She's my new chapter.

its been awhile sudah i dint post anything here. But now, i think i wanna share the happy moment i ever had! :D

so, right now.. Im inlove with someone who used to be my friend. Who she is, will tell the whole world sooner or later. Harap besabar. ;p

wel, what ever happend between us is that, she trusted me frm the begin sudah. Way back to my zaman sekolah. She always came to me and shared everything to me. We even pernah lunch together. Gila, lama brabis wah sudah tu. But yet, that time, shes just a friend to me. Just a friend..

Since she once shared everything to me before, now shes my everything. And alhamdulillah, she accept my past, she accept everything that i do, and what i did. She dint even hide things behind my back. Im happy.. With the same personalities, choleric melancholy, makes me.. Wow! Simple say, she knows whats on my mind, and i know whats on her mind. Nyaman laah, capat bepkir, inda slow inda lagging. And, always have this choleric kind of commitment for the future. They said, shes my perfections, and i said, shes my everything. <3

and what greatest thing ever happend again, my families love her. She loves my family.. She talked with them. She talked to daddy. Wel, choleric and choleric. She promoted herself to mummy. She even talked about the future with abng. And crazy things lagi, shes rapat with my both sisters! Mostly kaka.. Kaka loves her. Kaka gaves her many things and also happiness. I really thank God. Alhamdulillah..

Seriously, i learned frm my mistakes. I always thank God for what ever happend to me. Alhamdulillah..

"Part of the deal, that makes you stronger." - Her.

End dulu. Cause, shes on her way to pick me up.. Need to get ready. ;p cheers!

while waiting.

now that im waiting for my business partner to fetch me up, i rather blog and share little things frm yesterday.

Yesterday was great. What ungreatful is, aku inda jdi turun tutong. Ada masalah.. But yet, the problem is not the problem, but the problem is how we gonna solve it. Then, i find my way how to solve things out.

Then by 11ish to 12, i bring my sister out and terus jumpa a good friend of mine. Shes awesome! And yet, she makes me sadar. And i owe her everything! I thank you for everything.

Nah, what happend is, the rain dint stop at all.. My glasses lgi tinggal arh friend's place. And yet, kabur mata bejln time hujan ani. Aiyaah.. But yet, show must go on.

While waiting, we hang out for awhile, until adaa. Hahah. Then, we take a flight and fly.. I was.. Wanting to know her back. Since kami lost contact before. And slowly, we did know each other. I once let her meet my siblings. I just wanna make something different this time. Since before, i did my mistake, now im learning. And yet, theres always a limitations for me this time.

Cause the way she expressed her feelings, makes me wonder and makes me thinks that my ex is the one who cakapi me. I just wish you did before and make me knows all the pain you've been gone thro. Yet, everything has change. And everyone deserve a better one.

Building relations with her and fiffy makes me comfortable. Since she once said, i like your sister, cause i dont have one. But, seriously.. Now you do. :)

and so, still im waiting. And the discussion started at 8pm. Now is almost 7.30pm. Kn ke kulapis lgi. Wahh.. Alhamdulilah. The business is growing there. I somehow, thank God for whatever happend to me. Alhamdulillah..

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been answered..

i just done my one chapter reading and now, im about to sleep. But, all of a sudden, i feel like wanna share my day.

So, yesterday i wokeup at 1ish afternoon. I was sleeping over the night at my friend's place. Bangun, terus mandi, then lunch. After that, i startup them since both them (my business partner) belum bestartup.

Then by 3ish, we send someone home, then had to pickup someone in Tanjong Nangka and di Senkurong. Then, had to pick up someond di Tasek Meradun. After that, singgah my place to drop my stuffs.

Then we went to The Mall, Gadong. Kononnya kn prospecting. But, something bad happend. Then, i met her sister. Cerita cerita, since to me, her siblings is like my own siblings too. Then, ive made up my mind just to stay at Chill. Cause, again i dont wanna ruined her day with the friends. Then, i choose just to go home. And yet, i saw shes avoiding me too. Its all good. Might understand.

Then, reached home, i decided to invite some friends to infonite since that night ada infonite. And yeah, alhamdulillah.. Atleast, i can bring one of my friend. Thank you, God. Hope, God opened his heart to fight for whats right for his family.

Infonite, was great. I managed to learn something. Alhamdulillah.. And i also, have the chance to meet new people. New friends that also a dreamer.

Then, after infonite, i follow my business partner to send our group back home. Send off to Rimba, Tungku and Tasek Meradun. Wah, atleast in the car i managed to build some relations with them by listening to some cds. Alhamdulillah..

Masa on my way to Tungku, theres an old friend contacting me. Since i havent meet her for an ages, we planned to meet up. But, before that, i was so sleepy. Since its late. But, once i reached home, i took my mentor advice, mun sleepy, tpi ada appointment, tarus bwa mandi air sajuk, and i did that. I was shaking like hell.. But, dreams catch me.

Then, we meet up and i thank God that we meet up again. Shared ideas, and build back relations. And she treat me makan. Thank you Allah di atas rezekiMu, and thanks to you babe. :D really appreciate the night.

Since the time ticks to 12am, 14th is appreared on my phone. But, since she also just brokeup with her boyfriend, we shared problems and letting all out. And since we got the same situations, all of a sudden, i learned something, and it makes me realized how hurt she is and how in pain my ex was.

The way she mentioned how her boyfriend was makes me understand how stupid i was. How stupid i was dint fight and win back her heart. My friend makes it clear how my ex dint want me back just by her expressions. Now i know, how she dont want me back. By seeing how sad my friend was makes me understand what my ex's sister told me yesterday. And all i can say, from the bottom of my heart, i honestly am sorry for what i did, dear ex girlfriend. :']

by seeing my friend tdi, makes me learned alot. I thank God that i meet you, dear friend. You makes me sadar.. :') and i thank God, i finally given the answer. Alhamdulillah.. And i made my promise, i wont gonna bother your life anymore. Now that i couldnt hold our broken promises that i, myself breaks it. I was still trying to fix it, by fixing myself first. But now, everything is clear. Its time to move on as she always want me to. I try, whatever it takes. :')

"Its time for me to move on, and focus on whats next." - Ayunni Syazwani.

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Alhamdulillah, thank you..

Alhamdulillah.. Everything make sense now. I wanna thank God for giving me the chance to learn something di 15planner. Thank you, God. Nothing much to post, just that, i think i need to remove everything that unimportant to me already. And always do things that make me closer to my dreams. And my dreams, i wanna be a champion for my family, and having a quality time with them. - end.

when i go bla bla blaaa!

okeh, thats just great. Alhamdulillah.. Atleast God giving me chance to show me that person who i miss. So, yeahh.. Atleast, kurang jua lah sikit rasa rindu. Wasehh ~

but yeahh.. That was really unexpected.

Somehow, i choose to run away.. Why so ? Cause, i dont wanna ruined her night having fun with her friends. So, yeahh..

What am i saying here ? :s im lost.. Antah! Inda ku tau lgi.. Damn eh..

WIRAAAAA!!! STOP IT!! FOCUS!!

Hiking esuk pagi saja memblast! Titik.. And 15planner will be much better this time. .

I promise myself that, Im better tomorrow than i am today.

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i somehow miss you.

God knows how i feel right now. Thats the reason why i dont wanna sleep late anymore. Once im not sleeping, my mind might always think about you. Idk.. I feel missing.. But, its alright if you dont. I know, you'll have a better life now. But the moon's bright tells me that you miss me. Cause i do too. I cant deny that. Oh God.. Why You give me this feeling, again ? Do i dont deserve to move on when it comes to her ? Or maybe You want me to be with her ? Do i deserve her for living ? Idk.. Please God.. I really need an answer. A right honest answer.

Yatah bagi malas nie ahir tidur ani.. Everything reminds me of you. Lately, i even dreamt about you. But why ? Is she oke God ? Is she fine ? Does she needs me ? Oh God..

Ya Allah.. Sucikan lah hatiku, dan berikan lah ku petunjuk hidayahmu. Lancarkan lidahku agar aku bisa melafazkan zikirMu ya Allah.. Tenangkan lah dadaku. Berikan lah ku jalan untuk membuat sesuatu keputusan yang benar dan tidak menyinggung sekalian ciptaanMu ya Allah.. Amin. :,)

Its time to focus!

i realized that, lately.. I've been given a dream that unexpected. The one that doesn't make sense anymore.

But when i think about it, is the person that appears in my dreams been given the same dreams as well ? It seems not. Cause, if its yes, something would tells me in many ways.

Far away behind. Thats just the words that i can replace from the words never far behind. Eventhing has change. Everyone deserve a changes in their lifes. Change to something better.

LS, makes me more humble, and listen more and understand people more. I started with the parents. Im building relations back with them. Then, family. Since all my siblings are here already. Cause, usually my little sister had to live her life at the hostel in KB. As we all know, its holiday..

Then, as a leader of a big organisations. We must atleast understand their own situations. Cause, best on conselling with the mentor, he said, the bigger the business, the bigger the devils.

And i agreed! The more we wanna focus, the more distructions we will crossed by. But, life as an eagle, always about being focus. I do wanna search a story about an eagle. Since last time..

Oh, talking about eagle, alhamdulillah my name card siap sudah. I wish i could post it here. But, later will do if my little sister want me to use her new laptop again.

Cause, last night i was doing some works on her laptop. Was doing excel. Doing time table for my routin this coming 2012. Wanna make my 2012 a big history of my life this time. Without any perfect distructions.

Road to Sydney, its like road to get you back. So, what im doing now, i closed my eyes on Sydney, but focus more to Umrah 2013. I can do it..

I really wanna go there so bad. It was in my dreambook. Atleast going there with the parents and ofcause the family. Being a better person is never enough until we've reach to a better place. I wanna be somebody instead of nobody. Thats my affirmations everyday. Being somebody.

"Dream is the key to success."

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Di Jakarta ku meneriak!

now that im still in Jakarta. Alhamdulillah, aku ahirnya sampai jua di Jakarta. Dgn semangat baru, i wont gonna quit fighting for my rights. What past is past, and the future is now. Move on, and they said, dont ever look back to the past that hurts you. Just focus on whats ahead you. Wahh.. Its really a big slap on my face! Alhamdulillah..

Im awake now to make my dreams come true. I wont stop til i r it. And yet, destructions is everywhere. Destructions are the one who will put us under and always been the reason for our failure. Destructions can be either in a good way at the begining nor the bad stuffs that makes you lost. Comfort zone.

Grow is out of comfort zone. Things or whatever that we feel secure of. Or feel nice with. And whos sweet at the begining, that can destroy our secure future. Our dreams. Our burning desire.

Talking about dreams, i think i had a new dreams. This is what happend, last night, i was nyongkrong or should i say "lepak or chill" di Circle K, near by our hotel. I was chilling out with my Indonesian friends. But what happend, i saw theres a mother and her small daughter sleeping outside the mart homelessly. Seriously, me as a human being, inda sampai hati meliat the kid just sleeping there poorly. Eventho their sleeping, i just silently bought them food for the kid to eat actually. Inda ku sampai hati meliat knk knk yang maseh muda ampai ampai cematu gnya.

Then i talked to myself, what makes them like that ? Is it too much social life di umur muda ? Or just homeless ? What if its ever happen to me ? Adakah aku kn kena pedulikan ? Or adakah aku kena usir ?

But, Alhamdulillah.. Di LS ngajarin untuk harus sentiasa memilih a good path way. Ke jalan yang lebih baik dan bermakna to the others. Then, i remembered that i took small pillow and blanket when i was on the plane. And ive decided to just give the kid semampu ku and yet, menyenangkan tidurnya. When i stared the kid, my mind and heart whispered me to pick up the pitty sleeping kid, and let her sleep on my bed instead. But, by giving her small pillow and blanket for her comfort sleep sudah menjadi satu keamanan untuknya dari ku. Alhamdulillah..

And that night, i realized that im born to make others comfortable. Dari segi knowledge, segi pergaulan, apatah lagi dari segi business. Di DLS, i learned about, everyone of us, mesti menguasai principle #1 which is giving.

Harus selalu mempunyai sihat sentiasa mau memberi. Cause i believe in the qoute, "The more you give, the more you will get."

alhamdulillah, aku bnyk belajar and aku sentiasa mensyukuri apa yang Tuhan telah ciptakan dan apa yang Tuhan berikan kepadaku selama ani. Alhamdullilah..

Wel, since today is gonna be our last day in Jakarta, i dont wanna waste my time. Cause time is money. And money is not everything, but every things need money. Umrah 2013, im qualified! And now, its time to work hard and work smart. Alright blogger, i move on and will post again once i reached Bruland. Insha-Allah..

"There is no fear in Love." - Skip Ross.

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