, bhapa ku kn stress memikirkan ? Walau ku inda nampak apa yang kau buat, but God knows everything. I know my limits. Limits here, including the feelings that i should, or i should not. Somehow, ada hikmah disebalik semua ani. So that maybe you could focus more on your studies, and me with my goals. Idk.. All i know, baik buruk datang dari Tuhan. :')

"I just want you to be my last, i never want you to be my past, but since you choosed to be my past, i had no guts bringing you to my future."

end.

with the help of God's willing.

2011-09-22T05:15:00.003+08:00

dear blogger,

its true when she said that, "eventho we're not together, deep in our hearts we will never be apart."

true! I also cant deny that. And seriously, i thank God that you accept me back for who i am. Alhamdulillah..

Im just a lost dude without no future when youre not around me. Cause baby, i only can see my bright future when im with you. When i see your smiles, laughs, and even with all your kisses. I felt my future is getting nearby. Our future. Its clear much.

Somehow, when youre not around, i can still feel you. I can see you everywhere. Eventho when they talk about Sydney next year, i only can see you clearly. Its like, worth for me to fight it. Or should i say, atu patut diperjuangkan.

Seriously, i cant deny that im sooo madly inlove with only you. Eventho theres alot of misunderstanding between us, tears, sadness and hates, but its funny, the meds for all these problems is being with you. We both knows how to find our way back together. I really appreciate that.

I even thank God for giving me the chance to love you. Not just loves, but i had the chance to understand myself and to know who i am. Alhamdulillah..

Honestly, i learned alot frm you. Mostly i learn how to be sabar. Eventho its never that easy, but yet it happens to me. I even learned how to control my feelings towards you, towards lifes, and towards everything.

I even realised that mum, always support us dalam diam. Idk what she saw in you. But all i can say, shes always being supportive when it comes to our relations. I thank God for that.

Eventho im not that great in your relatives' eyes, but yet i appreciate your fighting so hard to be still with me. You are a figther in me. You inspired me with your struggleness just to have me. Thank you, God. :')

somehow, i hope theres never too late for me to say, im sorry. And again, i really am sorry for what ever happens to us. Im sorry, love. :')

this time on, it makes me promise to myself that i will take care of you as i promise to your mum at the begining. I'll try my very best to understand you very well. Cause i know baby, youre worth it to fight for.

Lastly, again i wanna thank God for letting me to love you and grow with you. I really am thankful for whatever happens between us. Theres always a way, when we have the will. With the help of God's willing. Insha-Allah..

Incase youre reading this post baby, i also wanna say, i always love you with all my heart. I sayang you.. You can reply your loves by texting me right now to my phone. I'll wait, no matter what. And i always love you whatever it takes, Iwani. I love you.. :')

<3's,
Wira Julaihi.

move on.

2011-09-20T04:44:00.002+08:00

dear blogger,

i know its never easy to end a special relationships. But, yet.. Why it still happening ? God's always had a better plan.

Seriously, its not that easy to lose a girl like you. But, what to do ? Since semua inda kn lurus sudah and end up sakit hati tplng, so better off alone.

But, i do appreciate it. Eventho it hurts, but had to accept it no matter what. Theres always a lot of fish in the sea, but yet, having a mermaid is never easy. And i know, for you, theres thousand of stars in the sky, but for me, theres only one moon.

Moving on is the only way. Cause, i know thats the best for both of us. You go your way, and i'll go mine. In happy or sad mood, thats never matters.

Somehow, here i wanna say thank you to you for loving me and thank you for having me 'menumpang' in your heart. Thank you.. :')

i really appreciate for your appearance in me. I even learned alot frm you. Eventho, its a simple thing. I thank God for giving me the chance to get and learned something frm you. Alhamdulillah..

To you, i just hope you'll be good and be strong this time. Like how strong you dont wanna listen to me. And how strong you dint care about my feelings at all.

But yet, not just girls who had feelings. Everyone does. I never blame you. I blame myself for cant handle your emotionals. I know its never hard, but i know its never easy pun.

I think i make the right choice this time. So that you wont make me worry and no longer hurts me. By reading all your texts, its confirmd that we shouldnt be together anymore.

I know, that im the one who wanna leaves you balik balik. But, the more i wanna leaves, it should be the more you gonna come. But, i think that wont happen tia.

So, i guess.. This is it. Before its too late, i wanna say sorry for hurting your feelings all these year and thank you so much for having me as your lover. Thank you. :')

without no reply, i take that as a no. So, yeah.. You be good, and achieve your goals in your studies. And make your dreams crystal clear for your family.

Lets just end this eventho i never want it to happen, but everythings happend, it happens. So, goodluck to you and enjoy your life. Adious..

<3's,
Wira Julaihi.

The end.

2011-09-18T04:49:00.001+08:00

dear blogger,

seriously, its the end of something special for me. Idk, but i think WE should appreciate it as you said. So, its a why not ?

Somehow, i learned that, every bad ends, theres always a good beginings. So, yeahh.. Out frm comfort zone.

If you are really inlove with someone, you should not hurt their feelings. But yet, im hurted.

Later on, its nuts & bolts. The function where i first meet you. But yet, i guess on the same function as well its an end for us.

Wel, maybe something that i need to learn. Thats why it happens. To be honest, why should i care for someone who act like they care but they dont sebenarnya ? Dont you think thats a waste of time ?

Oh yes, time is money. Why wasting ? Plus, theres gonna be alot of new great beginings. I believe that.

Maybe, i deserve it this time. Time to move on. Moving to the next level of life. With or without, thats just the part of the deal.

Enough is enough, and i think i had enough. Never worth it. Somehow, all words frm parents is a blessed. So, just accept it. Theres a lot of plenty things that need to be done.

Why would i struggle to make people's right, since i know that i can find the right people ? Thats more interesting i guess.

Its just that, i dont wanna get hurt anymore by the same person all the time. It makes the word sorry turns ugly.

Antah.. You just dont care baby. Cause if you do, you'll understand it well. People do mistakes, thats true. But people repeatly do the same mistakes, thats stupid.

Idk, i think its time to be alone sudah. And hopefully, no distructions interupt my way achieving my goals and dreams. Insha-Allah..

<3's,
Wira Julaihi.

beraya.

2011-09-03T04:56:00.000+08:00

salam blogger,

i just wanna share my day here. Its the 3rd of raya sudah. Times ticking so fast. Inda sadar sadar, Ramadhan is end and here come the September.

I realized, its time to wake up. Face anything.. Peacefully, no harm doings, be truths, moving on and being positive.

Somehow, dealing with hurts and pains, always had an end. And some pains might ends with some rainbows. Miracles happen.

My miracle was after i done my zohor yesterday, im about to go out braya. Biasa lah open house. Its a why not ? Share some ideas, and everything. Until, i saw paris.

Its a small effiel tower figured, and it can reminds me of the trip for this year, which im not qualified.

But yet, next year, more trips lagi ada. Like, langkawi, sydney and so on so on. I talk to myself, its a why not ? Why not make it my family trip. Why not fighting for it ? Berjuang. Dreams..

Somehow, once reached home, dad's relatives braya kerumah. It was like, wow.. Its full house. I realized that i got relatives di kb, limbang, labuan, serawak, kl. Its all local legs. It was great had the chance to meet them all tdi. Walau ada yang i don't know. Its Amazing..

After that, my baby and the families braya pun. And yeah, minggle around, chit chat, share ideas, learning characters. Its fun.. :D

after that, rest for awhile, magrib apa, sambung braya. Was ke jerudong tdi, with some families. It was great also when braya ramai ramai. Siuk.. :)

then after that, lost sekajap, and end up di lambak. Few houses tdi di aga, braya, then ke manggis joining the parents braya.

Sending off di lambak, tarus braya for the last house. Before twelve blik pasal kn menyampati membli minyak. Then blik.

Sampai rumah tdi, ampar while waiting, then finish the undone things, and yeah.. Done everythings, and now im here waiting for subuh. Cause i know, once i sleep inda lagi tbgn. So, alang alang.. :)

i think sampai sni dulu then. Will post lgi when i got time. Selamat menunaikan solat subuh. And have a nice day. Cheers.

Loves,
Wira Julaihi.

Silamat Hali Laya.

2011-08-31T15:09:00.002+08:00

salam.
Blogger,

today is the first day of Hari Raya. First of all, i wanna say Happy Raya to all and sorry for any of my wrongdoings inside out.

Seriously, raya this year i really dont feel much of the celebrations at the begining. Nada rasa kn beraya usulnya. Baju raya pun inda memutong this year. But yet, we planned, raya next year, 2012, will be a very great raya ever. I am so sure about it. Im sure, cause abng's sure about it as well.

Somehow, let me share my malam raya story.. To be honest, kalau raya's coming, everyone in the house will be busy much untuk atu lah, ani lah.. Pokoknya, mesti ada kn di buat. But, raya taun ani, yang cematu atu, nada tu. Sampai pengumuman pun mcm, still the same.

We even went out tplng for close pv. Till 9ish.. Then, i went out with my friends. We went to bandar, boreng. Sunyi.. Mcm, yatah malam raya nie ? It reminds me masa dulu dulu yang kmi kalau bulan puasa, helping the parents with their expos. Kalau dulu, sampai malam raya pun org maseh sibuk sibuk. Bandar tah lagi.. But, now.. Sunyi. I really thank God my parents inda lagi involves with their convensional business. Atu risikonya basar bnr.

Then, we went to gadong. They said di gadong ramai. Tpi, sama jua.. Same expos, same faces, but for us, different namelist. :p we were there til not that late, and then i went home.

Reached home, abng, kaka, Joe, and my little sister were in the tv room waiting for me. Rupanya, sibuk sibuk yang ku cari atu, it was at home rupanya. So, besibuk tah kami.

We teamwork to usai the house with full of loves, joys, laughs, ideas, learns, and great things. Then, what makes everything perfect was, my older brother came by to complete the Jush's Family. Its more fun with the works. Team work. Sampai mummy ckp, "Semua anak mummy ada rupanya." with a happy face. Even daddy's happy as well.

Then i talked to myself, "this is it. Malam raya should be happy. Alhamdulillah.." im so blessed and thankful that im in this lovely family. Ngam tia with the words, "raihlah kegembiraan mu di bulan kemenangan." alhamdulillah, im so greatful and happy for what happen. And i believe in miracle. Pasti, Tuhan memberi permintaan kitani kalau kitani sentiasa mengingatiNya.

What happend was, we were enjoying with the house work sampai ada jua yang betiduran. Ada jua sampai selesma. And ada jua yang sampai jdi manager. Hahah. :p so far siuk lah. Inda jua boreng sangat. Yang penting, the parents are happy. Thats the most important thing for me. To us. Is, To create back the smile on my family. :')

again, i would like to say, Selamat Hari Raya, maaf zahir dan batin.

Loves,
Wira Julaihi.

the sadness has gone, the happiness have come.

2011-08-26T07:19:00.002+08:00

salam.
Dear Blogger,

seriously, di pagi hari ani i still havent sleep. Im tooooo excited to go KB later on with my group. So cant wait kn merasai sembahyang jumaat disna. Isha-Allah, kalau sempat. :)

not just about that, its about my baby as well. I think i miss her already. Hopefully, this time, tidak akan ada persengketaan. Cehh ~ but deep in my heart, i know we both shouldnt melayan sangat our fights apa. Negatives, is iblis. But, too be honest, being with you yesterday is awesome baby! We laughs alot! We smiles. And even slaps ? ;p *baaaaby!! Imiss you sudah!! :D

what makes my day perfect jua is when i attend tps semalam. Wah, siuk sekali! Its true that, before i never like to be di kg ayer. But somehow, eversince im in this business, i kinda inspired by the story of water village.

Whats inspired me the most tdi was, frm the house we can see the beauty view frm different angles of SOAS' Mosque. Its really beautiful! But too bad i dint take a picture. And i thank God i had the chance to look God's creations. :')

after done tps, we've been served by a great mee rebus laksa kah ? Or laksa jawa ? Idk.. Pokoknya, nyaaaaaaaaaaaman! :9

somehow, i wanna thank God for what happend to me yesterday. Alhamdulillah..

P/s: sayang!!! I is miss you!! :D

Loves,
Wira Julaihi.

Just be patient.

2011-08-24T07:11:00.001+08:00

Salam.
Dear Blogger,

Alhamdulillah, my day yesterday was quite amazing. Eventhough theres some issues going, i just patient and accept the fact. Face the problems. Eventho, it can cut me hard.

Somehow, i did posted sudah tdi about my yerterday. Yet, mcm negative, kasar, rude and i might hurt some feelings. So, i just repost it saja.

My yesterday was great. Alhamdulillah, i completed my daily prayers. Wel, to be honest, aku jarang kn completed the 5 prayers. But, yesterday i managed it well. Alhamdulillah..

Daily prayers is always the great time management to apply. Di bulan terahir Ramadhan tah lagi, atu sungguh menyegarkan. Aku sentiasa berdoa,

"Semoga Tuhan membukakan pintu hati kami untuk selalu menyembahNYA."

Wel, as we all know, prayers, thats when we ask Him for a better life, and thanks Him for still living. Alhamdulillah..

Walau seburuk mana pun keadaan yang terjadi, i believe that, semua dtgnya dari Tuhan. Tani hanya mampu mensyukuri, and pray for the better. Eventho it hurts so much. Its just part of the deal. Dugaan. But everything ends with positives. Alhamdulillah..

So, ptg tdi i did jumpa orang and just to pinjamkn CM. Then we share ideas, applying what i reads, and build relations. Its soo good to be positive with people. :D

Once done, i went home. Lepaks with the siblings while waiting for sungkai. Then, sungkai, pray and enjoying Mummy's Cook with them. I felt so blessed tdi with the environments. Alhamdulillah..

After done with my isya', something bad feelings attacked me, but.. I tried my very best to accept it. Eventho, it hurts, i just patiently face it, and thank God i got my HM tdi. Mengaleh my focus to my goals towards my dreams. And the meeting when well as His willingness. Alhamdulilah..

We even discussed about our next step and making 3months ahead pnya table. Its great. Hilang negativity..

"Thinking positive is the real key to success."

So far, my yesterday was alright. What makes it turned great was masa tdi subuh. While waiting kn sembahyang, kami dream building. Abng, me and the parents. It was soooo awesome! :D

Sama mummy tah lagi, wahh! Siuk sekali.. I really excited when it comes to dream. Somehow, i got new dreams. Alhamdulillah..

Aku bersyukur mempunyai keluarga yang amazing. Mana my dad is a Choleric Sanguine, and my mum is a Phlegmatic Melancholy. I love my family. So much.. :D

wel, i think im gonna end it til here. Cause my book is waiting sudah dari tadi. So, til here then. Cheers!

Loves,
Wira Julaihi.

When theres a will, theres always a way.

2011-08-23T07:33:00.002+08:00

Salam.
Dear Blogger,

I had an amazing night sampai kesahur. Its miracle. As you know, ive been in a messed up situation, but aku mensyukuri di atas pemberianNYA and i believe by the terms,

"Theres always a Rainbow, after a heavy rain."

Yes. Selalu ada pelangi setelah ribut taufan. Or i should say,

"Selalu ada Hikmah, disebalik kesukaran."

What happend to me was, seeeeeeeeeeeemmuaa tah salah nie. Atu, ani salah. Everythings wrong. Failure! But somehow, i learned that, every goods and bads datangnya dari Tuhan. Kitani harus mensyukuri walau seburuk apa pun yang menimpa kitani. We need to be strong. How ? Simple, with the guides of our everydays prayers. We all knew that frm the begining when we were kids. But, yet.. Some people just forget it and some might dint apply it well. So what happend to me was, aku diberi dugaan tentang hubungan. Seriously saying, i learnd alot frm it. Like, How to calms your feelings. How to handle the fights. How to react to it and how to accept it. Alhamdulillah, dgn berdoa, dan meminta pertunjuk, aku di gerakkan untuk mendgnr, dan membaca sesuatu yang positive, alhamdulillah aku mendapatkan solusinya. For example kalau pasangan tni bermasalah, tani kurangkan masalah. Inda perlu menimbulkan lgi masalah. Because,

"The problem is not the problem, the problem is how You solve the problem."

Its make sence right ? Bhapa lgi kn membuang masa memikirkan masalah ? Its better to focus the solution. What happend to me, i got a big slap after i read some frm buku 'Lima Bahasa Kasih' by Gary Chapman. Atu pun bru ku baca sikit. Mun ku khamtamkn, antah bukan kna slap saja kali, kna tumbuk terajang kali. But why not if its for our own good ? Pokoknya, its settled. Alhamdulillah. But, not just that. Once we sabar, tni akan diberi hikmah. Bukan saja satu, tapi pilihan. Choices..

"The more you give, the more you get."

What happend was tdi masa sahur, aku mendapat ilmu and a good news about how to bigger my business. Its really amazed me and i called it the secret. Alhamdullilah.. I got new goals to achieve. So, i might membusykan masaku untuk berjuang in the name of Allah, berjuang in the name of my Family, and berjuang for a Great Life with the one i love. Success to you all and never forget your prayers. Cheers!

Loves,
Wira Julaihi.

Part of the deal.

2011-08-21T15:33:00.002+08:00

salam.
Dear blogger,

i don't know that, am i strong enough to face it already ? The answer is, i don't. But, somehow i noticed that, everythings was given by God. Need to accept it with an open mind and heart.

My everyday is getting not-so-cool eversince she's being rude and when she's enjoying the pain that she created. But, i know myself that, it's just part of the deal. Just accept and face it.

My sleep at night is not-really-okeh eversince that breaks. I usually melted myself whenever she said sorry. But, yet.. I don't know. It's nothing hurt but a pain. Yet, time will heals the broken. InshaAllah.

To be honest, being without you, it seems like i can sees you everywhere. Everytime i closed my eyes and i can't keep my eyes off you. But the feedback frm you that make me strong. Which i know that i should be. But, i'm lost.

Alhamdulillah, my everyday prayers did save me. Eventho, my prayer for you are still the same. Which i think i should stop it already. Why should i did that when i realized, i'm no longer her's.

I'm the one who letting you go. Why ? It's just that you knew i hate people supprised me with bullshits. You knew that i hate people to dare me. You knew, but you make it happen.

I know who i am. I'm not that great. I'm not that perfect. But, eversince 17th months and 5days been together with you, make me realized that, its not about being perfect, but how we find ourself on a perfect path of life.

I can see my future with you. Thro the dreams we had made. Thro the problems we've face together. Everything. And that makes me still thinking about you. Which i know that i should stop already. But i couldnt.

What makes i said im a "empty heart", thats because you took my everything frm me. You sucked it thro our kisses.

Seriously, i also don't know what to do already. As i always remind you, "sabar", but you never did. So stuborn to fight back for nothing but hurts. Thats when you made me leaved. Why can't you just 'sabar' with my appearance in your life ? I know you do have feelings too. But, you knew who i am. Thats just it. Everythings gone now.

Im just a nobody until i meet you, and loves you. You made me somebody with all your support and all. Somehow, i thank God and i appreciate you for been there in my life. I know that i still need you. I even know that i still love you. But, whats the used of loving wall that hopes to forget me ?

Somehow, i thankyou so much for making me strong to face my future with someone else. And for me, its always been you. No other than you, baby. But now, that someone else is only my family. And i pray for your journey to reach the top for your studies and your lovely dreams. Make your dreams come true dear. :')

p/s: i love you.

Loves,
Wira Julaihi.

In a Nutshell.

2011-08-04T16:38:00.002+08:00

BE A LEADER.

A leader's job often includes changing your people's attitudes and behavior. Some suggestions to accomplish this:

PRINCIPLE 1 - Begin with praise and honest appreciation.

PRINCIPLE 2 - Call attention to people's mistakes indirectly.

PRINCIPLE 3 - Talk about your own mistakes before criticizing the other person.

PRINCIPLE 4 - Ask questions instead of giving direct orders.

PRINCIPLE 5 - Let the other person save face.

PRINCIPLE 6 - Praise the slightest improvement and praise every improvement. Be "hearty in your approbation and lavish in your praise."

PRINCIPLE 7 - Give the other person a fine reputation to live up to.

PRINCIPLE 8 - Use encouragement. Make the fault seem easy to correct.

PRINCIPLE 9 - Make the other person happy about doing the thing you suggest.

some sharing.

2011-07-25T03:25:00.002+08:00

salam all and good evening. Nothing much to share here. I just feel like blogging. Its been awhile i didn't post my daily routines here. So, let me just share a little..

So far, my routines lately, is amazing. Why so ? Cause, now Alhamdulillah, i fixed my time management thro my praying daily routine. Cause, honestly speaking, what i do and what i did before, i seriously felt empty. But, Alhamdulillah, i started my prayers routines back. Plus, ramadhan's is coming soon. So, its a why not to start it now ?

And yes, my life, i learn and keep on learning how to control and to fix it back whats wrong. Eventho, im doing it, one step ahead, slowly, but atleast i tried to left out things that not helping me to my journey to successful life. I can see my future's getting bright and bright eversince i went to LS to LS. I can see my bright future's family there. Its getting clear and clear.

Since my love langguage is quality time, so i do wanna have a quality time with the one i love. Families, wife, childrens, babies, and being around the world with the both families, umrah to make it ballance and so on.

I love mother nature. I want to see God's creations all over the place. I just wanna see my kids grow and having quality times with them. Sembahyang berjemaah satu keluarga. Seriously, i miss that the most. Cause, we usually did that berjemaah thingy before when i was 7 or 8 years old ? So, yeah.. Its a why not to make it happen again. Thats my desire.. To create back the smile on my family's face.

But i believe, all of this wont happen if we dint ask it frm Him. And i believe that all good and bad comes frm Him. I also believe that only Him who knows everything that seen and unseen. I believe in miracles. Somehow, i thank God for giving me the chance to live and to learn something that i dont know. I thanks Allah for His willing towards me all this years. Alhamdulillah..

I guess, i'll end it here then.. Will share with you guys hows life is wonderful.. So, til here then. Have a nice sleep and enjoy the days. Cheers.. :)

In a Nutshell.

2011-07-19T00:43:00.000+08:00

WIN PEOPLE TO YOUR WAY OF THINKING.

Principle 1 - The only way to get the best of an argument is to avoid it.

Principle 2 - Show respect for the other person's opinions. Never say, "You're wrong."

Principle 3 - If you are wrong, admit it quickly and emphatically.

Principle 4 - Being in a friendly way.

Principle 5 - Get the other person saying "yes, yes" immediately.

Principle 6 - Let the other person do a great deal of the talking.

Principle 7 - Let the other person feel that the idea is his or hers.

Principle 8 - Try honestly to see things from the other person's point of view.

Principle 9 - Be sympathetic with the other person's ideas and desires.

Principle 10 - Appeal to the nobler motives.

Principle 11 - Dramatize your ideas.

Principle 12 - Throw down a challenge.

2011-07-07T20:27:00.002+08:00

hello, assalamualaikum. Iwani is here again.. as I said, I'm gonna continue the other two types of dreamers that I learned in "Business School." so I'm just gonna straight to the point.

(4) those who dream big dreams, but with no plan on how to go about achieving them, so they end up nothing ; they are those who want to achieve their dreams on their own but do not have a definite plan. they just wait for the so called “break” to come.

(5) those who dream big, achieve those dream and go on to dream even bigger dreams ; they are those who never stop dreaming because they know that their dreams can be achieved no matter how big they are.

so, what types are you? to be honest lah ah, I'm one of those who wait "break" to come.. I always wanted to be the fifth dreamer.. which I know, who don't, right? so, since it's not too late, I'll try my hardest to be in the fifth dreamer.. ;D InsyaAllah, there's no such thing is too late if you haven't try it yet.

adios readers. soon I'm going to post about day I'm gone through this few days back.. salam.

dreamer.dreamer.

2011-07-06T20:22:00.002+08:00

hi everyone. iwani's here.. I actually wanna post something to do with dreamer last few days but then, my days went so busy plus tiring? so I kinda forgot.. and yeah, now I feel like blogging..

I just wanna share with you guys what I learned about dreamer from what Robert Kiyosaki wrote on his book, which is "Business School." I learned alot actually from that book about quadrants and such.. but since my baby wanted me to post about this dreamer thingy, so here some about the dreamer..

from what Robert wrote on his book, he says that there's five types of dreamer.. what is it??

(1) those who dream in the past ; a person who dreams in the past is a person whose life is over. they may not dead, but they are no longer truly alive and the only way they can come back to life is to rekindle a dream.

(2) those who dream only small dreams ; I tell you guys, this is the dangerous dreamer. why? some people limit themselves to dreaming only small dreams, because that's the only way they can feel confident they can achieve them. the ironic thing is that, while they know they could achieve their small dreams, they often never do! why not?? I recommend you to seek them by your own.. or buy the book? it's a why not, right? :)

(3) those who achieve a dream, and then live bored ; why they gets bored? simple, it is because they found something is missing in their life. they need new adventures!

so what do you think so far? which dreamer are you? I have two more types of dreamer which I'm gonna post it besok, InsyaAllah. :D hope you readers get something on this post eventho it's just a short post. alright, adios.

salam.

thinking widely positive.

2011-07-05T09:00:00.001+08:00

salam and morning blogger. Here i wanna share what ive been doing yesterday. Yesterday, i wokeup around 11ish and was in a rush cause i got date. Plus, my phone was dead. Unexpected date.. Wel, i should say a great one. Cause im having lunch with my baby yesterday. Was planned wanna meet my friend actually. Kn bgi CM as in book. Since she's a bookworm. But, last min cancelled.

Somehow, i picking up my love at school and we went to weststreet cafe for a lunch. Since she needs to be back in school at 1.30pm, i send her back to school before 1.30pm. Then i went back home and playing around with Alia's. I miss her so much, so yeah..

Then, once i done everything, i went out with daddy to beli some food. Yes, makanan. Lately, i easily getting hungry. My mum said, makan inda baca bismillah tu! But, hey.. Bismillah is always my opening prayer before i do and did something. Thats like a habit sudah tia. Plus, my mum just love to make jokes around when it comes to unimportant things and sekadar stuff ? Somehow, i love you what ever it takes mum. ;D

then, after that i went out again with my dad. Going to our shop. Plus my mouthspray abis jua sudah. Then, meeting both Jerry and Pindi. Shopping bah drng. Hee. And yeah, i had the chance to meet our guest speaker. Since he's going back that night, we decided to go airport to send him off. So i decided to follow them Jerry saja. Inda blik blik. Plus they need me to ajar how to use basic skin care. So, why not ?

Then we went to the hospital to pick up her little sister and send her back home. Then we endup at along's til malam. Then before going to the airport, we went to gadong cause pindi wanna beli shoes. Then picking up Muin, and went straight to the airport. And then i went home.

At home, i was dicussing with the parents about our business. Its great when i also learned alot frm the parents as well. But yet, we're fixing whats unright doings. Plus i get the chance to apply what i've read. And it really does helping myself to get to know my parents in more details. I wanna thank God for giving me chance to know my parents' personalities. Alhamdulillah..

Then my desire started to burn again when my mentor and also my lovely gorgeous brother came by and sharing some thinking that makes my spirit inside jumping around and a positive planned for my next goals. Im personally proud to have a brother and a great leader like him who never gets tired to help people til he see them succeed in his heart. He really does have a heart of success that no one can ever beat and bring him down. He really does inspired many people including me and his own families. On behalf of us all, frm the bottom of my heart, i would like to say thank you GOD and we always love and appreciate for your appearance all this time, bang. Thats you, Jozy Julaihi. ;'D

"Success is the only best revenge!" - Jozy Julaihi.

And because of that jua, i couldn't sleep and terus making and wrote down my goals and game plan that i consulted with him tadi. Wel, for sure my name will be listed for Als Sydney, 2012 with 3legs at 10. Thats my goal so far. Bah, i think til here tah dulu and have a nice day ya'll! Cheers, and salam. :)

Leadership Trainning.

2011-07-04T05:05:00.002+08:00

salam. And hello blogger. Here i wanna share about the seminar that i attended to yesterday. It was awesome! Inspired! Learning and positive. Its about us being a leader to our lifes.

Yesterday, i wokeup at 9ish morning. Which i realized that i was late. But somehow, i managed to attend the challenge meeting at 11am at Rbrc Sport Complex, Brakas. I learned alot. Mostly about being a leader. It was a very great speaker who has sacrificed his own job just because he had the power of choice. Inda ramai yang tedapat cematu. Ada pun, a leader frm Leadership Seminar saja yang berhasil.

Anwy, theres alot of points that i wrote down that early afternoon. Points that i've learned frm the guess speaker. Mostly about being teachable and leading by an example. A leader must lead on. Humble and mau belajar all the time. I wish i could bring all my groups to attend that early challenge meeting. But, yeah.. There's another challenge meeting this coming august. And also a challenge sungkai. A leader need to be there. And thats my next goals. Bring 3 new fresh legs to join me being in challenge meeting and challenge sungkai. I believe in miracles.

Now is the right time to move on to the next level. I must double my efforts this time. And work smart. Why so ? Thats because of the training that i attended to yesterday.

Since next year the trip is going to Sydney, i dont wanna miss it this time. Going to Australia is my girlfriend's dream. Its a why not ? Plus, seeing the guess speaker's travelling videos make me wanna make my own videos instead. Plus, i saw Sydney in that video. That makes my desire's burning. Its time to make it happend this time, what ever it takes. Wanna make dreams come true, is to Wake Up!

So far, im learning alot and still wanna learn more about know things that i don't know. Alhamdulillah i force myself to pray and asking from Allah's willing these few days. Cause i believe that everything goods and bads are coming and given by Allah. Even the guess speaker did mentiond this, "do anything with prayers, and put it in our prayers." that line really motivated me alot. And also the 4 D's ;

Dreams,
Desire,
Determinations, &
Decision.

And i also learned from my own mentor, about the TLF;

Trust,
Listen, &
Follow.

And most important messege that i got yesterday is to trust ourself instead. That magic moment is frm my own mentor itself. I thank God for hearing my prayers, and giving me chance to learn something positive yesterday. Alhamdulillah..

Since i promise to wake them up for subuh prayer and after subuh prayer, i think i should go now. Til here then blogger. Have a great rainny morning to Brunei and success always. Cheers! ;D and salam.

How to keep a disagreement from becoming an argument.

2011-07-02T05:13:00.002+08:00

Welcome the disagreement. Remember the slogan, "When two partners always agree, one of them is not necessary." If there is some point you haven't thought about, be thankful if it is brought to your attention. Perhaps this disagreement is your opportunity to be corrected before you make a serious mistake.

Distrust your first instinctive impression. Our first natural reaction in a disagreeable situation is to be defensive. Be careful. Keep calm and watch out for your first reaction. It may be you at your worst, not your best.

Control your temper. Remember, you can measure the size of a person by what makes him or her angry.

Listen first. Give your opponents a chance to talk. Let them finish. Do not resist, defend or debate. This only raises barriers. Try to build bridges of understanding. Don't build higher barriers of misunderstanding.

Look for areas of agreement. When you have heard your opponents out, dwell first on the points and areas on which you agree.

Be honest. Look for areas where you can admit error and say so. Apologize for your mistakes. It will help disarm your opponents and reduce defensiveness.

Promise to think over your opponents' ideas and study them carefully. And mean it. Your opponents may be right. It is a lot easier at this stage to agree to think about their points than to move rapidly ahead and find yourself in a position where your opponents can say: "We tried to tell you, but you wouldn't listen."

Thank your opponents sincerely for their interest. Anyone who takes the time to disagree with you is interested in the same things you are. Think of them as people who really want to help you, and you may turn your opponents into friends.

Postpone action to give both sides time to think through the problem. Suggest that a new meeting be held later that day or the next day, when all the facts may be brought to bear. In preparation for this meeting, ask yourself some hard questions:

-Could my opponents be right ? Partly right ? Is there truth or merit in their position or argument ? Is my reaction one that will relieve the problem, or will it just relieve any frustration ? Will my reaction drive my opponents further away or draw them closer to me ? Will my reaction elevate the estimation good people have of me ? Will i win or lose ? What price will i have to pay if I win ? If I am quiet about it, will the disagreement blow over ? Is this difficult situation an opportunity for me ?

Opera tenor Jan Peerce, after he was married nearly fifty years, once said: "My wife and I made a pact a long time ago, and we've kept it no matter how angry we've grown with each other. When one yells, the other should listen, because when two people yell, there is no communication, just noise and bad vibrations."

2011-07-02T05:12:00.000+08:00

In a Nutshell.

2011-07-01T06:19:00.000+08:00

SIX WAYS TO MAKE PEOPLE LIKE YOU.

Principle 1 - Become genuinely interested in other people.

Principle 2 - Smile.

Principle 3 - Remember that a person's name is to that person the sweetest and most important sound in any language.

Principle 4 - Be a good listener. Encourage others to talk about themselves.

Principle 5 - Talk in terms of the other person's interests.

Principle 6 - Make the other person feel important and do it sincerely.

inspired.

2011-06-19T19:28:00.001+08:00

last night, we had a movie session and it only qualified to some ibo's. And for those who qualified, congrates to you guys. You guys are really inspired me for the challenge movie session. Well done!

The movie was great. Really inspired some of us in that room. Somehow, it was all about believe system. Believe to what? Its believe to our God. I wont gonna share how great was that movie here, but you guys can watch it yourself. A movie called fire proof. I dont know if im right with the spelling, but yet the story was awesome!

And today, we leaders had our challenge meeting where we learn and studied how to bigger the profits. But yet, even rich people couldn't enter that meeting unless, the people who wanna be rich and doing their works who qualified the most to enter that challenge meeting. Which, alhamdulillah that i learned alot today. And i thank God for again giving of chance to learned and knowing something that i should know.

A little sharing here, what i've learned today is mostly about being a leader still need to learn more and more. Being green all the time. Still need to learn much more. Ownership and responsibilities really highlight in this topic.

And i also learned about moving on. What happened is already happened. We cannot change it. But what we can change is, our future with making our decision now. Manage time and using time wisely than wildly. Thats when i saw my comfort zone. I really need to get out from it before it becomes worst. It really motivated my mind from thinking rubbish, or negative force. Alhamdulillah, with the help of writing goal on my twitter, i do get something that i called 'ilmu'.

See, when we do really meant to learn, we will learned something unexpected. Yang penting pasang niat yang betul. And believe in it. Believe you can succeed, and you will. All in the magic of thinking big.

P.s: i rather read something and get something. Instead of thinking nothing and get nothing.

morning up.

2011-06-18T08:02:00.002+08:00

dear blogger. I know that im still wide awake. Too much thinking i guess. What about it ? Wel, life brings me. On everything. Include relationship. And i know thats suck. But, gotta be sabar no matter what. I believe in miracle. Thats what my brother always tought me. Every good and bad comes from God. Everyone knows that. But, some people dint learn whats the meaning of that quotes.

Every words theres a message hiden to us. I dint say that im 'suk tau' or 'setau tau' but, hey.. We've learnd that before way back in school times. The different is only cara penyampaian. Somehow, you people know better than i do. But everything is dengan izin Allah.

Wel, talking back about me. Im just a little messed up actually. With my goals, my target, my focus. I just, fuck the up. But, some cds does help me with some words from abang. As i say, every words has it own meaning or message. I thankful that to God for giving me chance to at least learned something about life.

Why messed up ? It all started with a smile and a stare which involved feelings thro the end. Talking about an end. Theres a word says, always finish thing til the end. Same goes to feeling where i think i can handle it by my own. Which i tried many times to against it. But i maybe not that strong enough to handle something like that. The feeling that you couldn't think or feel of anything ? Like, should i say lost ? Its blackout where you cant find any ways to go. And thats when we supposed minta bantuan Ilahi. Alhamdulillah, ayat penyelamat my mum always remind me to amalkan.

The worst part lagi, when we dint even realized for what we think we did is right, where some reason its wrong to the other. Theres where different feelings joining in and make it more worst. What feeling ? The guilt, blame, everything that will contains negative at the end. Negative force. And that one is never right.

Too much to handle. If i were before, that kind of situations makes me end up unsober. But, yeah.. Things have change. Alot.. Life goes on. Actually, what im trying to let it out here is, life is like a rolling tyre. Ups and downs, atu tantu sekali. Its just life. Want something different, then do something different. How sabar we face it and how sabar we fix it.

Forgive, forget and move on. Thats the summary of the above sharing. So since its morning, i would like to say good morning to all and have a great weekends. Cheers.

Business School 2

2011-05-19T20:45:00.002+08:00

hello :) I'm back again.

well, not much to share on this chapter anyway. Robert told us about the second hidden value which is the value of changing quadrants instead of just changing jobs. Robert says, he wrote this book for those who ready to change in their life.

I can feel that everyone wanted to change in their life. no exception, myself either. but, the question is are we actually ready to change?? so let me share the quadrants that Robert told us earlier. :)

the quadrants are ;
> E (Employee)
> S (Self-employed)
> B (Business Owner)
> I (Investor)

how to move to another quadrants from your current quadrant? well, it's not easy for some people to change to another quadrants because where she/he belongs right now is what their parents' want or they are influence by their parents' quadrant. eventho they wanted to change. it takes time to change from current quadrant.

which quadrant you do want to go? is it, the E and S or B and I? you make your own decision. just remember, E and S maybe have alot of money but they lack of free time. which in B and I, they have alot money and they have alot of times too. :) so, I'm going to explain a bit on quadrant B and I on the next chapter which in the third hidden value..

adios. ;)

Business School 1

2011-05-18T20:04:00.001+08:00

Robert wrote on his book, there's eight hidden values from networking other than making money. first hidden value is life-changing business training.

Robert says one should consider the training part of network marketing business seriously. he says it's not about the money, not about the product but the training skills that will change our life.

so what do you think the life-changing business training is? well, lets divide the training network in two ways. which is traditional world business and real-life business.

in traditional world, to be more specific, they keep on making people afraid from doing mistakes and not supportive. besides, in real-life business they help us to learn from the mistakes, making action and everything to do w/ positive thinking.

another important thing is about over all development of our personality in core areas like physical, mental/emotion, spiritual and financial. if we look the fact in geological, there is four seasons, which is winter, spring, summer and autumn. and in astrological, there is four common symbol which is earth, air, water and fire.

so the main point on the first value is, if you are ready to change, seek the training program that offer by the network business.

that's all I can share in chapter two :)

Business School

2011-05-16T23:05:00.002+08:00

I'm going to share a bit w/ you guys about the title above. let me tell you about this book first, the author is Robert T. Kiyosaki and there's 12 chapter altogether.

but today, I'm going to share the first chapter, it is "why I recommended this business (network marketing)?"

in this chapter Robert tells us about what he thought about networking on the first place.. he thought that networking is attractive but it's not for him.. why he said that, because he said "I had my own business why should I build w/ other people?" and he heard rumors about network marketing is illegal. can you see how close minded he is that time? but then..

after many years, he met his friend. Bill is very rich from his real estate transaction. which also joining network marketing that time. Robert being wanted to know why he's joining network marketing? Bill's main reason is not about the money but first, he wanted to help people. second, he wanted to help himself and third, he like teaching and learning. (learning by doing.)

his mind started to open and his feeling towards network marketing started to change.. he started to see things he never saw before because his close minded.

the answer to the first chapter is because, Robert said, "karena saya tidak memperolehi keuntungan dari bisnis pemasaran jaringan sehingga saya bisa sedikit lebih objectif terhadap industri itu. booklet yang singkat ini menjelaskan apa yang saya lihat sebagai nilai nyata dari bisnis pemasaran jaringan. nilai yang melampaui sekadar potensi memperolehi banyak wang."

that's all for today. will move to the next chapter and will tell you guys more deeper about what Robert means by "hidden values" :)

#monthlygoals - May, 2011.

2011-05-02T07:35:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum..

1. God.
2. Family.
3. Business. / Job.

My monthly goals for this month is,

1. Extremly Core.
2. Triple pace setter.
3. Winning7x2.
4. 15 PE.

#focus ; "legs by legs."

fan page. #fb.

2011-05-02T07:24:00.000+08:00

Dear parents, Jasmine was in a relationship with a dirty homeless boy named Aladdin.
Snow White lived alone with 7 men.
Pinnochio was a liar.
Robin Hood was a thief.
Tarzan walked around without clothes on.
A stranger kissed sleeping beauty and she married him.
Cinderella lied and snuck out at night to attend a party.
You can't blame us. We were taught to rebel since a young age.

P/s: Pacaaah..

here again..

2011-04-30T22:08:00.000+08:00

here is the next language, pelayanan (act of services).

kecaman atas kegagalan pasangan anda untuk melakukan sesuatu buat anda mungkin bisa dijadikan petunjuk bahwa "pelayanan" adalah bahasa cinta primer anda. pelayanan pelayanan seharusnya tidak perlu dipaksakan tetapi harus diberikan cuma cuma dan diterima cuma cuma pula, dan diselesaikan sebagaimana yang diminta..

• bahkan apabila kita bersedia mengikuti permohonan pasangan kita, kita suka melakukannya dengan cara kita sendiri mengikuti persyaratan kita. pelayanan kasih berarti memenuhi harapan pasangan kita. usahakan mengorek keterangan secara terperinci dari pasangan anda mengenai beberapa tugas baru yang mereka ingin dari anda dan lakukan persis seperti yang diinginkan.

• pilihlah tiga tugas sederhana dan tidak berarti yang sebenarnya anda sama sekali tidai sukai tetapi tahu bahwa pasngan anda akan senang sekali kalau diselesaikan. beri kejutan kepada pasangan anda dengan mengerjakan tugas tugas itu tanpa diminta lagi.

• banyak pasangan merasa bahwa mereka telah mengatasi peran stereotip dari pria atau wanita dalam hubungan mereka. tetapi masih saja ada tersisa prasangka. bahas perasaan perasaan anda yang paling mendalam mengenai berbagi semua aktivitas dan latar belakang sejarah keluarga anda untuk menghilangkan prasangka prasangka tersebut.

• banyak masalah berasal dari mitos bahwa kita harus membuang "perilaku pacaran" setelah menikah. cobalah mengingat kembali keintiman dan kasih sayang yang luar biasa yang merupakan buah buah pelayanan di masa itu. untuk menjalin kedekatan lagi, cobalah melakukan lagi praktek praktek yang dulu untuk melihat apakah memang ada hubungan dengan kemesraan antara anda berdua.

okay, next is the last language, physical touch. :) will post it besok. salam.

next one ;)

2011-04-30T22:06:00.000+08:00

okay now we're moving to the next language which is menerima hadiah hadiah (gift).

hadiah hadiah adalah simbol simbol nyata dari cinta, apakah hadiah hadiah itu merupakan barang barang yang anda beli atau buat sendiri atau kehadiran anda sediakan untuk pasangan anda? hadiah mendemonstrasikan bahwa anda peduli dan hadiah mewakili nilai hubungan anda.

• nilai sebuah hadiah ada di dalam mata orang yang melihatnya. barangkali anda tidak begitu menghargai hadiah yang anda terima. pertimbangkan maksud si pemberi dan rubahlah pemikiran anda dan mulailah menghargai kasih sayang yang diperagakan oleh si pemberi.

• gunakan nasihat penulis dan buat daftar dari hadiah hadiah penghargaan yang sudah anda berikan kepada pasangan anda di masa lalu. di luar itu, usahakan mencari masukan lebih banyak dari orang lain yang mengenal dan mengetahui selera pasangan anda. sekarang tentukan untuk memberi satu tanda kasih sayang, betapapun kecilnya, sesuai dengan kesukaan pasangan anda. lakukan ini tiap minggu selama bulan berikut.

• barangkali dalam pikiran anda hadiah dan keuangan tidak berpadu dengan baik sekarang ini. tetapi jika memberi hadiah merupakan investasi dalam diri "milik" anda yang paling berharga, anda bisa melihatnya sebagai tabungan atau kemantapan. tinjau dana anda dan beranilah berkorban lebih banyak untuk pasangan anda.

• jika hadiah hadiah merupakan bahasa cinta pasangan anda, maka hal itu mungkin mengharuskan anda menghentikan - untuk sementara - prioritas-prioritas diri anda sendiri. ingat lagi di tahun tahun terakhir situasi situasi di mana sebuah hadiah atau hadiah dari kehadiran anda sangat didambakan pasangan anda dan anda gagal untuk menyediakan. anda seharusnya bisa hadir demi kepentingan pasangan anda. dengan sadar rencanakan untuk membuat pilihan pilihan yang sukar di lain kesempatan nanti.

• ingat bahwa memberikan diri anda berarti jauh lebih banyak daripada sekadar kehadiran fisik anda. usahakan untuk berbagi kejadian penting setidaknya sekali saja dari acara acara anda sendiri. kemudian usahakan untuk juga berbagi aktivitas pasangan anda.

we will move to the next language soon.. ;) good evening.

28/04

2011-04-29T16:15:00.000+08:00

hello and good evening everyone. iwani is again today.. im going to share what was happening yesterday morning. i got interview at SP under secretarial studies.. the interview was going well, but i was kinda nervous.. you know thats was my first timee ;s

let me cerita cerita awal nya cemana.. i woke up around six, if im not mistaken.. was tebangun pasal wiraa texted me.. thanks for that sayang.. then getting ready, ate some breakfast then jalan dropped the siblings sekolah..

after that we're heading to gadong tia.. traffic jam everywhere.. my tum
my started to freaks me out! nervousssssss. hahaha then around seven plus i arrived at SP. the entrance ramai orang, luckily i met my cousin. he handle for the interview attendance.. then i was lead to the, i dont know what they call the room, its like lecture room.. then once i entered, ramai orang esp perempuan.. so i sat at the back cause front sit full sudah.. kan jadi front sitter lah ni konon nya but then, syukur apa yang ada.. heheh

while waiting my name kena panggil, i tried to "break the ice" with this girl who sat next to me.. but to badd i dont know her name.. i was just asking what course shes in to, her education background.. and she asked the same quest and asking me either imma freshy o level or not.. then blabla.. her name kena called. we're not in the same course anyway.. shes on bussiness & finance studies.

after few minutes, my name was called.. the girls on my row wishing me good luck, i appreciate that.. ohh then i was lead by the student di sana, should i say my bakal senior.. to the first floor room. then kena suruh tunggu again.. wani yang ke 5 kena interview, eventho numbernya top 10.. i feel like yang ke 10! seriously. it takes very long time..

then tunggu punya tunggu.. my turn tiaa.. panic i sampai IC jatuh.. hahahh ada yang sampai lupa bag nya tertinggal lagi tu.. sabo je lah. ;) well my turn kan tu, sekali ketuk pintu masuk that room.. theres 3 perempuan yang interview.. they asked me for my IC and certificate.. they asked alot of questions.. whats my name what should they call my name, about my family, my education background, berlakon sekejap.. hahah as in what should i do if im a secretary.. so yeah..

then blabla.. we're done tiaa.. bagi salam, keluar.. tunggu kena ambil.. ikut ke office tempat my mom kerja. the end.

today's subject

2011-04-28T12:37:00.001+08:00

okay now we review on second language, quality time. in malay, saat-saat mengesankan..

ringkasan ;

melalui saat-saat mengesankan bersama-sama dengan berbagi, mendengarkan dan turut ambil bagian dalam aktivitas berarti bersamaan mengkomunikasikan bahwa kita sungguh-sungguh peduli pada pasangan kita dan menikmati kebersamaan kita..

"pekerjaan saya begitu menuntut" mungkin merupakan pernyataan beralasan untuk tidak melalui saat-saat mengesankan bersama pasangan anda.. tetapi sukses dan penyediaan kebutuhan material tidak bisa menggantikan keintiman.. buatlah rencana dengan pasangan anda untuk menyeimbangkan tanggyng jawab anda dan untuk menyediakan cukup waktu buat saat-saat mengesankan.. jangan ragu ragu untuk berkorban apabila anda harus membuat kompensasi dan menukar waktu anda dengan hal hal lain.

tengok kembali ke masalah besar terakhir atau tantang pasangan anda dihadapannya. tulislah cara cara berikut ini yang bisa membuat anda mencapai hasil yang jauh lebih baik : (a) nasihat dikurangi dan simpati di tambah. ; (b) pengertian ditambah dan jalan keluar dikurangi. ; (c) pertanyaan pertanyaan ditambah dan kesimpulan dikurangi. ; (d) lebih banyak perhatian pada orangnya daripada pada masalahnya.

cari tahu seberapa penting "aktivitas yang dibagi" didalam perkahwinan anda. pisahkan tiga pangalaman yang sangat mendekatkan anda berdua merupakan sumber kenangan yang sangat membahagiakan. apakah pengalaman pengalaman ini melibatkan saat saat mengesankan dalam aktivitas yang dibagi? rencana aktivitas baru yang berkemukinan besar akan menciptakan "kenangan" tak terlupakan.

bersikaplah jujur terhadap peran perasaan dalam kehidupan anda. kapan pengungkapan perasaan yang tepat membawa jalan keluar yang sehat atas satu masalah atau menyelesaikan kejadian yang positif? pada umumnya,apakah anda menekan atau takut pada emosi anda? apakah membesar besarkan atau membengkok perasaan anda? bagaimana perasaan anda menjalin dengan perasaan anda? bagaimana aspek emosi dari cara berkomunikasi anda membaik?

should remember that

okay, thats all for todayy ;) adios.. xx

today's subject. :)

2011-04-27T00:52:00.000+08:00

hello and goodnight blogger. well, Iwani is here again.. just straight to the point, as wira wanted me to post on his blog, I'm going to share some of the summary of the five love languages book.

tonight, I'm going to post the first love language.. it is words of affirmation. in malay, kata-kata pendukung. first thing first, I'm going to post it in malay-indo language. just to make sure you guys. ;)

ringkasan ;

1. pada suatu malam tertentu besi kesempatan kepada pasangan anda untuk berbagi impian-impiannya, minatnya dan bakat-bakatnya. keluarkan dari dalam dirinya semua rinciannya melalui mendengarkan yani disertai empati. setelah menempatkan diri anda di dalam kedudukan pasangan anda dengan penuh kasih sayang dan ketulusan, bakar lah semangatnya dan tawarkan untuk membantunya mencapai semua sasaran tersebut dengan cara apa pun.

2. keakraban mungkin bisa menciptakan merendahkan atau ketidaksopanan dan bentuk-bentuk lain yang berbeda. periksalah beberapa karakteristik dari hubungan anda di minggu terakhir. apakah nada suara anda keras, sikap anda sarkastis atau sudut pandang anda menghakimi? apakah anda hanya memusatkan pada bagian di mana pasangan anda gagal? carilah solusi untuk masalah-masalah ini dan usahakan untuk meminta maaf.

3. evaluasikan gaya berhubungan and di bidang pola-pola komunikasi. apakah kata-kata anda mencerminkan permohonan, saran dan tuntutan? atau apakah kata-kata itu menjurus ke tuntutan, ultimatum atau bahkan ancaman? ingat bahwa pilihan, kemauan bebas dan pelayanan suka rela adalah aspek-aspek kunci dari kasih sayang. bagaimana anda bisa memperbaiki pendekatan verbal anda terhadap pasangan anda?

4. ada bermacam-macam cara tanpa batas untuk berkomunikasi dengan kata-kata secara ramah, intim dan mendukung bersama pasangan anda. sebagaimana disarankan dalam buku ini, buatlah catatan berjudul "kata-kata pendukung" di dalam mana anda mencatat cara-cara kreatif dan bermutu tinggi untuk mengangkat pasangan anda, bahkan untuk hal-hal yang paling kecil pun. bahan bacaan yang memacu semangat dan menganjurkan bagaimana membantu diri anda sendiri terutama akan sangat berarti dalam usaha ini.

so.. pujian, kata-kata yang membesarkan hati dan permohonan-permohonan dan bukan tuntutan semua mendukung nilai-nilai pasangan anda. kata-kata itu menciptakan keintiman, menyembuhkan luka dan mengeluarkan segenap potensi dari pasangan anda.

to be continue..

next, will post the second language.. if God's willing. night..

p/s ; baby, I sayang you ;)

happy birthday, Dad. :')

2011-04-25T09:24:00.001+08:00

here as a son to you would like to say, "Happy Birthday!" to you, daddy. May Allah bless you always with your 58th of age. I know how struggle you to have us, the 5 Jush's and 2 little princess as a niece. Here also, i wanna thank you for being a great Dad and a great Leader to our family. And Dad, you are always been a Hero to me, to us one family. You inspired me softly with all your hard works to protect us as one family. Eventho, i ever made you down with my carier. But, Dad, with all i have now, i will wake up and fight for my rights with the name of our family. And i promise to you, Dad, we will create back the smiles on our family. We will have a great life instead of a good life. Thats what we can promise you, Dad. Again, we wish you have a great happy birthday, Haji Julaihi. And have a great 58th years old. We always proud of you, as our Dad. We love you, always. :')

and also, not to forget to say happy birthday to Hazirah!! ;D God bless you little cousin. ;D;D

when there's a will, there's always a way.

2011-04-24T10:11:00.002+08:00

who said that we can't create a better future ? Who said that we can't make our dreams come true ? Who said that we can't have a great life ? Who said ? The one who said that you can't, look back their lifes. Who them to judge you ? Are their lifes great enough to said that you couldn't make it ? Is their lifes you wanna end up ? That's up to you. You who owns your lifes. No one did, but you.

The thing is, there's nothing is impossible in this world. It word itself says that, 'im possible'. So, what ever you want is already happening in your mind. It happend on your mind before it happens infront of your eyes.

Have you ever realized that, what ever you think, what ever you wanted in your mind, happend to you ? Like, if you want a new type of mobile phone, when you visualise it, and all of a sudden, you have it ? It doesn't mind how long it might takes. But, still it's happening.

Thats why your mind who needs to be feed with good and positives things. Cause, if youre not, what ever you thinks become things. That's the reason why if you focus more to negatives and failure or maybe extremly hard to a thing, it will comes to bad things that you thinks. Thats why when a kid playing bicycle, and always said that, "don't fall, don't fall." but endup falling. Why ? Because the mind of thinking that we focus on.

Thats why, what ever you want in this world, you can have it. In any ways. Eventho its good or bad, positive or negative, success or fail, yes or no, up or down, happy or sad. Everything! But, why not if we focus on all good stuff. Great stuff. With God's willing, it might come more better. It's just suits with the words, "satu percakapan, adalah satu doa." cause, what you say, is what you think. Unless, you're talking without thinking. That's when everything goes wrong. Cause, "life is hard, when you THINK it's hard."

so, yeahh.. That's all that i wanna share for this morning. Have a great sunday and a great weakends guys. Cheers! God bless you! :)

today..

2011-04-23T00:56:00.000+08:00

hello, Iwani's here. well, I'm not going to talk much anyway.. because currently, I am waiting for wiraa!! :c which I bet he fall asleep during on MSN tadi. he must be tired after got two bc today.. kesian.. heheh..
p/s ; baby, I sayang you!!

soooo, entah.. I'm going to crush my bed after this, sleeping! alright, bye readers. and sorry if it's kinda boring.. hahah.. duh, it's just a random post pulang.. ;)

feels like blogging.

2011-04-21T04:09:00.001+08:00

dear blogger, idkw if it's at night, i barely hard to go to sleep sudah. Eventho i did, i only slept for only atleast 2hours. bukan plng ku kn inda mensyukuri, but thats the thing, when can i go back sleeping normally ?

Wel, it's a waste of time to sleep in the morning til midday. I could do so much things during that time, which i end up wasting it by sleeping tah pulang. How can i turn it back my sleeping to normal ? Should i just not go to sleep til tomorrow night ? Or, should i just force my self to go to sleep by eating sleeping pills or high myself to sleep ?

To be honest, i'm tired sudaah to be like a batman ! Wokeup at night and sleep at day. I wanna be atleast superman instead ! Why ? Cause, he has diamond on his chest. A diamond towards his heart. Wel, atleast ?

Bukan plng ku inda mensyukuri, its just that, i wanna have a normal life like everyone does. Thats all. I think i need to consel about that to my upline. Why them ? Cause they know better should i say ? Or maybe aku kurang supliment kali ? Or too much thinking ? ;s

to wakeup at night, make me feels lonely. I couldnt just bangunkan org just to acompany me. What about them kan ? They need their time jua. I do understand that. But, thats the thing.. Is there anything that i could do so that i can just sleep baack normally ? Instead of reading book ? :/

watching movie ? Naah, i might gonna pass on that. Why so ? I don't wanna see things that not inspired me or help me with my goals. Unless, that movies make me move fast towards my goals and inspired me and something to do with my goals. Like for an example, kung fu panda. They said, it's a great movie. Why so, it learn how to focus. But, thats what they say.. Til know, im looking forward for that movie. Anyone ?

But, whats make me awake jua, starving ! I always starved at night. And what makes me go out sometimes is, just to get some foods. Wel, some might say, macam nada makan dirumah ? But, thats the thing, who wants to go to the kitchen and cook the same food everyday ? Banar plng, atleast something and save duit. Mun nada selera ? Apa kes ? Makan saja sikit ? And few hours, lapar balik and cook it again ? Membazir jua tu, no ? What if org rumah ada kan mau makan jua kan ? But yet, maybe the next day nya kaah ? You know.. It's hard right ? Hard, when you think its hard. Nyehs..

Macam ani, kan bahapa th ku nie ? Ngampai ganya half nekad di katil ? How i wish i have bini yang halal to be next to me, all the time. Soon.. ;p bini taah apa ! Tunggu taah diamond, then why not ? Harus ada kerjanya. Apa kerja and solutionnya nie, it's winning 7. I don't wanna miss the celebrations. ;D

baah blogger, i think enough becurhat with you for tonight. Til we meet again. Sleep well and gooddawn guys. Cheers ! :)

i know this couldn't be happening.

2011-04-20T06:09:00.002+08:00

yes, i know this couldn't be happening. I still don't know who is wrong and who is right. It's just that, all of those words hurt me. Even looking the bites on my body while im looking myself nakedly on the mirror, could hurt me. Like, do i deserved this ? I don't ! I don't want this. Its just to much hurts to handle. God, you know i'm not that strong enough to face all this, alone. ;(

satu, persatu waah mematuk otakku. Mana atu, ani.. Everythings come and hunt me in one time ? God, please gives me the strength to face all this. Because of her, aku sanggup cancel my trip to Thailand this coming june. I did tried to give her the best of me, but everything turns to worst tplng ?

What did i do wrong ?? I know, im not working. I know, im not studying. I know, im not that rich. I know my limits. I have my limits. But, when it comes to her, i just couldn't handle it. Is it me, or is it her ? Idk.. Im clueless here.. I did even asked forgiveness to You, God. Every of my prayers. I even asked some strength for me to face all Your problems.

But indeed, You gave me more problems to handle. I just don't know where should i start. I just don't know where to fix first. Please God, do show me some ways. I believe in You, God.

Am i wrong to have her ? But if i do, why you send her to me ? Why you make me falled in loved with the wrong person at first place ? Why i can't let her go when we both created the sins ? Or maybe because of those sins You want us seperated ? Thats make sence tho. But, why now ?? Why when i started to know her deeply ? Why not at the begining of our love story ? Cause, God, i promise You that only her that i wanna take care of.

She even opended up my heart to reach You back. Why God ? Am i not that perfect for her sudah ? Am i just being tested ? Seriously, i give up. Instead you take back our love and happiness, it's better You took along my heart. Im just too weak to face it. And im too weak to fix it. Why, cause i promise to take care of her and she even made me stay and still fight for my dreams. God, if i do made a mistakes, then i'm sorry and hope You forgives me for my wrongdoing all this year.

Now i realized, how i should love You more in this case. Im just too stupid to gave her all my love til i forget that i should love You indeed. But, somehow.. I thank You for giving me the chance to taking care of her all this year. And i appreciate to have her in my whole life. She is just the best thing ever happend in my life. Eventho, she thinks i'm a wrong person to be with in her life, but to me, you are the best thing ever happend.

She did created baack the smiles on my face. She even made my wounds stop bleeding frm the past. Shes just what i ever wanted all this time. Honestly, i just can't stop my love to love you, wani. Somehow, i thank You, God for what ever happend between us. I always appreciate to have you around, wani. I always gonna put my love to you to a place where it belong. :')

tebangun tarus blogging.

2011-04-18T05:54:00.002+08:00

wel, hey all. I don't know what to post actually, but i do feels like blogging. So, here. Let me just share what happend to me this few days back.

Where should i start ? :/ wel, last 15th apr, 2011. I was with my baabylove. We spend our balated monthsarry which is on the 14th apr ? So, yeahh.. She cooked for me and always making me some puddings for me and the parents. Cause the parents like her pudding pasal inda manis. Thats what the parents said laah. So, yeahh.. Here i wanna say thank you for being so kind to them both sayang. I appreciate it. ;D

so, we spend our times together, until abng came and bringing a form for bulan june, going thailand. And yeah, isi the borang and all. And yeah, insha-Allah i'll be in thailand this coming june. Honestly speaking, its gonna be my first time ksna. Apaakah usulnya. Will post pun tuu. Hee. So, blablablaa ~ after magrib, i send my baaby home. Since daddy pun minta drop ke rumah amit. So, its a why not ? Ngam pelintasan. Was with rahim jua that time. So, after dropped both them daddy and my baaby, we went to manggis mall. Wel, checking my bonus jua tarus di bank there.

And alhamdulilah, it always never disappointed laah. Thank God for that. So, kmi survey brng brng there. And still, that red nike shoes membuat ku gatal. But then, thats the thing. I born addidas. Dgn meliat ani lgi addidas jua, so yeahh.. Mcm, biasa makan betangan, sekali makan besudu. Apa hubungannya, inda plng ada papa. Hahah. But, yeahh.. Its a why not ubah trend. Right ? Time nada HUTANG kn dibayar laah aaa ? :)

behutang ? Yes, i do. But, this is baru baru th ku behutang plng. Perkara yang ku inda mau plng nie behutang aa.. Apa ada gaya labih, tapi behutang kn ? Baik lului usul, tapi beduit and inda behutang. Remember, org yang berhutang tidak masuk syurga sampai hutangnya selasai. So, yeahh.. AKU INDA MAU BEHUTANGG !! But, thats the thing, people just don't get it.

Anyhow, since i was hungry, alum makan the whole day, we endup di bandar. Makan at Rice n Grill. Aku tsliur black papernya sana. So, yeahh.. Makan sana, then meet up my friend there as well. And yeahh.. Atu pun that night, rahim yang bayarkan my food. Thanks to you rahim. I appreciate that. And may you have a very big business in the future. Amin. And for sure, i will gonna balas that back. Soon. :)

then we were prospecting and since khals and dadi bekirim foods. We went to gadong, and i bought for them junk food frm Mc D. Wel, semampu mampu ku atleast. Hope you guys appreciate that. And then, rahim dropped me at khal's. Since they want me to go there. Was beshisha-ing jua snaa. And antah, all of a sudden, i dont feel right. But, yeaah. Tidak perlu dibahas. Only God knows. Yang penting, we all kena ajar harus mensyukuri apa yang ada laah. Thats what i learned that time. Apa jua kan, orang inda bkraja ? Sabar ajaa. Then, we went back home. Alhamdulilah, i sempat do my prayer that time, and yeah.. I go to sleep.

The next day, it was saturday night. I wokeup and finds out that, i was invited to a party di kb thro fb frm hanis. But, my baaby disallowed me to go by saying no to the evant on my fb. So, yeahh.. And since im hungry, i contacted rahim to go out terus prospecting. And since my baby had no appitite kn makan drumah, i terus bwa ya makan laah. And she brings along her sisters.

We endup di gadong and having Mc D there. I miss eating burger king actually. But, since diBrunei nadaa, Mac D pun jadi thh. Plus, i was tsliur kn makan spicy chicken mc deluxe. So, yeahh.. But, my baaby and her sisters indaa makan ! Nyehs.. Melayan fries tplng saja nah. But, its alright. Next time lagi mun dimurahkan rezeki. Amin.

Then, send them home, we were meeting up people juaa. And yeahh.. It was great to be with the one you loves. And thanks to rahim juaa. The other rahim i mean. For dgnkn makan apaa. Hee. May you have a very big business in the future as well. Amin. Then balik rumah, tidur.

The next day, i wokeup awal. Which i had meeting to attend, but since i got problems about ride, them carry on with their own leader. I trust my business partner herol saida, to run the meeting, and alhamdulilah its bejalan dgn lancar. :) may your big business berjalan dgn lancar. Amin.

And at night tadi, i was meeting up my another business partner, mashadi. Its been awhile pun sudahh dint jumpa him. Asal kn jumpa, hes being busy jua with the love ones. Might understand jua. When it comes to family and all. Cause, the business school teached us that, number 1 is God, 2 is Family and 3 is Business/Job. So, i understand.

Somehow, back to my story, i was hungry and we endup di Tk Tea House, Kiarong. Makan and everything, tjumpa my other business partner jua tdi, azim. Sorry bro, Liverpool kalahh. Hahahaha ! ;p i did told you. Trust your upline. ;p somehow, may you have a bigger business in the future too. Amin. And to mash, im sorry if i was meyusahkan tdi. Somehow, may you have a big business in the future too.

And after that, he send me home and i go tidur. And 3ish to 4 am tdi tbgn and here i am berblogging. :) so, i think thats all for now. Plus, its subuh pun. I better bgnkn my baaby and pray sesama. Wel, til here then. Have a nice day guys, and dont forget your prayers. Assalamualaikum.. Cheers ! ;D;D

Happy 13th Monthsarry ! ;D

2011-04-14T22:56:00.001+08:00

aww.. Alhamdulilah. First of all, i wanna thank God that ive found you at first place. And i appreciate to have you in my life.

Been together with you, its not just love that i learned. Its many, how to handle things, how to avoid bad things, how to appreciate, how to be patience, how to disipline myself with my prayes. I just, i appreciate to have you in my life, iwani.

I know, some might say its only mokey love, love on a first sight, blablablaa ~ but, i dont care. What i care the most is i love you because of God send you to me.

Even lately we're in a control situations, but i believe, that God had planned something better for us. Even the family kinda awkward to me, but i believe God want me to learn something. Even tears might involved in our relations, but i believe God want us to be more better for our future.

Future ? Yes ! Why future, cause we can atleast create our future and ask frm God for a better future. Cause, everyone knows that we cannot changed what is past. We cannot change back our background. Cause, who we are, is what we wanted.

Wel, im in a missing session right now. Cause, just now we had a team phone session. And it was just great. But, more great when i realized that today is our 13th monthsarry. Alhamdulilah..

Loving you is like a story in a book that we've created. Theres many chapters and many things happend. But yet, once we read it back, we learned. Im still learning. I wanna learn. I wanna be always green so that i can still learn.

Somehow, my love to you, i couldnt express it with words. Only God knows. And baaby, you are part of my prayers that i always asked for.

And lastly, i wanna end it with a hope that, we could maintain our love everyday and everynight. Understand each other well. And always remember that, whenever God's with us, no one can stop our way. I always remind you this at the begining of our love, "always put God in you, no matter what happens."

again, happy 13th monthsarry to you love. Alhamdulilah, and i know that i cant promise to love you forever, but i'll try to make it forever. I love you and may God bless our relationship. <3

p/s; i miss you.. :')

the so-called-perfect-heart

2011-04-13T17:31:00.001+08:00

One day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley. A large
crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it. Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen. The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart.

Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said "Why your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine?" The crowd and the young man looked at the old man's heart. It was beating strongly, but full of scars, it had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn't fit quite right and there were several jagged edges. In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces were missing.

The people stared - how can he say his heart is more beautiful, they thought? The young man looked at the old man's heart and saw its state and laughed. "You must be joking," he said. "Compare your heart with mine, mine is perfect and yours is a mess of scars and tears." "Yes," said the old man, "Yours is perfect looking but I would never trade with you. You see, every scar represents a person to whom I have given my love - I tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them, and often they give me a piece of their heart which fits into the empty place in my heart, but because the pieces aren't exact, I have some rough edges, which I cherish, because they
remind me of the love we shared. Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away, and the other person hasn't returned a piece of his heart to me. These are the empty gouges -- giving love is taking a chance.

Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I have for these people too, and I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?"

The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks. He walked up to the old man, reached into his perfect young and beautiful heart, and ripped a piece out. He offered it to the old man with trembling hands. The old man took his offering, placed it in his heart and then took a piece from his old scarred heart and placed it in
the wound in the young man's heart. It fit, but not perfectly, as there were some jagged edges. The young man looked at his heart, not perfect
anymore but more beautiful than ever, since love from the old man's heart flowed into his. They
embraced and walked away side by side.

How sad it must be to go through life with a
whole untouched heart.

The Big Oak Tree

2011-04-13T16:43:00.000+08:00

Tommy was eleven and Sabrina soon would be. Every morning they would meet beside the big
oak tree. In the summer, they would play together in the
sun and sit beneath the big oak tree when the day was done.

One time when they were talking of growing up some day,
they agreed they'd meet back there and maybe even stay. By the big oak tree they could build a little home and they would be together and neither one would roam.

When Tommy was thirteen and Sabrina soon would be, they stood together one last time beside the big oak tree. Tommy had to leave, his family soon would move. He took his pocketknife and in the big oak made a groove. The groove was Tommy's simple way of giving her his word. As he spoke so softly, this is what Sabrina heard: "On your eighteenth birthday, I'll return to our oak tree. Then we will be together forever, you and me."

City life was hectic and the years did fly quickly. Tommy never once forgot Sabrina's last good-bye. He had marked the calendar each year on her birthday. Soon he'd see the big oak tree and, maybe, even
stay. He would hold Sabrina's hand; together they'd
agree to stay beside each other, close to the big oak tree.

Tommy headed for the tree one Sunday
afternoon. It was her eighteenth birthday and he would see her soon. When Tommy reached the tree, he found a written note.
It was from Sabrina's mom, and here is what she wrote: "Sabrina cannot meet you, she won't be here today. In this envelope is what Sabrina has to say." He opened up the letter and his hands began to shake. As he read Sabrina's words, his heart began to break. "Tommy, dear. I know that you are standing by our tree. When you see a big oak tree, always think of me. I won't be here to meet you; the Angels came my way.
Nothing else would keep me from meeting you today.
Look up in the sky, and you'll know that I can see you standing there and waiting, beside our big
oak tree."

just wanna share what I read :)

2011-04-11T20:59:00.001+08:00

hello readers.. Iwani is here
again.. well, straight to the topic..
I currently reading a book from Gary Chapman. his book title's is The Five Love Languages. here are some summary from the book I read.. enjoy. ;)

[1] Words of Affirmation ==> this is when you say how nice your couple looks, or how great the dinner tasted. these words will also build your mate's self image and confidence..

[2] Quality Time ==> some couples believe that being together, doing things together and focusing in on one another is the best way to show love. if this is your partner's love language, turn off the TV now and then and give one another some undivided attention.

[3] Gifts ==> it is universal in human cultures to give gifts. they don't have to be expensive to send a powerful message of love. couples who forget a birthday or anniversary or who never give gifts to someone who truly enjoys gift giving will find themselves with a couple who feels neglected and unloved.

[4] Acts of Service ==> discovering how you can best do something for your couple will require time and creativity. these acts of service like vacuuming, planting a garden, etc., need to be done with joy in order to be perceived as a gift of love.

[5] Physical Touch ==> sometimes just stroking your couple's back holding hands, or a peck on the cheek will fulfill this need.

simple? keep reading..

how to know your own love language? the answer is simple, just ask yourself with this questions ;
- how do I express love to others?
- what do I complain about the most?
- what do I request most often?

connecting in your partner's love language probably won't be natural for you. Gary Chapman says, "we're not talking comfort. we're talking love. love is something we do for someone else. so often couples love one another but they aren't connecting. they are sincere, but sincerity isn't enough."

in this book Gary Chapman recommends that we have a "Tank Check" 3 nights a week for 3 weeks. ask one another "how is your love tank tonight?" if, on a scale from zero to ten, it is less than 10, then ask your partner "what can I do to help fill it?"

so I hope you guys enjoy reading it.. you don't get enough? I suggest you to find that book :D adios!

p.s ; sayang!! you should read this book after me ;) I love you..

Tangle Up In You by Staind

2011-04-05T18:07:00.000+08:00

You're my world, the shelter from the rain
You're the pills that take away my pain
You're the light that helps me find my way
You're the words when I have nothing to say

And in this world where nothing else is true
Here I am still tangled up in you
I'm still tangled up in you
Still tangled up in you

You're the fire that warms me when I'm cold
You're the hand I have to hold as I grow old
You're the shore when I am lost at sea
You're only thing that I like about me

And in this world where nothing else is true
Here I am still tangled up in you
I'm still tangled up in you
How long has it been since this storyline began
And I hope it never ends and goes like this forever

In this world where nothing else is true
Here I am still tangled up in you, tangled up in you
I'm still tangled up in you
Still tangled up in you

Serpentine by Reamonn

2011-04-05T17:59:00.001+08:00

Lost on a road going nowhere
Trying to take on the world
Searching for some one who understands
Sweet girl, sweet girl
Walking through fields of fire Hopelessly reaching for the skies Watching the flames growing higher Tonight

And she danced like serpentine
She's my burning desire
She mystifies
Her loves sets me on fire
Oh oh oh,
Oh oh oh oh oh.

Caught in a fear of embracing
Waiting for the beauty to arrive
All of the fears that you're facing Sweet child sweet child
No one can stop us from reaching Who says the Innocent survive
One more step into nowhere goodbye

She danced like serpentine

She's my burning desire
She's mystifies
Her loves lifting me higher than high

No one can stand in our way
Nothing can stop us on this day
I've never felt like this way

Can't let you slip away
Oh, oh
Can't let you slip away
Oh, oh
Can't let you slip away
Oh, oh

She danced like serpentine
She's my only desire
She mystifies
Her loves taking
Me higher

the value of a smile at Christmas.

2011-04-05T00:14:00.001+08:00

It costs nothing, but creates much.
It enriches those who receive, without impoverishing those who give.
It happens in a flash and the memory of it sometimes lasts forever.
None are so rich they can get along without it, and none so poor but are richer for its benefits.
It creates happiness in the home, fosters good will in a business, and is the countersign of friends.
It is rest to the weary, daylight to the discouraged, sunshine to the sad, and Nature's best antidote for trouble.
Yet it cannot be bought, begged, borrowed, or stolen, for it is something that is no earthly good to anybody till it is given away.
And if in the last-minute rush of Christmas buying some of our salespeople should be too tired to give you a smile, may we ask you to leave one of yours ?
For nobody needs a smile so much as those who have none left to give !

Fix You - Coldplay

2011-04-02T23:01:00.000+08:00

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need

When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down your face
And I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes

Tears stream down your face
And I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tanpa Bintang - Anang ft. Aurel

2011-04-02T13:58:00.001+08:00

Sepi ini tak kan membunuh kita
Karna kita selalu bersama
Bersamanya kita harus bahagia
Melawan semua aral yang ada bersama

reff:
Aku dan kamu selalu bersama
Habiskan malam walau tanpa bintang
Aku dan kamu saling berpelukan
Membunuh malam hingga pagi menjelang
Bersama selamanya

repeat *
repeat reff

Cinta aku seluas samudera
Sayang aku tak akan pudar
Cinta aku, aku dan kamu selamanya Aku dan kamu selalu bersama
Habiskan malam walau tanpa bintang

Aku dan kamu saling berpelukan
Membunuh malam hingga pagi menjelang Aku dan kamu selalu bersama
Habiskan malam walau tanpa bintang

Aku dan kamu saling berpelukan
Membunuh malam hingga pagi menjelang
Berdua selamanya, selamanya

april wish.

2011-04-01T04:52:00.001+08:00

okeh, by reading back the text msg frm abng's, It make my tears fall, again. Yes, whatever he said is true. Whatever i wanted and asked frm God, is answered. Maybe not that clear, but i realized that He sent my brother to change my life and not just me. My parents and also my family and yet, many others families. Not just to have a bright life, but to make us one family back happily like what we've deserved.

He did mentioned about goals. But, yes. Eventho, i have no guts to reply you bng, i do set up my goals sudah. I do realized what mistakes i made, i even do realized what i needs to change. I do wanna change, im desperate to change my life so baad. I do wanna prove that me and my family deserve a great lifes.

But somehow, in all eyes, it seems im not that moving nor trying my best. I do, in silently. I do when i ever had the chance. I never miss to take the chance and i always since i could. Maybe not in a right or good ways, but i do realized that i also had a dreams. I do have my own dreams. I cant stop dreaming. But yet, i realized it is not that big enough yet to wash away my problems. Problems ? Yes.. My only problems is me. Im the problems of myself. I who need to change first.

Since major did asked me to keep on looking and searching for my dreams, i did pray to God everyday just to show me what way should i go, and which path should i follow. Cause, i always tought that following my family's way and successful people wouldnt enough for me. I can feels that i miss something. I always miss something. Which i realized frm all the seminars and funcitions that i attended, is only one thing. Its God. Im willing to give myself to the first priorities in life, which is God. Cause i believe that every bad and good, comes frm our Creator. As abng always said, "Just believe in miracles."

now i know. How i, as a mooslem needs to follow what to do's and the dont's. And here as well, i wanna thank God, that my girlfriend always there for me to force me not to give up. How shes not giving up just to sent to me her short vid clip on every msn she'd tried. In many ways i got inspired lately by the Law of Attraction. I need to face what i need to fix.

And my goals for this month is..
1. Core to God.
2. Core to my Family.
3. Extremely core to my Business.

And ofcourse, being a pacesetter and complete my winning 7. "777x7"

-end.

mabuk kepayang.

2011-03-30T08:44:00.002+08:00

cinta,
kata orang ku jatuh cinta, kepada dirimu,
cinta sampai tergila-gila,
oh rindu,
rinduku memikirkan kamu,
hanyalah dirimu,
yang membuatku mabuk kepayang..

cinta cinta cinta pada dirimu,
rindu rindu rindu akan senyummu,
hanya satu kamu yang aku mau,
sampai mati kau kan selalu ku tunggu..

cinta,
yang membuat hidupku lebih indah,
dari hari yang lalu,
cinta,
yang membuat hati berbunga-bunga,
tinggalkan rasa yang lalu..

oh cinta,
kata orang ku jatuh cinta, kepada dirimu,
cinta sampai tergila-gila,
hmmm rindu,
oh, rinduku memikirkan kamu,
hanyalah dirimu,
yang membuatku mabuk kepayang..

cinta cinta cinta pada dirimu,
rindu rindu rindu akan senyummu,
hanya satu kamu yang aku mau,
sampai mati kau kan selalu ku tunggu..

cinta,
yang membuat hidupku lebih indah,
dari hari yang lalu,
cinta,
yang membuat hati berbunga-bunga,
tinggalkan rasa yang lalu..

[rap]
bagaikan racun,
dia terus membiusku,
menebarkan aroma,
ke dalam seluruh tubuhku,
detak jantung pun,
berhenti, di saat ku bertemu denganmu,
tak kuasa ku menolak..

cinta cinta cinta pada dirimu,
rindu rindu rindu akan senyummu,
hanya satu kamu yang aku mau,
sampai mati kau kan selalu ku tunggu..

cinta,
yang membuat hidupku lebih indah,
dari hari yang lalu,
cinta,
yang membuat hati berbunga-bunga,
tinggalkan rasa yang lalu..

cinta cinta cinta,
yang membuat hidupku lebih indah,
dari hari yang lalu,
cinta,
yang membuat hati berbunga-bunga,
tinggalkan rasa yang lalu..

cinta yang sebenar-benar cinta di sisi Allah.

2011-03-22T22:30:00.000+08:00

terlalu tinggi kemuliaan dan darjat Rasulullah SAW :
untuk renungan bersama ;
mungkin kita terlupa dengan artikel ini. detik-detik
Rasulullah SAW menghadapi sakaratul maut. ada
sebuah kisah tentang cinta yang sebenar-benar
cinta yang dicontohkan Allah melalui kehidupan
Rasul-Nya.
pagi itu, walaupun langit telah mulai menguning,
burung-burung gurun enggan mengepakkan
sayap. pagi itu, Rasulullah dengan suara terbatas
memberikan khutbah, "wahai umutku, kita semua
ada dalam kekuasaan Allah dan cinta kasih-Nya.
maka taati dan bertakwalah kepada-Nya. ku
wariskan dua perkara pada kalian, Al-Quran dan
sunnah ku. barang siapa mencintai sunnahku,
bererti mencintai aku dan kelak orang-orang yang
mencintaiku, akan masuk syurga bersama-sama
aku." khutbah singkat itu diakhiri dengan
pandangan mata Rasullullah yang tenang dan
penuh minat menatap sahabatnya satu persatu.
Abu Bakar menatap mata itu dengan berkaca-kaca,
Umar hanya naik turun menahan nafas dan
tangisnya. Usman menghela nafas panjang dan Ali
menundukkan kepalanya. isyarat itu telah datang,
saatnya sudah tiba. " Rasulullah akan meninggalkan
kita semua ", keluh hati semua sahabat kala itu.
manusia tercinta itu, hampir selesai menunaikan
tugasnya di dunia. tanda-tanda itu semakin kuat,
tatkala Ali dan Fadhal dengan cergas menangkap
Rasulullah yang bekeadaan lemah dan goyah ketika
turun dari mimbar. di saat itu, kalau mampu,
seluruh sahabat yang hadir di sana pasti akan
menahan detik-detik berlalu.
matahari kian tinggi, tapi pintu rumah Rasulullah
masih tertutup. sedang di dalamnya, Rasulullah
sedang terbaring lemah dengan keningnya yang
berkeringat dan membasahi pelepah kurma yang
menjadi alas tidurnya.
tiba-tiba dari luar pintu terdengar seorang yang
berseru mengucapkan salam. " boleh saya masuk?
" tanyanya. tapi Fatimah tidak mengizinkannya
masuk, " maafkanlah, ayahku sedang demam ",
kata Fatimah yang membalikkan badan dan
menutup pintu. kemudian ia kembali menemani
ayahnya yang ternyata sudah membuka mata dan
bertanya pada Fatimah,
" siapakah itu wahai anakku? " " tak tahulah ayahku,
orang seperti baru sekali ini aku melihatnya ", tutur
Fatimah lembut. lalu, Rasulullah menatap puterinya
itu dengan pandangan yang menggetarkan.
seolah-olah bahagian demi bahagian wajah
anaknya itu hendak dikenang. " ketahuilah, dialah
yang menghapuskan kenikmatan sementara,
dialah yang memisahkan pertemuan di dunia.
dialah malaikatul maut ", kata Rasulullah. Fatimah
pun menahan ledakkan tangisnya.
malaikat maut datang menghampiri, tapi Rasulullah
menanyakan kenapa Jibril tidak ikut sama
menyertainya. kemudian dipanggilah Jibril yang
sebelumnya sudah bersiap di atas langit dunia
menyambut roh kekasih Allah dan penghulu dunia
ini.
" Jibril, jelaskan apa hak ku nanti di hadapan Allah? "
tanya Rasulullah dengan suara yang amat lemah. "
pintu-pintu langit telah terbuka, para malaikat telah
menanti rohmu. semua syurga terbuka lebar
menanti kedatangan mu ", kata Jibril. tapi itu
ternyata tidak membuatkan Rasulullah lega,
matanya masih penuh kecemasan. " engkau tidak
senang mendengar khabar ini? ", tanya Jibril. "
khabarkan kepada ku bagaimana nasib umatku
kelak? " kata Rasulullah. " jangan khuatir, wahai
Rasul Allah, aku pernah mendengar Allah
berfirman kepadaku ; ' Ku haramkan syurga bagi
siapa saja, kecuali umat Muhammad telah berada
di dalamnya. ' ", jawap Jibril.
detik-detik semakin dekat, saatnya Izrail melakukan
tugas. perlahan roh Rasulullah ditarik. nampak
seluruh tubuh Rasulullah bersimbah peluh, urat-
urat lehernya menegang.
" Jibril, betapa sakit sakaratul maut ini. " perlahan
Rasulullah mengaduh. Fatimah terpejam, Ali yang
di sampingnya menunduk semakin dalam dan
Jibril memalingkan muka. " jijikkah kau melihatku,
hingga kau palingkan wajahmu Jibril? " tanya
Rasulullah pada malaikat penghantar wahyu itu. "
siapakah yang sanggup, melihat kekasih Allah di
renggut ajal ", kata Jibril. sebentar kemudian
terdengar Rasulullah memekik kerana sakit yang
tidak tertahankan lagi. " Ya Allah, dasyatnya maut
ini, timpakan saja semua seksa maut ini kepadaku,
jangan pada umatku. " badan Rasulullah mulai
dingin, kaki dan dadanya sudah tidak bergerak lagi.
bibirnya bergetar seakan hendak membisikkan
sesuatu, Ali segara mendekatkan telinganya "
uushiikum bis shalati, wa maa malakat aimanuku ",
peliharalah solat dan peliharalah orang-orang
lemah di antaramu. " di luar pintu tangis mulai
terdengar bersahutan, sahabat saling berpelukan.
Fatimah menutupkan tangan di wajahnya, dan Ali
kembali mendekatkan telinganya ke bibir Rasulullah
yang mulai kebiruan. " umatku, umatku, umatku. "
dan berakhirlah hidup manusia mulia yang
memberi sinaran itu. kini, mampukah kita
mencintai sepertinya??
Allahumma sholli 'ala Muhammad wa baarik wa
salim 'alaihi. betapa cintanya Rasulullah kepada kita.

satur-daayy.

2011-03-19T23:10:00.001+08:00

heeeellloooo readers!! here I go again with my story. :D first thing first, how's your day so far? hope you guys cherish your every moment.. okay, let me start about my today's routine.

I woke up around 11plus in the morning tadi.. which counted as late. I ate medicine last night.. so I'm drugged~ bukan overdose sayang, bukan.. haahah.. adakah overdose.. over tah juaa.. then, I get my shower.. that's obvious tho.. :) once I've done, eat my lunch while watching tv..

watching tv then melayan my twitter and foursquare.. till entaahh, yang penting, I spent alot of time on the internet.. and that's considered as wasting time? I know. :) I seriously got nothing to do.. I'm not schooling at the moment plus school holiday session! I'm waiting for Business School.. which kemasukan ke sekolahnya on July!? but, the interview is on April. nyehh.. I'm rotten.. well, not that really rotten! I appreciate that I could still learning by reading books? and that's atleast.. :)

back to the topic, after spending alot of time on the internet, I get my shower again. plus almost malam pun sudah.. so yeah.. and that time wiraa is on seminar.. he said the seminar was so hilarious! and I expected that so.. wiraa always do mentioned that seminar was very hilarious and awesome? so yeah.. those who had experienced it, they knows well how does it feel during the seminar.. I always wanted to join them, but I couldn't. sighs. somehow, there's always next time tho :D

so, where were we just now? oh yes, after I've done showering.. I get my dinner w/ the families.. and I'm sooo full! p/s; sudah sayang dinner tu?? awak mesti gemuk once you get back in Brunei! sikit pun jadi tahh ;pp hahah..

once I've done, masuk bilik.. reading some books.. and was kan online tadi sama wiraa but then lagging tia jua MSN ahh~ kecundang. *bahasa si wiraa. "kecundang" inda mau login.. so we end up, later saja online.. plus wiraa got circle meeting at the moment.. then, here I am.. blogging for the third time about my everyday since wiraa wanted me to do so..

and I think that's all for today? salam. xx.
p/s; I sayang you, wiraa!!

whhaat a daaayy.. fridaay..

2011-03-18T23:10:00.003+08:00

hello and good evening everyone.. today is the second day wiraa is not around.. they got seminar tomorrow till the next day.. if I'm not mistaken?

and I'm here again to update what's going on the whole day.. so let me begin.. I woke up early today like around seven plus? kena bangunkan pasal kan ke graveyard.. but then, I couldn't. girls' matter.. so, cancel ke graveyard tia..

then, I wanted to continue my sleep tapi inda dapat.. ;c nyeh.. jimmy is being so annoying.. well, as always. hehh.. so, I end up contact wiraa which in the same time he's awake jua rupanya, cause his roommate #?!&ring. hahah.. kesian si wiraa ;pp

we chit chat on MSN.. then lagging tia jua~ sabar ajeee.. hee.. then, blablablah.. closed conversation, pasal wiraa kan mandi and breakfast and so do I.. but, after we off.. I fall asleep accidentally!? bukan pulang mandi apa.. ;s p/s ; sorry sayang..

after few hours, I'm awake then I get my shower and ate my lunch terus w/ the siblings.. once we've done, we watched dvd in mami's room. which is malay movie? nyangkung. about the storylane, is mostly boring.. well, I'm not really concentrate watching it cause busy fixing something on the internet.. so yeah..

then, blablablah I went to my bedroom.. was kinda sleepy jua, so I off to bed, sleeping for few hours.. I'm awake again which I'm not that sure what time was it.. few minutes gone, I'm still stucked on my bed.. lagging belum panas engine.. hahaha..

then then, bangun. mandi lagi.. kena bawa jalan.. dinner outside.. firstly, we're heading to time square again, inda pandaikan berenti shopping muluu.. hahah.. mulu lah jua ah? then, after dari sanaa we're heading to soon lee lambak.. stop there, makan..

when we get there, we accidentally met my uncle, my so called 'uda' :) so he joined us.. I chit chat w/ him and talking about wiraa? well, that's obvious. my uncle always asked about wiraa.. rindu kali ia? heheh ;p after awhile, my uncle jalan tia.. in the same time we've finished our meal..

after that, on the road heading to our home.. :) once got home, I hit my shower plus it's raining just now.. so, done everything, here I am again.. blogging ;) and I guess it's enough for today.. adios. xx

p.s; I love you wiraa!

Fine Thursday.

2011-03-17T23:48:00.002+08:00

salam and good night readers. wiraa's girlfriend is here again today.. I'll blog my everyday, since wiraa is not around bytheway.. :)

so, let me share what's going on.. my thursday's morning was soo tiring.. well, not to the very.. I was just packed all stuffs yang inda bepakai ke dalam store.. lumayan jua lah mengalihnya.. mana inda seorang saja yang mengerjakan. which is me, of course. why not 'maid' do those stuff?? we don't have maid and we're big enough to have maid, we can handle our things on our own.. well, that's not a big deal tho.

after I've done everything, I hit the bathroom and get my shower! get fresh.. I'm all sweat.. not feeling so comfortable. lain lah kalau wiraa made me sweat. lol.. then, I ate my lunch.. once I've done, berehat.. resting plus tired equal to nyenyak tidur.. hahah. so, I end up te fall asleep until what time? I'm not sure what time..

when I've recover my tiredness, I got nothing to do tah jua.. so, I just wasted my time watching tv.. and blablablah, I get my shower again. my mother took us out.. us as in, my siblings.. we went to the night market.. which is, foods foods foods! hehhe.. p/s ; sayang, I'm getting fat and fat.. sayang bila lagi kan fat fat nya!? hahah..
after went to the night market, we're heading to the supermarket.. bought some kitchen's stuff.. when nothing is left to buy, we went home tiaa.. sudah sampai rumah, hit my dinner..

then, watched tv again for awhile.. few minutes, I went to my bedroom.. and now, here I am.. berhujah tentang my day.. apadih, berhujah jua lah..

conclusion, nothing much happened today.. I really miss my baby right now, like so bad? yeah, soo baddd.. :c

till here then.. I'll post you what's going on tomorrow.. InsyaAllah. bonjour readers. xx.

Rainy Wednesday Nighhtt..

2011-03-16T23:30:00.001+08:00

hello readers. it's been awhile I didn't post on my boyfriend's blog.. yeah, it's been awhilee.. so, let me share what I got.

fyi, my boyfriend just off to Jakarta w/ his families. they got seminar to attend till this 21st of March.. seminar that can make them dreams more higher and inspire? oh yes guys, dream big!! remember when ;
'' you can dream it so, you can achieve it in anyways. '' trust it. as long as you're ready to change your better life to greater life. then, why not? right? :)

enough said. take it or leave it. that's all your choices. you made your decision. do think big. what you have right now, doesn't guarantee your tomorrow. trust me. today don't promise you tomorrow. make something new. stop being slaves to your boss.. eh? am I too much here? well, thats true tho.. think of this, working for your family or your boss? :)

I think till here then. I'll post what's going on besok.. bonjour readers. xx

p/s ; sayang, I miss you already.. you do takecare there.. keep learning since you could. I love you! :D

mengenangmu.

2011-03-16T20:34:00.000+08:00

Tak kan pernah habis airmataku,
Bila ku ingat tentang dirimu,
Mungkin hanya kau yang tahu,
Mengapa sampai saat ini ku masih sendiri,
Adakah di sana kau rindu padaku,
Meski kita kini ada di dunia berbeda,
Bila masih mungkin waktu kuputar,
kan kutunggu dirimu

Chorus:
Biarlah ku simpan,
sampai nanti aku kan ada di sana
Tenanglah dirimu dalam kedamaian
Ingatlah cintaku,
kau tak terlihat lagi
Namun cintamu abadi

143.

2011-03-15T01:48:00.002+08:00

dear, blogger. The time just ticks to 15/03/2011. Yesterday was our big day. Me and my baaby. Its our 12th monthsarry been together, or i should say, its our one year anniversarry ? Hee. Bruneian people might says, "duhh, sekadar ! Setahun jagung maseh." true that as well.. But, who cares ? Its my day, her day and our day. That all matters.

Firstly, i wanna thank God that i fall for someone like her. Eventho i maybe dont know either her parents playing with the fire or not. But, what im sure that, she's the bomb. She explods my heart with her loves, faiths, honest, believes, spirit and etc etc.. Its too much to mentiond. But, in other words, she created a smile on my face nearly everyday until today. Even if she is not around me, i can still feels her next to me. And thats make me missing her almost every minutes of my everyday and night. Deep ? I know.. Its a year been thro. Everythings happend.

It all started with smile, like, fall, love, mad, angry, jealousy, lies, sadness, tears, pitty, regrat, honest, believes, happiness, doubt, God, families, me, you, and true loves. Every words, negatives, positives, we've been thro together and the footprints we left is only memories. Memories thro the whole year. But, alhamdulilah. We've both learnd alot from our past and mistakes. And alhamdulilah as well tht we've reachs this moment.

Nothing much to mention actually. Just, the whats next is, im hoping for God bless our relations always. With more positives thinking, with great minded, and giving what we've dreams of. Giving more strength to face the unwelcome deals and giving us lights to shows the right path in lifes. A bright futures, a freedom of times, everythings. All i ever want is us grows up together and learn what we could, and be old with only her indeed. So, im out of words now.

And again, happy 12monthsarry to you love. And a happy one year anniversarry to you baaby. I sayang you.. :)<3

p/s: you are heaven's fall for me to have. - wira julaihi.

3rd month of the year.

2011-03-11T08:01:00.001+08:00

why is that, thats because, lately, honestly speaking, i lost my focus. On my goal, life, love, and everything. I just dont know what happend to me lately. But somehow, i know it will last and i wont be happening again.

Its all started when i had a fight with my dad. Seriously, being a powerful choleric, your point finger, must control. True what ibu anie told us at the weekends last month. Its not easy to a powerful choleric once their ego's been touch. Anytime, anywhere, it'll explode without using their thinking. Alhamdulilah that i learn how to not to react to something that can causes trouble. Its true, being a powerful choleric, they wouldnt give any chance to other people to win their war. Either his right nor wrong, it will be always right. They just born to be a leader. Always being the "Mr Right."

what im trying to let it out here is about my life this few days back. Im not being myself til i realized that, i always follow what i wanted. It doesnt matter was it bad, good, wrong, or right. Without using any thinking i just shout it out load. I just dont know what happend to me this few days. But, yet.. I dint regrate it. Why ? If im not being that, i wouldnt know nothing til right now. But somehow, i created tears to someone i love the most. Idk how to say sorry. Cause everytime i did, it'll happen again and again. Whats the use of saying sorry ?

But, in other word, it says that, its better to say sorry all the time. Eventho your right, or your wrong. Cause people who felt sorry, actually they sorry for themselves. Realizing and learning form the mistake they had made. Cause, "failure is success when we learn from our own mistakes." but, it tooks time to make the decision. To decide is the hardest part. We all can decide, but not all qualified. Thats the thing. I know that i knew it, but im still doing it. Thats stupid should i say ? But, every broken can be fixed. It'll fades away. The stupidity must go away. And i really hope, i find my answer at the away weekend this coming next weekends. Amin.

What i always wanted is, first, i want to disiplin myself to our Creator. Cause, i know that everything comes from Him. I always wanted to get clean and always prepared to face anything humblely or humanity. Second, i want to have my quality time with the ones i love. Share loves, ideas, everything in positively. A perfect family. Eventho im not that educated guy, nothing to be proud with, at least i want to make my family and the ones i love proud of me. There is something to me. And lastly, i want to change my lifestyle to a better one. To be freedom in and on everything. From my A til Z. I dont want to own stress life like all the wrong quardrant's people have now. I dint say working is a bad thing. But, working to whom is countable. I dont wanna work for people's life, since theres lives who needs people like you to work it out. I just want to be different in many ways. A great life instead of good life. As the secret tot me, to feels and always visualized what type of living lifestyle that we want it.

Wel, it seems im out of words already here. All im hoping here is to have the answers to my questions at the away weekends. Amin.

Auburn Perfect Two lyrics

2011-02-25T07:57:00.001+08:00

Verse1
You can be the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterflies I
feel in my belly
You can be the captain And I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date
You can be the hero
And I can be your side kick
You can be the tear That I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'
Or u can be the sun when it
shines in the mornin'

Don't know if I could ever be
Without you 'cause boy you
complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna
marry

Cause you're the one for me
(for me)
And I'm the one for you (for
you)
You take the both of us (of
us)
And we're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

You can be the prince and I
can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth I
can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I
spill on the pages
You can be the vodka and I
can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the
winter weather
But I don't care as long as
were together

Don't know if I could ever be
Without you 'cause boy you
complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna
marry

Cause your the one for me
(for me)
And I'm the one for you (for
you)
You take the both of us (of
us)
And we're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

You know that I'll never
doubt ya
And you know that I think
about ya
And you know I can't live
without ya
I love the way that you smile
And maybe in just a while
I can see me walk down the
aisle

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna
marry

Hook
Cause your the one for me
(for me)
And I'm the one for you (for
u)
U take the both of us (of us) And were the perfect two
Were the perfect two
Were the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two(yeah,
yeah)

sayangku, si lampuhku. ;p

2011-02-24T07:19:00.001+08:00

hello and goodmorning blogger. Idkw, i feel like blogging. Its just that i miss my sayang soo-very-the-much ! Like, right now ? But, yeahh.. Shes asleep now. :) dont wanna wake her up.

Wel, let me share a little about this girl. We both known each other is a year already. And guess what ? My love to her is getting more and more every single minutes. How come ? Idk.. Its just love from both sides i guess ?

But, seriously.. I thank God that i found her. And i thank God that she's been given to my heart to atleast change the way i use to be. Me ? Im not that perfect guy. But, im born to be a great leader. Im the leader in me.

But yet, every leaders need their guidence. Including me. I need someone to share my story life. Which God gave her to my life to be happy with. And yes, she create every smiles on my face perfectly. I know that, some might said, we're still young and all. But, who cares ? Love is not an age. Love is not a numbers. But numbers can explain how much is your love to someone.

And baaby, i really appreciate to know you, to see you, to hear you, to have you in my life. I swear to God that i will pray for our strength to face anything and for our long lasting relations. Amin.. She is enough for me. I dont need beautifool lady to create my story. All i need is her heart to be love.

She is one in a million for me. I've learnd that, once you love someone, we need to love them with the whole package. Package as in, the bad, ugly, stupidity sides of the person we love. And i made my decision to do so. I love her with all my heart. Which i know that same goes to her.

Actually, because of this lady of mine, si lampuhku, slowly i leave all those things that not include to my successness. What ever i do, it make me think nowdays. Shes the reason for my thinking. She makes me move fast. She complete me. She complete my everyday with just saying, "i sayang you jua." thats the words that i always listen to everytime i wanna go to bed. Idk if im not that normal. But, yeah.. I dont care ! As long we're happy together.

Not just being happy, but we've learn frm each other how to live life. And i promise to people who stab us behind our back, we will prove you wrong. I will prove you wrong ! Cause i know that when God with us, no one can stop our way. No one.. Unless death seperate us. Shes my friend, shes my bestfriend, and shes my drugs in my soul.

I love her so much ! Shes like my everything. I love you, sayang ! I sayang you. And God knows i do. Wel, enough said. Have a nice day guys. Cheers !

Ps: sayang, i love you.

i cant sleep.

2011-02-17T06:08:00.001+08:00

oh, well.. Hello blogger. Here i am again posting randomly. Again i cant sleep and idk why. Too much thinking maybe ? Yeaah.. Sort of.. :/

wel, wanna know whats on my mind ? Its alot !! :s one of it is, im thinking of my goals. I really need to achieve it, like urgently ? Nyehs.. But then, i know that me who needs to focus. Thats the thing.. Focus. Everytime i try to focus on my goals. Ada ada saja tiaa. Like, something came up in different ways.

But i thank God that i was watching the secret last night. Wel, ive watch it over and over already. But last night, its different. Why so ? Cause, before i watch it, i ask myself to get and learn something on it. And yeah, alhamdulilah.. I did ! :)

its all about focus actually.. My focus is sometimes, no so good. But the solution for it is doing the core. I know.. I know what to do, but only decisions. I just dont know how to act at first place. Its hard to a melancholy choleric. Its.. Antah ! But, harus mensyukuri. I know..

This is my process i guess. And it says that, harus mencintai process, kalo ingin sukses. Had to love the process, if we want success. So, mau inda mau.. Had to. :s

last night ive learnd that, how we can communicate with the universe. Its through our mind. Whatever we think, we are right. So, yeahh.. The way we think yang patut di asuh. Had to feed our mind with positive thinking. How ? Read books.

I know actually.. But, me who dont wanna do it. I who need to change actually.. I who need to love myself first. Me who is me. I who create it, and i who solve it. Fullstop.

And i need to have great life. I wanna have a great life. Wel, im being so random. I believe you guys can realize how sanguine my thinking right now. Nyehs.. Sayang, i need you. :(

why her ? Cause she who can create a smile on my face. Not just a smile, but a happy smile. Idk.. Its just happy.. She makes me happy. By seeing her, i can smile. Wel, i miss her alot tho ! Alot ! I love her every single minutes. God, im so jiwang. :s

wel, i blog randomly here.. So, yeahh.. Nothing interesting ? I know.. I blog so that i can feel sleepy. Heeh.. Bh, i think im out of words tiaa. Til here th dulu.. Goodmorning, and have a great day. Cheers. :)

Paul McCartney Freedom Lyrics

2011-02-17T05:24:00.000+08:00

This is my right, a right given
by God
To live a free life, to live in
freedom

Talking about freedom
I'm talking about freedom
I will fight, for the right
To live in freedom

Anyone, tries to take it away
Will have to answer 'cause
this is my right

I'm talking about freedom
I'm talking about freedom
I will fight, for the right
To live in freedom, yeah oh

Talking about freedom
I'm talking about freedom
I will fight, for the right
To live in freedom

Everybody talking about
freedom
We're talking about freedom
We will fight, for the right
To live in freedom, oh

Talking about freedom
I'm talking about freedom
I will fight, for the right
To live in freedom

I'm talking about freedom
I'm talking about freedom
We will fight, for the right
To live in freedom

Lirik Lagu D’Masiv Jangan Menyerah

2011-02-17T05:17:00.000+08:00

tak ada manusia
yang terlahir sempurna
jangan kau sesali
segala yang telah terjadi

kita pasti pernah
dapatkan cobaan yang berat
seakan hidup ini
tak ada artinya lagi

reff1:
syukuri apa yang ada
hidup adalah anugerah
tetap jalani hidup ini
melakukan yang terbaik

tak ada manusia
yang terlahir sempurna
jangan kau sesali
segala yang telah terjadi

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reff2:
Tuhan pasti kan menunjukkan
kebesaran dan kuasanya
bagi hambanya yang sabar
dan tak kenal putus asa

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