with the help of God's willing.

dear blogger,

its true when she said that, "eventho we're not together, deep in our hearts we will never be apart."

true! I also cant deny that. And seriously, i thank God that you accept me back for who i am. Alhamdulillah..

Im just a lost dude without no future when youre not around me. Cause baby, i only can see my bright future when im with you. When i see your smiles, laughs, and even with all your kisses. I felt my future is getting nearby. Our future. Its clear much.

Somehow, when youre not around, i can still feel you. I can see you everywhere. Eventho when they talk about Sydney next year, i only can see you clearly. Its like, worth for me to fight it. Or should i say, atu patut diperjuangkan.

Seriously, i cant deny that im sooo madly inlove with only you. Eventho theres alot of misunderstanding between us, tears, sadness and hates, but its funny, the meds for all these problems is being with you. We both knows how to find our way back together. I really appreciate that.

I even thank God for giving me the chance to love you. Not just loves, but i had the chance to understand myself and to know who i am. Alhamdulillah..

Honestly, i learned alot frm you. Mostly i learn how to be sabar. Eventho its never that easy, but yet it happens to me. I even learned how to control my feelings towards you, towards lifes, and towards everything.

I even realised that mum, always support us dalam diam. Idk what she saw in you. But all i can say, shes always being supportive when it comes to our relations. I thank God for that.

Eventho im not that great in your relatives' eyes, but yet i appreciate your fighting so hard to be still with me. You are a figther in me. You inspired me with your struggleness just to have me. Thank you, God. :')

somehow, i hope theres never too late for me to say, im sorry. And again, i really am sorry for what ever happens to us. Im sorry, love. :')

this time on, it makes me promise to myself that i will take care of you as i promise to your mum at the begining. I'll try my very best to understand you very well. Cause i know baby, youre worth it to fight for.

Lastly, again i wanna thank God for letting me to love you and grow with you. I really am thankful for whatever happens between us. Theres always a way, when we have the will. With the help of God's willing. Insha-Allah..

Incase youre reading this post baby, i also wanna say, i always love you with all my heart. I sayang you.. You can reply your loves by texting me right now to my phone. I'll wait, no matter what. And i always love you whatever it takes, Iwani. I love you.. :')

<3's,
Wira Julaihi.

move on.

dear blogger,

i know its never easy to end a special relationships. But, yet.. Why it still happening ? God's always had a better plan.

Seriously, its not that easy to lose a girl like you. But, what to do ? Since semua inda kn lurus sudah and end up sakit hati tplng, so better off alone.

But, i do appreciate it. Eventho it hurts, but had to accept it no matter what. Theres always a lot of fish in the sea, but yet, having a mermaid is never easy. And i know, for you, theres thousand of stars in the sky, but for me, theres only one moon.

Moving on is the only way. Cause, i know thats the best for both of us. You go your way, and i'll go mine. In happy or sad mood, thats never matters.

Somehow, here i wanna say thank you to you for loving me and thank you for having me 'menumpang' in your heart. Thank you.. :')

i really appreciate for your appearance in me. I even learned alot frm you. Eventho, its a simple thing. I thank God for giving me the chance to get and learned something frm you. Alhamdulillah..

To you, i just hope you'll be good and be strong this time. Like how strong you dont wanna listen to me. And how strong you dint care about my feelings at all.

But yet, not just girls who had feelings. Everyone does. I never blame you. I blame myself for cant handle your emotionals. I know its never hard, but i know its never easy pun.

I think i make the right choice this time. So that you wont make me worry and no longer hurts me. By reading all your texts, its confirmd that we shouldnt be together anymore.

I know, that im the one who wanna leaves you balik balik. But, the more i wanna leaves, it should be the more you gonna come. But, i think that wont happen tia.

So, i guess.. This is it. Before its too late, i wanna say sorry for hurting your feelings all these year and thank you so much for having me as your lover. Thank you. :')

without no reply, i take that as a no. So, yeah.. You be good, and achieve your goals in your studies. And make your dreams crystal clear for your family.

Lets just end this eventho i never want it to happen, but everythings happend, it happens. So, goodluck to you and enjoy your life. Adious..

<3's,
Wira Julaihi.

The end.

dear blogger,

seriously, its the end of something special for me. Idk, but i think WE should appreciate it as you said. So, its a why not ?

Somehow, i learned that, every bad ends, theres always a good beginings. So, yeahh.. Out frm comfort zone.

If you are really inlove with someone, you should not hurt their feelings. But yet, im hurted.

Later on, its nuts & bolts. The function where i first meet you. But yet, i guess on the same function as well its an end for us.

Wel, maybe something that i need to learn. Thats why it happens. To be honest, why should i care for someone who act like they care but they dont sebenarnya ? Dont you think thats a waste of time ?

Oh yes, time is money. Why wasting ? Plus, theres gonna be alot of new great beginings. I believe that.

Maybe, i deserve it this time. Time to move on. Moving to the next level of life. With or without, thats just the part of the deal.

Enough is enough, and i think i had enough. Never worth it. Somehow, all words frm parents is a blessed. So, just accept it. Theres a lot of plenty things that need to be done.

Why would i struggle to make people's right, since i know that i can find the right people ? Thats more interesting i guess.

Its just that, i dont wanna get hurt anymore by the same person all the time. It makes the word sorry turns ugly.

Antah.. You just dont care baby. Cause if you do, you'll understand it well. People do mistakes, thats true. But people repeatly do the same mistakes, thats stupid.

Idk, i think its time to be alone sudah. And hopefully, no distructions interupt my way achieving my goals and dreams. Insha-Allah..

<3's,
Wira Julaihi.

beraya.

salam blogger,

i just wanna share my day here. Its the 3rd of raya sudah. Times ticking so fast. Inda sadar sadar, Ramadhan is end and here come the September.

I realized, its time to wake up. Face anything.. Peacefully, no harm doings, be truths, moving on and being positive.

Somehow, dealing with hurts and pains, always had an end. And some pains might ends with some rainbows. Miracles happen.

My miracle was after i done my zohor yesterday, im about to go out braya. Biasa lah open house. Its a why not ? Share some ideas, and everything. Until, i saw paris.

Its a small effiel tower figured, and it can reminds me of the trip for this year, which im not qualified.

But yet, next year, more trips lagi ada. Like, langkawi, sydney and so on so on. I talk to myself, its a why not ? Why not make it my family trip. Why not fighting for it ? Berjuang. Dreams..

Somehow, once reached home, dad's relatives braya kerumah. It was like, wow.. Its full house. I realized that i got relatives di kb, limbang, labuan, serawak, kl. Its all local legs. It was great had the chance to meet them all tdi. Walau ada yang i don't know. Its Amazing..

After that, my baby and the families braya pun. And yeah, minggle around, chit chat, share ideas, learning characters. Its fun.. :D

after that, rest for awhile, magrib apa, sambung braya. Was ke jerudong tdi, with some families. It was great also when braya ramai ramai. Siuk.. :)

then after that, lost sekajap, and end up di lambak. Few houses tdi di aga, braya, then ke manggis joining the parents braya.

Sending off di lambak, tarus braya for the last house. Before twelve blik pasal kn menyampati membli minyak. Then blik.

Sampai rumah tdi, ampar while waiting, then finish the undone things, and yeah.. Done everythings, and now im here waiting for subuh. Cause i know, once i sleep inda lagi tbgn. So, alang alang.. :)

i think sampai sni dulu then. Will post lgi when i got time. Selamat menunaikan solat subuh. And have a nice day. Cheers.

Loves,
Wira Julaihi.