It's raining

Hello everyone! Its raining in Bru-land now. People might give 1001 reason about raining. Or mayb excuses when it comes to rain. For example, nyaman tidur lah, lazy-ness, sleepy, hard to drive, blurry eyes sight, and yada yada. 

But, people forget that, sebalik hujan atu ada hikmahnya.. As in, theres something good happen when it comes to rain. Ada yang ckp, hujan is rezeki. And ada yg ckp, when it rains, all plants grow beautifully. Semua jadi subur.. Not just subur, but.. It gaves us a very great and beautiful growth or results. 

My massage here is, sadang sadang rah kan membagi alasan! Alasan inda menjamin masa depan. Excuses never brings any luck. Eventho, we dont believe in luck, but yeaaah.. We believe in work hard. Like how hard is the rain enter the sand just to face the roots and fixing it. Thats is just the process.. And i believe, to success, we need to fall in love with the process. Who said this, successful people did. And yes, i listen to successful people cause i deserve to be successful as well. 

Seriously, i dont know why i post this.. Its just that i feels like sharing saja. No biggy.. And mind my words there. I mixed it up using MIB. Not Melayu Islam Beraja, but Melayu Inggris Becampur. Lol.

Sampai sini sja til my next post. Hope everyone stays positives and always choose to be happy no matter how hard is the situations that you face on. I believe in miracles. As long you believe in your God and believe in yourself. Cheers everyone! 😁

Moanday Blues.

Good morning everyone! Hopefully everyone has a very great "moanday" morning. 

Wel, thats the thing.. I never knew why does people always mentioned that monday is a lazy day ? Or moanday ? Is it because monday is the first day of the week ? 

But, if thats the reason that monday is the first day of the week, we should be bless that, monday is a monday blues! Lol.

See.. Different people, different perspective. But, all i can tell is, theres never wrong, and never right. Either its bad nor good, its absolutely right.

I seriously dont know why i brought up this topic, its just that i somehow woke up early in this morning which i planned to do my morning run with my baby.. But yet, she managed to change the planned by not waking up in the morning. And being the lazy moanday kinda mood ? Lol.

Wel, i guess theres nothing much to say.. And please mind my words.. It says that, no one is perfect. And fake it, til you make it. Til here.. Have a great monday morning everyone. Cheers! 😊😊

Chapter 1.

I know im just a dude who wants to want things ? And wanting to know things that i dont ? So, here. Let me share about this one girl that im dealing with right now ? 

Since its the first chapter, let me tell you alittle bit of my crazy stupid love stories ? I know, it seems like im crazy to own and having a perfect women of my life just for me to settle down things ? Maybe people might think im crazy ? But yeaaaah! Thats just the whole plan i guess ? 

Which it come to more worst that i ever think of ? Too much lady but cant seems to find the better one ? Maybe i did, but i wasted it ? Wel.. I dont blame them, but me ? I somehow knew that its me who needs to be fixed. 

Until, this someone entered my life ? Her story is very the unique! I tell you.. 

It was past few years back, when i broked up with my ex who had the same name like her ? Wel, both of my exes' names got her name on it ? Funny! Wel, yeaah.. I broked up, then that time i asked my little sissy to hooked me up with someone ? Which shes my sissy's bestbabe ? Lol.

But, during that time.. She was very much "jual mahal" should i say ? Or idk ? Pokoknya, i dint get her feedback at all ? But, thats when i realized i added her on my fb ? I think.. But, it ends there.. Fullstop ?!

So, i again moving on and meet another girl which you guys can just refer the little bit of story about her on my previous post. Inda banyak cause shes very much psycho i guess ? Sorry for that.. Long story short, we broked up. But i thank God it happend ? Cause if not, im not gonna be who i am right now. 

So, since then ive decided to be alone for awhile ? And being single for this whole year ? Which last month is my "a year anniversary" for being single ? Lol. But, behind the sence, i managed to flings around with, idk ? Many girls i guess ? God, im not proud of it, but i know thats bad! 

Until at one point, where i actively on wechat ? And we happend ? It happened, very funny. Really are unexpected ? Lol. 

It all begin with a drama shit of her with this one dude ? Which im involved ? Since i know him that much i guess ? Which idk ? But, her first text to me was on my instagram ? Way back im in Labuan, heading to KL. And that time, we're only just like that ? Cause i somehow respect the stories of this crazy lovebirds ? Which endup being an angrybirds ? Haah.. 

Then, 11th of July.. She texted me asking for his number which im shocked that, shes madly inlove but didnt have his number ? Wel, i dont know "their" story. But, yeaah.. Since then, we're getting closer and closer ? The right moment when i ended my story with the teacher. 

So, yeaah.. 

Crazy!

Thats the thing what i dont ever understand, when someone at certain point ya cemani, then cematu. Like, whaaaaaaat ? True, we're nothing and all.. Bla bla blaa.. But, what tha hell ? Its like, youre riding a roller coster ? When you look at the trails, its really scarry ? But, you still wanna ride it ? Just to feel the afraid of the feelings of being scarred ? Then, when you ride it, you exactly enjoying it with those mixed feelings of fun, scared, afraid, and yada yada yada ?  But, yet.. The moment has been created ? Which it can jdi memories ? Mcm, antah ? Sandi brabisan ?! I dont know what im talking about here! But, antah eeh! I just believe, God has a better plan indeed ? I know i might sound this and that.. But, yeaaaaaaah! Antah ?! Astagafirullah aladzim. 😔 

P/s : imy.. 😚

Shes still in needs.

Assalamualaikum, and good morning all! 

How are you guys doing lately ? Hope you guys doing just fine as my prays in my prayers everyday. Hee. 

So, my yesterday was awesome! Ohh, before that.. Fo those who bimboo much still here, my post always been for what happend kelmarin ? Yesterday ? So, basically, whatever happend yesterday, im gonna post it here whenever i had the time ? Hee..

Soo.. Here. Yesterday was great day ever ? Why so ? Pasal, it was great you know, waking up by "someone" texts ? Hee. I maybe angau ? But i dont give a F about it ? Janji ku happy and doing right and make me happy ? Hahahah. Selfish much ? So what.. 😜

But, somehow yesterday was awesome pasal inda ya ngusut ? Inda mental and inda bgi sasak ? Instead, manja ya pulang ? Which i loike ? Hee. Until, when she went out ? Then, shes gone ? But, naah.. Dont wanna think too much on that ? Krg aku tplng yg kusut ? Haah.. Pasal, somehow statement ani lurus ? 

So, better dont ? At all ? Which banar ? Nada bah ngusut ? Hee.

Then, another one came ? All of a sudden ? Right when shes not around ? Mcm tau tau sja ? Heheh. The one who i mengeluh at before ? We're making a great convo's somehow.. Panjang laah jua. Anu, dri mengucap, "10" ? Jdi panjang berabisan ? Hahaha. Funny.. 

She send me her photo ? Mcm, wow.. Baik jua time azan magrib kan ? Mun inda, awu.. Abis kecundang! Bahaya bagi Brunei! Hahahah. That reminds me of our convo with my bestfriend, yanii. Pasal bahaya bgi brunei ani. Pacaaah! I know if she read this, shes gonna laugh ? Hahaha.

Then, the convo stop just like that. Until we started to chat about her anak buat and all ? And she send me the video of her anak buah ? And he is such an adorable little moving thing ? Cute much!! 😍😍😍 mcm, i feels like i wanna have one ? Or two ? Or twins ? In sha Allah..

Cemani jua usulnya ? Hee. In sha Allah.. 

Then, masa im on my way, i texted her ? Kli tdur kan yaaa ?!! Mcm apaa! Patut jua ilang ? Hahahah. But, its alright ? She must be tired ? Inda lgi beair ? Sakit bah tuu.. Hahaah. Then, shes being cranky ? And i decided to be away ? But, no ? She managed to make me stay instead ? Antah aah.. Iya ani bomoh kli aah ? Hahahaha. But, naah.. Thats just her which i couldnt say no ? Shes just, someone. Someone in and outside of me. Shes everywhere i go ? In other words, "maybe we're friends, maybe we're more, maybe its just my imaginations ?" Hahahaha! Kan belagu lah ku jua kan ? Angau much!

Then, as usual.. Every wednesday, got #epm's class. And #fto's extraclass. Tpikn.. Mcm, sampat laaah jua lgi kmi be face time ? Pacaaaaaaaah jua tu ? Mcm, pacaaah berabisan ?! Hahahaha. But somehow.. The miss mikin kurang ? And betambah jua ? Temixed feeling ya my "missing" mode aah! Hahaha. Padan muanya! 😜 but, yeaah.. I was very happy to see her smiling! 😁😁

Kli, epm tiaa. And it was great! And to be honest, i was a little down that all my prospects inda dpt dtg last last minutes ? Mcm, kan mengclose new XES jua ku nie!!!! 😔 but, inda papa. Enjoy the process!!

Thanks to Emo Sharin tdi saying something motivates me. He was like, no matter what, must attend epm's class so that we can charged ourself ? Cause je said,

"Our dreams needs the energy to be charged!" - Sharin Metusin.

And alhamdulillah, thanks Allah for shows  our the right team the Xtreme Team. Really blessed. I am soooo grateful! Alhamdulillah.. 

After epm, kmi face time lah jua lgi ? Anu inda buang peluang ? Since ada wifi sna ? Hahahahahaha! Pacaaaah much! And she complains that i bullied her by asking all my family member to wave at her ? Kli kan mcm merah lah jua mua nya ? And ya awkward ? Hehehe. How i just wish you could be close with them like brabisan close ? In sha Allah.. 

Kli kan, we went for foods hunting ? And kononnya kn menyampati ke perayaan ? Tpi kecundang ? Haah.. But alhamdulillah we managed to get something to eat. Alhamdulillah..

Then, sampai rumah.. Another one person came ? Heee! Who really are unexpected ? That somehow creates the smile on my face with her stories ? Ot was fun. And shes random ? And the awesome part is, she can sing and play guitar ? Ohh my ~ such a turn on ? She really remind me of zee avi ? But ani, Bruneian's style. Not "gangnam style!" Atu, auuut brabisan tia! Hahaha.

Talking about that, gila.. Pernah tu ive heard that a couple had a fight just because of that korean's annoying song ? Godd!!! Sudah pun annoying ? And buleh bah org kelahi leh nya ? Sandi ? Hahahah! 

Then, still no one can ever beats my one and only someone ? She she has this package things called skalor power ? Which not every girls has it ? Cause, "Shes a no, but a yes ?" Pikirkan tia! Steves jobs lgi mulah bepikir. Hahahaha. But, yeaah.. Shes still the vavavum ? Hahahah. In sha Allah, one day i will post a very novel type of story about this someone. Hee.

Texting texting sexting.. Sampai jua menyubuh ? And theres another one came ? And ya ani pun, somehow can feels me ? So, we're making a nice cute convo and ngam jua i was watching "into the greek" with them brothers ? While waiting for the prayers, kmi chitchat. And yeahh.. After ya pray, i asked for her pict with her telekong's on. And before she pray, shes asking me to be her imam ? Mannn!!! Sajuk bah jua badan ? Haaah.. Why out of all questions, atu kan tnyanya ? Cair jua ku tu.. Hee. Alhamdulillah.. In sha Allah, one day. 😊

Kali she send me gambar her so-called-twins ? 

Mcm, okeh ~ hee. Boleh laah! And by that time jua.. My someone asked me to go "hilang!" 😌😌 

Wel, i did. Just for awhile? Just to asked forgiveness for my any wrong doings i have made ? Sengaja inda sengaja ? Hee. Alhamdulillah.. And im hoping, everything will be just fine. Amin..

I think i post too much here ? So, til here then. Have a great day ahed everyone! Think big and be positives on whatever you are doing! Cheers!! 😁😁😁

Okeh! I dint noticed that i dint post this ? Due to aku tetdur ? HAHAHAHAH! So, here a very late post! Enjoy.. 😁

Bitter Sweet.

I am like a bittersweet pie, 

Filled with love and also denial. 

When you're not around, everything goes down, 

Everything goes wrong with me! 

When you're not around, everything goes down, 

Why in hell you cannot see? 

[x2:] 

I can feel your love is real, 

But I know that you're making me sick! 

Girl, you're serving me your poison meal 

And I know that you're making me sick! 

I think I'm better, 

I think I'm better, 

I think I'm b-b-b-b-b-b-b-b-better! 

I think I'm better, 

I think I'm better, 

I think I'm b-b-b-b-b-b-b-b-better! 

Without you. 

You are like a bittersweet pie, 

But you are filled with cream and the cherry top lie! 

When you're not around, everything goes down, 

Everything goes wrong with me! 

When you're not around, everything goes down, 

Why in hell you cannot see? 

[x2:] 

I can feel your love is real, 

But I know that you're making me sick! 

Girl, you're serving me your poison meal 

And I know that you're making me sick! 

I think I'm better, 

I think I'm better, 

I think I'm b-b-b-b-b-b-b-b-better! 

I think I'm better, 

I think I'm better, 

I think I'm b-b-b-b-b-b-b-b-better! 

Without you.

The L's Season. 😏

Hello and assalamulaikum all.. 

Im back to my reality now. Cause i was just away for awhile ? Wel, to be frankly honest, the mood was abit choosey lately. It follows my situations ? Its random ? Where sometimes bagi sasak jua ? Sometimes bagi mental jua ? Sometimes bagi banci ? How i know, cause thats what i exactly felt ? 

But yet.. No laah.. Im not that stupid enough to do all those stupid things like i used do before ? Like, being high and dont wanna think in a normal ways ? But, as i wish for this october, i wanna think more mature enough ? And alhamdulillah, im done reading another chapter of John C. Maxwell's book called, Ujilah Impian Anda, or Challenge your dreams.

It was quit good. It motivates me.. And talking about motivates, ive learned a new word today that i got from twitter on #gemini's tweets. The word, cynical. It means, you motivates others while you being demotivated ? Haah.. Sudah di baca banar banar, mcm banar tia jua ? Pacaaah! And yes.. I think i need my motivationals' input ? Soooo bad!

Back to my story, my day was soo fine, just that i realized that ive been dealing with the libra-ians ? Haah.. I somehow realized its their season now ? And to you who birthday just few days back, again i wanna say happy belated birthday, and may Allah bless you to the fullest with your beloved adorable son! Hee. 

And for you who birthday tomorrow, here i wanna say happy advance again! And im hoping sampai to bring you out for a movie session ? In sha Allah.. 

Hee. Cute much! Im hoping you guys reading this ? And again, may Allah bless you guys. Hee.

But not just that happen, but something good happend jua. Something that creat smile on my face. Which is i noticed that there someone out there who really are looks like you ? My God! Or Subbahan Allah! Its really shocking much ? Hahahah. Eventho i was just acting cool to you ? But, no.. Im amazed! 😍😍😍

How awesome is that ? Ohh, as i mentioned, "This remind me of you!" Lol.. Eventho its not me who finds it by myself, but still ? Antam saja tia labu ~ hahaha. 

Wel, i think till here dulu then.. Its almost waktu jua. I need to shower and get ready for my prayer. To all, selamat menunaikan solat subuh! Cheers! 😁😁

Not over you.

Dreams, that's where I have to go 

To see your beautiful face anymore 

I stare at a picture of you and listen to the radio 

Hope, hope there's a conversation 

We both admit we had it good 

But until then it's alienation, I know 

That much is understood 

And I realize 

[Chorus:] 

If you ask me how I'm doing 

I would say I'm doing just fine 

I would lie and say that you're not on my mind 

But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two 

And finally I'm forced to face the truth, 

No matter what I say 

I'm not over you, not over you 

Damn, damn girl, you do it well 

And I thought you were innocent 

Took this heart and put it through hell 

But still you're magnificent 

I, I'm a boomerang, doesn't matter how you throw me 

I turn around and I'm back in the game 

Even better than the old me 

But I'm not even close without you 

[Chorus:] 

If you ask me how I'm doing 

I would say I'm doing just fine 

I would lie and say that you're not on my mind 

But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two 

And finally I'm forced to face the truth, 

No matter what I say I'm not over you 

And if I had the chance to renew 

You know there isn't a thing I wouldn't do 

I could get back on the right track 

But only if you'd be convinced 

So until then... 

[Chorus:] 

If you ask me how I'm doing 

I would say I'm doing just fine 

I would lie and say that you're not on my mind 

But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two 

And finally I'm forced to face the truth, 

No matter what I say I'm not over you 

Not over you

Not over you

Not over you

Shit happen!

Wel, first of all.. Sorry to all that i dint blog for an ages due to busy-ness and building my business. 

Things happend, shit happens. Good, bad, happy, sad.. It happened in my life. But, now.. I think i should just stick with this one babe instead ? Tired of being fuct up all the time.

But, thats the thing.. I learned alot! Alot much more how to handle life i guess ? Its just things happen unexpectedly ? But yet.. I only can accept it if its worth it for me ? 

But yet.. Alot need to be fixed in me somehow.. Not just them, but me ? I who needs to be right first.

Wel, no promise.. But i will post things that i did here if i got the time. In sha Allah.. 

Last but not least, here i wanna post some picture along my post. 😊

Have a great day everyone! Cheers! 😁

being random.

its been awhile rasanya inda blogging sudah. So, here.. Let me being random.

I somehow cant sleep. And i just done watching the lion king 1, 2, and 3. Stright.. What i learned the most frm that movie, always have the "Hakuna Matata" feelings. Hee.

And honestly, i miss my baby right now. So bad.. It feels different when last time shes sleeping over and now shes not. I felt missing.. I miss her so much! Shes all i need. What i miss the most is, her cook! The special hot spicy honey black papper chicken. Hee. *sesiapun.

Shes coming over later afternoon. And idkw, i cant wait to see her! Shes my everything.. My one and only baby.

Eventho we're new, but it feels like we're been ages already. Thats maybe because she used to be my friend. Oh, thats the very moment when anything happend has it own reasons. And the reason is always been given by God. And i thankful for that everyday. Alhamdullilah..

Anything happen, just choose to be happy.

End.

our first monthsarry.

its 21st today. And its our first monthsarry being together. Alhamdulillah..

Yes, we've been together since 21st Dec, 2011. 21st is the special number to me. Im in a 21 organisations. And yes, 2112 is something special. 02/01/12, we went to miri sama sama. Its just, alhamdulillah.. I really thank God.

Our loves, we involves our families along. And their positives. I even slept over at her place. Shes even slept over my place. With the families knowing, i felt blessed. Learning frm my mistakes. Yes..

We make it different this time. More plans for the future, its just awesome. Shes special. My family loves her.

She even make conversations with the parents, with the brothers, the sisters. Wow.. Im happy! Alhamdulillah..

Facing life together, doing things together. Shes my everything. Wel, i maybe said this before, but honestly, shes different. Im not comparing, but yet, thats just the fact. I want her to be my 'halal'.

My place is her home as well. Not just house for stoping by, but home. I accept her, and the family accept her too. I thank God, that God send her to me. Not just to me, but my life.

We shared everythings like we used to do. Choosing to be happy. And what else is her family accept me for who i am. Bapa, mami, nini bini, nini laki, her brothers, her cousins, her friends, even her bungsu. Alhamdulillah..

The business that we're doing is really are make everyone around us positives. Even my business partner says that, we are perfect for each other. Not just one person who said that, but many. They appreciate us.. Alhamdulillah..

Seriously, she make things different. When she came to my life, everythings great. Everyones happy. And we wanna maintain this. With God's willing.

We both knows our own limitations and we both knows we can face this peacefully. Cause we're in this together, whatever it takes. Melancholy Choleric, should be alright. She knows where shes heading. Same personalities, that makes us perfections. Not just us, but people around us whos saying that. And we both believe that. Alhamdulillah..

Somehow, i just wanna say, "Happy First Monthsarry" to us dear baby! May God always bless our relations til He stop us frm living. Amin, Alhamdulillah..

Til here guys, and selamat menunaikan fardhu subuh. Cheers.. <3 :)

we meet again.

i just wanna share here how happy i am with my baby. Shes awesome. Same personality, same love langguages, and understanding. Which shes my everything to me. Everyone was shocked when i said, i knew her since i was in frm 4. Yes, we used to be friends. But, only friends who shared everything. She always find a way to find me. Wherever i go. Thats her before.

Last year, when my relations with my ex is complicated, where the moment she asked me to move on, thats when i started to pray to God, and asking Him, how i wish i could find someone who knows me for who i am. Then, few nights before im going to Jakarta, i was out with friends. Idk, somehow, i wanna pee. We stop by at Centre Point, Gadong. And there, i meet someone. Shes my long lost friend. As usual, applying people skills and asking for her number. God sent her to me. Plus, i got new name list.

After i got back frm Jakarta, the night before TPS, she misscalled me. I was shocked. Cause the next day i should call her. Then, we texting and meeting up. On that night jua, im applying what ive read, and yeah, knowing everything. And finds out that shes also had a broken relationship. So we shared everything, and i learned alot frm her. Mostly my mistakes towards my ex. Im awaken by her. But, Alhamdulillah. She accept me for who i am.

The next day, we meet again. TPS, i bring her along. That night where i introduced her to my siblings. To my sister, abng and my little sister. After that i started to know her desire. She opened up everything to me. Again, i learned something frm her. I thank God that God send her to me.

The next day, we meet up again. But this time, i bring my little sister along. We had fun. Knowing each other. Sharing everythings. And that night, i felt something. Something about her. Mostly the time i send her bck home. Everysince that, i felt something missing. Cause that night, she took away my heart.

After we meet up again, i started to forget all my past. I only sees the future everytime shes around me.

How and when we're together, will post it sooner. Til here then. Cheers..

Lets get better life.

so, since i couldnt sleep, i wanna post. Just wanna share something good. Hopefully its good.

Please do agree with me that, no one is perfect is this world, and every make their own mistakes. More crazy is, some of them thinks that their good enough to be perfect. But yet, their thinking is still inside the box. Still poor mindset.

What i mean here, is that, everyone one of us has their own potential. But everyone just afraid to use it well. Everyone knows that their too good for themselves. But, still thinks that their so bad. Everything is in our mind.

Let me share what i know about mindset. Our mind is very powerfull among all of our body parts. Why so ? Cause every happens is happend in our mind already. How i know this ? Frm all books that i read says the same thing about mind. Its begin with the end in mind.

Thats why we need to feed our mind like we feed our tummy. I bet, everyone of us, like to eat good stuffs, and also nyummy foods. Who doesnt, right ? But, when it comes to mind, why some of us didnt try to feed our mind with some good stuffs too ? Like example, positive words.

Being positive minded is the begining to have positive life. Once we read or listen to positive, our life turns to positive. Being positive is always special. Not just to us, but people around us. Cause everyone couldnt make others to be positive, but everyone of us could make themselves positive instead.

In a book says this, who you becoming is to whom you listen to. If we listen to negative, we'll be one of it. But, if we listen to positive, we'll be better and better. And i believe in that. Cause, even all successfull people in the world, they listen to audio cds. Just to protect their mind.

Theres also another way to protect our mind is by reading motivational books. Theres alot of great books that can improve our self development. We who need to change first, then people around us will change as well.

Another best way to protect our mind is the places where we should be. The environment. Where we should be to protect our mind is at the positive environment. Who we're hangging out with. Who we're dealing with. We also needs to know and understand people. Applying and sharing ideas with other people. Cause, actions cure fear.

The conclusion is, we need to be simple and easy to duplicate. Thats just the great life who everyone dreams of.

I'm maybe wrong, but no one is always right. and im still learning how to guide my own life. And i always put God in me, so that no one can stop our way. Let God guide us with our prayers.

"Change your thinking, change your life."

end.

the morning lights.

its early in the morning now. But yet, i couldnt sleep. Which i dont know why ? Hmm..

Somehow, let me shared my day yesterday. I wokeup early yesterday. Kononnya kn bgnkn my baby since her first day of being employee. But yet, terbalik. Ya pulang yang wakes me. Haah.. She called me and saying sorry. Aiyo.. Its all good baby.

Was planned kn jogging and after that joining daddy mengejar impian. But, since i slept late malamnya, i spent my day in my room saja. Tidur.. ;s thats bad! I know..

Then, by 1ish to 2pm, i wokeup cause my baby texted me. Tot shes busy with her work, but then inda. Pagi saja. So, she texted me kn jumpa. Since shes on ride. So, i woke up and grabbed my lunch. Melayan udang ~ hahah.

Then, few mins after that she came to my place along with her older brother and her close cousin. So, we hang around for awhile and knowing each other. Then, since shes in a hurry, around ptg-ish, i forgot what time, my baby jalan tia with them.

Then since malamnya infonite, im getting ready awal and done with my asar and magrib. By 7pm, me and the parents, went to kiulap. Then my baby came.

Infonite last nite was great. More knowledge and more information. Alhamdulillah..

Once everything done, we all went back home. Abng came, then tunang kaka came, then kaka and si princess dtg. Since sorg sorg lapar, mummy prepared foods for our late dinner satu family. I feel blessed that everyone was there. The parents, abng, kaka and her fiance, me and my baby and si princess. We eat together, shared some stuff. And funny things that, the parents tot my baby's sleeping over the night. But too bad she couldnt. Even kaka asked her to sleep over. But she has things to do this morning.

After everythings done, i sent her back home to her place. And all the way she hugs me. I felt so blessed to be with my baby. Alhamdulillah..

Enough said, will post again sooner. Cheers! :) end.

You and I, both.

okeh, blogger! Since its 2012 now, here i wanna say,

"HAPPY NEW YEAR !!" ;D

i know that im late for 3days ? But, who cares ? Haah..

Can't deny that i was beeeeing busy with love ones. But, alhamdulillah.. I did celebrated my new year with her family. And i was great!! What make it interesting was, during the new year night, ada doa selamat for her parents anniversarry, and my baby blackmailed me by asking me to baca doa selamat. Wow.. Thats soooo new to me! And the parents even supported her daughter to ask me baca doa selamat. Seriously ? In front of bapa, mummy, nini laki, nini bini, the brother and his wife and her little brothers ? I was nervous!! ;s but, alhamdulillah.. Ive made it with the help of Iqbal. Wahh.. I really falling inlove. Not just with my baby, but her family. They accept me with an open heart. Alhamdulillah.. Seriously, i never felt this way before. Been accepted for who i am. I really thank God.. Alhamdulillah.. :')

To be honest, i learned from my mistake and now its time for me to make things right. God send her to me. And i appreciate that. You knew that..

21 is always been a special number. What make it special, the person im with. The kind heart person who also had desire and willing to change. Just.. We're heading on the same direction, with full of limitation, to get our satisfaction, for being perfection. Thats just who we are. <3

and we both understand that, we couldnt change the past, and past, stays in the past. We just accept it and willing to face the better. Better for the future. Alhamdulillah..

And yesterday afternoon, we had a trip to Miri. And it was great! First time, had a very long trip with love one. Its really different and cant wait bulan 3, to go Jakarta sama sama. ;D

wel, mun kan dishare panjang pulang lgi nie, but i get enough til here dulu.

"We're moving to fast, just to forget our past."

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She's my new chapter.

its been awhile sudah i dint post anything here. But now, i think i wanna share the happy moment i ever had! :D

so, right now.. Im inlove with someone who used to be my friend. Who she is, will tell the whole world sooner or later. Harap besabar. ;p

wel, what ever happend between us is that, she trusted me frm the begin sudah. Way back to my zaman sekolah. She always came to me and shared everything to me. We even pernah lunch together. Gila, lama brabis wah sudah tu. But yet, that time, shes just a friend to me. Just a friend..

Since she once shared everything to me before, now shes my everything. And alhamdulillah, she accept my past, she accept everything that i do, and what i did. She dint even hide things behind my back. Im happy.. With the same personalities, choleric melancholy, makes me.. Wow! Simple say, she knows whats on my mind, and i know whats on her mind. Nyaman laah, capat bepkir, inda slow inda lagging. And, always have this choleric kind of commitment for the future. They said, shes my perfections, and i said, shes my everything. <3

and what greatest thing ever happend again, my families love her. She loves my family.. She talked with them. She talked to daddy. Wel, choleric and choleric. She promoted herself to mummy. She even talked about the future with abng. And crazy things lagi, shes rapat with my both sisters! Mostly kaka.. Kaka loves her. Kaka gaves her many things and also happiness. I really thank God. Alhamdulillah..

Seriously, i learned frm my mistakes. I always thank God for what ever happend to me. Alhamdulillah..

"Part of the deal, that makes you stronger." - Her.

End dulu. Cause, shes on her way to pick me up.. Need to get ready. ;p cheers!

while waiting.

now that im waiting for my business partner to fetch me up, i rather blog and share little things frm yesterday.

Yesterday was great. What ungreatful is, aku inda jdi turun tutong. Ada masalah.. But yet, the problem is not the problem, but the problem is how we gonna solve it. Then, i find my way how to solve things out.

Then by 11ish to 12, i bring my sister out and terus jumpa a good friend of mine. Shes awesome! And yet, she makes me sadar. And i owe her everything! I thank you for everything.

Nah, what happend is, the rain dint stop at all.. My glasses lgi tinggal arh friend's place. And yet, kabur mata bejln time hujan ani. Aiyaah.. But yet, show must go on.

While waiting, we hang out for awhile, until adaa. Hahah. Then, we take a flight and fly.. I was.. Wanting to know her back. Since kami lost contact before. And slowly, we did know each other. I once let her meet my siblings. I just wanna make something different this time. Since before, i did my mistake, now im learning. And yet, theres always a limitations for me this time.

Cause the way she expressed her feelings, makes me wonder and makes me thinks that my ex is the one who cakapi me. I just wish you did before and make me knows all the pain you've been gone thro. Yet, everything has change. And everyone deserve a better one.

Building relations with her and fiffy makes me comfortable. Since she once said, i like your sister, cause i dont have one. But, seriously.. Now you do. :)

and so, still im waiting. And the discussion started at 8pm. Now is almost 7.30pm. Kn ke kulapis lgi. Wahh.. Alhamdulilah. The business is growing there. I somehow, thank God for whatever happend to me. Alhamdulillah..

End.

been answered..

i just done my one chapter reading and now, im about to sleep. But, all of a sudden, i feel like wanna share my day.

So, yesterday i wokeup at 1ish afternoon. I was sleeping over the night at my friend's place. Bangun, terus mandi, then lunch. After that, i startup them since both them (my business partner) belum bestartup.

Then by 3ish, we send someone home, then had to pickup someone in Tanjong Nangka and di Senkurong. Then, had to pick up someond di Tasek Meradun. After that, singgah my place to drop my stuffs.

Then we went to The Mall, Gadong. Kononnya kn prospecting. But, something bad happend. Then, i met her sister. Cerita cerita, since to me, her siblings is like my own siblings too. Then, ive made up my mind just to stay at Chill. Cause, again i dont wanna ruined her day with the friends. Then, i choose just to go home. And yet, i saw shes avoiding me too. Its all good. Might understand.

Then, reached home, i decided to invite some friends to infonite since that night ada infonite. And yeah, alhamdulillah.. Atleast, i can bring one of my friend. Thank you, God. Hope, God opened his heart to fight for whats right for his family.

Infonite, was great. I managed to learn something. Alhamdulillah.. And i also, have the chance to meet new people. New friends that also a dreamer.

Then, after infonite, i follow my business partner to send our group back home. Send off to Rimba, Tungku and Tasek Meradun. Wah, atleast in the car i managed to build some relations with them by listening to some cds. Alhamdulillah..

Masa on my way to Tungku, theres an old friend contacting me. Since i havent meet her for an ages, we planned to meet up. But, before that, i was so sleepy. Since its late. But, once i reached home, i took my mentor advice, mun sleepy, tpi ada appointment, tarus bwa mandi air sajuk, and i did that. I was shaking like hell.. But, dreams catch me.

Then, we meet up and i thank God that we meet up again. Shared ideas, and build back relations. And she treat me makan. Thank you Allah di atas rezekiMu, and thanks to you babe. :D really appreciate the night.

Since the time ticks to 12am, 14th is appreared on my phone. But, since she also just brokeup with her boyfriend, we shared problems and letting all out. And since we got the same situations, all of a sudden, i learned something, and it makes me realized how hurt she is and how in pain my ex was.

The way she mentioned how her boyfriend was makes me understand how stupid i was. How stupid i was dint fight and win back her heart. My friend makes it clear how my ex dint want me back just by her expressions. Now i know, how she dont want me back. By seeing how sad my friend was makes me understand what my ex's sister told me yesterday. And all i can say, from the bottom of my heart, i honestly am sorry for what i did, dear ex girlfriend. :']

by seeing my friend tdi, makes me learned alot. I thank God that i meet you, dear friend. You makes me sadar.. :') and i thank God, i finally given the answer. Alhamdulillah.. And i made my promise, i wont gonna bother your life anymore. Now that i couldnt hold our broken promises that i, myself breaks it. I was still trying to fix it, by fixing myself first. But now, everything is clear. Its time to move on as she always want me to. I try, whatever it takes. :')

"Its time for me to move on, and focus on whats next." - Ayunni Syazwani.

End.

Alhamdulillah, thank you..

Alhamdulillah.. Everything make sense now. I wanna thank God for giving me the chance to learn something di 15planner. Thank you, God. Nothing much to post, just that, i think i need to remove everything that unimportant to me already. And always do things that make me closer to my dreams. And my dreams, i wanna be a champion for my family, and having a quality time with them. - end.

when i go bla bla blaaa!

okeh, thats just great. Alhamdulillah.. Atleast God giving me chance to show me that person who i miss. So, yeahh.. Atleast, kurang jua lah sikit rasa rindu. Wasehh ~

but yeahh.. That was really unexpected.

Somehow, i choose to run away.. Why so ? Cause, i dont wanna ruined her night having fun with her friends. So, yeahh..

What am i saying here ? :s im lost.. Antah! Inda ku tau lgi.. Damn eh..

WIRAAAAA!!! STOP IT!! FOCUS!!

Hiking esuk pagi saja memblast! Titik.. And 15planner will be much better this time. .

I promise myself that, Im better tomorrow than i am today.

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