my sweetest drugs !

yess, shes my drugs. come on ?!! how can i not fall for this girl ?? i am so inlove with this chicaa. hee. my baaby boo. nyehs ! syangg, this is for youu. err.. and the pictures, i curi-ed hoo. and i pick the perfect 3. :D ohh, i miss youuuuuuu syangg !! and guys, again i annoying-ly say this, i love this babe so muchh ! hee. god's willing, shes gonna be my last, but not my past. insha-god. hee. no promises, but still.. im dying for yaa love, sweetie. ;D i is love youuu, manggo ! titik. ;)

silent jealousy.

heey, and goodmorning all. today is tuesday, and now im wide awake since last night. and the bad news is, im working awal anii. now, sobering at the office. erkhh ! i hate this situations. nyehs..

anyhow, here i wanna tell how jealous i was yesterday when i stalked someone's friendster. andd yeahh, i also cant believe it that i read all 300ish comment or testii should i say ? and yeahh.. jealousy, attacking me, like, indaa berantii. how to stop it ? i dint think muchh about it, and pass is pass ?? but, still.. im just shocked muchh to find that craps. ;'/

and so, my whole yesterday after lunchh, was stuck with reading thoes testimonials. :/ and so, i was planning to balik awal, which, i endup with full of jealousy ? hate that ! and so, after works, i went to the bank, and blik rumahh. then, i went to gudang to buy some stuff. was out with fiffy. andd, blik rumahh, i was chitchat with my lovelife. and i endup, tetidur ?! peluii muchh. was unsober juaa. so, i slept finally.

then, i woke up at 9ish or 11ishh klii, not sure, then i went out to get some foods. which i try to contact my baaby, but i couldnt. running out of crdts. so, i took my shower, and bring fiffy's along with me. and so, i went to gedong, the bought some foods and terus blik. eat and all, and i endup watching dvds. bruthh i felt unjealous. shit muchh. eventho, i keeep on wondering on something, but, still only god knows better. *sigh.

then i keep on highing until the time ticks to 7 in the morning. so, i took my shower and filled me up with some coffee. then, im high myself to the office. sampaii office, menyober tiaaaa. damn ! seriously, its stuck still on my mind about that things that i finds out. its just shocking muchh.. ;( i dont know what to do sebenarnyaa ?! ;( should i that ? should i this ? again, i hate choices !! its killing meeee ! ;'(( nyehs, enough said ! have a good morning all. ;')

Saturday night out.

Yesterday, i wokeup late and again i missed going to work. Err.. Rain is the blame again ? Why so ? Pasal, its so nyaman ? Like, very the nyamann berabis rabisly ?! Dont believe me ? Youu guys should try it.. Asal sjaa hujan, make sure youre sleepy enough to join me. Hee.

Ohh, anyhow.. Yes, i wokeup late, and yes, i was hungry and and, i heard iman's voice from the outside. Since i miss her soooo muchh, so i rushed went out and yes, iman syakeera was there ! Ohh, my lovelove ! Hee. So, i hang around withh iman sadjaa. Even when i went to my room, iman was following me. And yes, lepak kmi diblik. Hahah. And watching dvd. And scorpian king was on.. Hahah. Lol.

Then, fiffy came in. Since im wearing my baby's used to be sport uniform, got her name on it, then iman was spelling it. And kiuuuuuuut muchh when she said, "wane !" hee. I like.. ;p

then, i went out and having some food, where iman's sitting next to me. And ikut makan punn. Heheh. Blabihh ! But, soon after that, iman blik tiaa.. ;(

then, bb tegured me di online, asking where am i and all. Then, since i got no planned, fiffy asked me to send her to gdg. So, i did. Since sii jubur texted me that shes in gdg as well. Samaa milaa lgii tuu.. Mcm, iskii kuu kn jumpaa drng, but but.. Kecundangg ! Indaa kejumpaan. And, theres other reason for that actually. *kn jubs ? ;p

and so, gdg.. Meeting bb and awang. And bb's chick. And them adek eqah, shanana, naa ahmad and them them. Hee. Seriously, adek eqahh is being *tut* to meh.. Ohh, that kid really.. Erkhh ! *gigitan.. Belabihh muchh ! But, dont sweat, she knows that i love youu.. *kn eqq ? ;) then, mengamahh di gdg until the clock ticks to 10ishh ke 11. Then we went to qlap mall.

And yeahh.. Since sii jubur liat movie, kmi gatal hati tiaa juaa kn liat movie. Mostly me ! Hahah. Then, yeahh.. Our movie started at 12. So, sempat lgii kmi makan di mamihh.. Nyehs.. And yeahh.. Movie ! We were watching shrek. And damn ! Pacahh waa ketawaakuu ! Hahah. Siuk waa melayann. Sii awang nyaman ketawaanyaa. ;)

then, around 1ishh to 2 klii, we bounced home. :) plus, i got latenight date. Hee. And yeahh, latenight date was great ! ;D why i said so.. ? Cause, bolehh melapas rinduu should i say ? Cehh ~ jiwang ! Hahah. But, its nyaman to be close with someone youu love. ;D touching their faces. Youu felt, calm should i say ? Hee. Aww.. *kangen sudahh tiaa kn sii baby manggo. ;p

when its done everything.. I endup still wide open.. And and, its soon to be noon ? And i havent sleep yet ? Krg lgii i got plan to do. Nyehs.. I think i should take my short sleep for awhile. So, til here thh duluu then. Hee. Morningg everyone, and have a great sunday !! Cheerious ! ;);)

missing.

damnn ! akuu di office awal aniiii. andd im like, sooooo borengg sekalii. but somehow, im happy.. plus, abit sleepy-ishh. nyehs ! again withh stay up late till awal anii ? boo me !

anyhow.. i was doing nothing actually. so, i went thro me emails. and theres a birth's reminder from friendster. FRIENDSTER ?? i know right.. lamaa waa sudahh i dint open my friendster. so, i opened it andd yeahh.. damn, it reminds me the good old times..

macam, banyak comment indaa tereply.. like, last year pnyaa comments ? hahh ! but thenn, i was tertanya tanyaa.. cehh ~ hahah. but yeahh.. i was tertanya tanyaa, hows my photos yang dulu duluu tuu aaa.. and yeahh, i checked it. andddd gilaaaa mann !!! rambut kuu time panjanggggg !!! andd i miss my LONG hair !! so muchhhhhh !! HAHAHAH ! gilaa, tpii bnrr yaw.. i miss ituu long hair. nyehs ! *sasak sii jubur ! ;P

and sekalii kann, theres a picture of 3 soul mates yangg kalauu betamuu confirmed begagar gadongg. HAHAH ! whichh, the picture was taken lama lamaa sudahh berabisrabis. andd yeahh.. ituu doods, are used to be bestbitchh masaa emolanyaa. nyehs ! but somehow, to me.. they are still in me. why so ? cause, all things that i did with them, its so muchh memories. cant be dilupakann. cries, laughs, happy, sad.. etc, etc, etc..

and yeahh.. this is the picture. always be remembered ! ;')



eventho, theres so muchh changes sudahh.. but, yeahh.. i miss youu guys so muchh actually. how i wishh we could hang around sometimes. athh, kash.. i miss kamuu. i really miss to get wasted with youu guys. but, then i know.. alot of thing has changed us. but, yeahh.. i promise, we will hang around one day. i will make it happen if theres any god's willing. :')

sekalii kannn ! talking pasal miss miss aniii, it makes me miss someone who really makes me weak, strong, happy, sad, kan melumpat, kan menangis, kan betiarap, kan menyanyii, kann kann kann segalaanyaa in one ! who is she ? my baablove. ;D i miss her so muccccchy ! hee. everytime shes not around me, i'll be missing her like crazieee to the maximum ?! cehh ~ heheh. pokoknyaa, i am so inlove with this chicaa. hee. *baaaaaaby, i love youu ! ;D

*woi wiraa, blogging blogging juaa ! macam apaa ! HAHAH ! will blog lagii soon. and, insha-god if theres nothing menghalang. hee. wel, i think till here thh sjaa duluu thenn. hee. people, good morning ! have a great wednesday ! cheerious ! :D:D

I always needed youu in me.

People know that, in life, we always wanted someone or two just to make us happy or listen or whatever to make ourself comfortable. In other way, nyaman should i say ? Wel, yes.. So that, tni besemangat semulaa and all laa.. Am i right ? So that, we wont be sad, or un-happy or what.. And thats why terciptaanyaa kawan, friends and buddies. But, in that matters, we also depands on what type of friends we were having and listen to right ? Munn yang, bad, tentuu thh bad juaa tuu. If its good, then, good laa juaa.. Duhh ~

so, here.. I wanna shared about someone that i just realized that, without her, i would be lost to my dark world. Her ? Yes, shes a girl and i neeed her in my life. Eventho, i dont know her that well yet. But, yeahh.. Shes the one who i shared my everything withh. People would says, shes my kekasih gelap laa, my ttm laa, apaa laa.. But, no.. Shes my bestfriend. And her name is Aqezzah. I used to call her sii jubur, or jubs. Hee. But, yeahh.. I realized tdi that, i really neeed her in my life. But, dont get me wrongg.. I have my baabyy. And she got her own baaby as well. But, yes.. Eventho, we bothh have partner sudahh, we bothh still needed eachh other. Benar.. Thats what i realized tdii.

Its started like this, its been awhile i dint meet her, until tdii. And i seriously do misses her when ever shes not around. But, doesnt mean i dint love my babyy right ? *syangg, iloveyouu.. Dont worry. :') anyhow, my love to her is, antahh aaa.. Words cant describes. Pokoknyaa, i syangg sii jubskuu. *smiles.

And yeahh, we meet and we did alot of talking.. Everything that we missed together. Bla, blaa, blaaa.. Until we're dealing withh tears. Seriously, jubs.. I easily melts everytime i saw a girl cries infront of me. So, yeahh.. But, sii jubs.. Lain ho.. Touches to my heart brabis. Mcm, menyucuk nyucuk jarum di jantung.. Cehh ~ over ! But, thats the truth laa. Shes the one who guide me for everythings that good for me. And yes, yang bad bhapaa kn ? Bancii yaa plng tuu. She hates me when im not being myself. And im sorry jubs. I know it hurts youu.. But, she understand me better. And thanks for that. :')

seriously, i appreciate muchh to know youu, aqezzah. And appreciate for accept me for who i am. And appreciate to know your life.. And thanks muchh for sudii listening to me. And damn, now i know, hows my life when youre not around me. Youu know i love youu. Yes, loves.. Bestfriend ! :'D

seriously jubs, i feels like posting about youu. And i will post about " a unknown girl that i ever admired before which endup being my super duper bestfriend ! " Hee. With god's willing, i will post about her, how, when and where do i meet this girl. And her words that i hardly to forget is, the words she said to me, ' indaa kira apaa, " akuu terima kauu apaa adaanyaa wirr ! " ' :') thanks, jubs. And actually, theres alot to post, but memandangkn, my eyes are to sexy to sleep sudahh, so, yeahh.. Til here then. Morning to those who wokeup early and sleep well to all batmans and womans. Hee. Cheerious ! :)

Facebook jahat.

Fb jahat ? Siapaa agreeee ? Wel, why its jahat.. Okehh, once again, here i wanna say that, once tni becintaa, youu know.. In a realationship ! Ofcause we protect our loveones kn ? Mcm, we neeeeed to know, siapaa dgnnyaa bewall, becontact, beinbox and shit.. Its not a must pulang mencheck atuu.. But, yatahh tuu baa.. Feelings tni yang indaa nyaman rasaa. Belum trust 100%. Wel, tantuu laa kn ? Why cematuu, main answer, pasal we love, sayang, cintaa, dan lain lain. Hahah.

But, yeahh.. It happend to me before.. Check check, sanggup lgii sampai dalam dalam tuu, siapaa duluu dgnnyaa contact and all.. Then, as i said, apaa yang tni buat, munn yaa baik, tni akan menerimaa yang baikkn ? If its not, then indaa thh baik tuu.. So, yeahh.. My babyy did stalked my fb and all.. And that time ngam i was berinbox withh some friends.. And this friends is girls.. Then, jealousy started to membiak tiaa kn ? So, yeahh.. Again the answer cause she loves me..

But then, if dipkir pkir kn, mcm yaa indaa bercontact withh guys kn ? But, to me, jealous tuu, tantuu laa.. Pasal, sayangg kn ? But then, as ive been kena ajar, try to think it positif. So, i would think that, kwn sjaa punn ituu.. Tpi dalam hati mcm volcano sudahh latup latup. But, yeahh.. Dugaan. Mcm, it supposed, im the one yg jealous and all right ? But, yeahh.. Maybe the different is, akuu berinbox, but yaa opened.. But, munn di pkirpkir, still contacting right ? But, yeahh.. Not an issue plng laa aaa.. I do understand with the name friends.. But, bab bab nyaa over, yatahh membrikn meremove tuu. But, yeahh.. Chills.

Then, yatahtuu baa.. What my point here is. Pasal facebook punn buleh berissue waa. If youu dont trust me, youu may try and youu will know what im trying to tell here. Hahah. Alaii baa merasaa sudahh.. Cehh ~ hahah.

Tpi, yang bnrnyaa.. Kalauu di buat dgn baik, insya-god everything turns well plngg.. But, to me.. And to some of us would say, yes, facebook jahat.. Nyehs.. Hahah. So, yeahh.. For the time being, my fb wont be active, untill.. Idk.. Hee. Depands on my babyy. Kn love ? Hee. Woi, where are youu ? Alum abis revision nyaa anii ? Batahh i nungguu. Siap mempost ceritaa di blog. Hahah. Imissyouu already. Contact me thh.. Lakas lakas.. Hee. Bh, bhh.. Till here duluu, nights all.. :D

Because, iloveyouu ..

Love ? Everyone knows that love is the sweetest sins on earth. It can be alots of beauty insides too. But, yeahh.. Some would say they would die for it.. Hemm.. What are they insane ? Sangup mati ? Hahah. It sounds like.. Desperate waa tuu.. Sampai mati atuu.. But, how they die ? Thats the thing right ? Why they died ?

Here i wanna share abit what happend to me last few days.. I nearly die i guess.. Idk.. But, thats what i cann think of. Just because of someone that i love the most. Youu know how it feels to have someone that youu care about. Someone that youu love. And someone that youu love atuu, not being who she used to be. Like, too muchh believes in her jealousy. Eventho, she dint really clears about what happend ? Yg jenis trus trus kn explode. Whichh i know whats the reason. The reason is because she loves me.

See, thats the thing.. Mcm, whatever she did is nothing wrong actually. Im not blaming, its just that. Idk.. Confusing muchh ? Dont know what to do and all. Mcm, tni plng bangang and being kusut.. Antahh aa.. Pokoknyaa, words cant describes shit.. So, yeahh.. I believe, some of youu guys know how it feels right ? So, iatahh udahh tuu. I felt last few days.

Which i endup different this time. I endup, mengakaii harimauu ! Nyehs.. I was so fcut up. And i drank few tins. And, yeahh.. Im not me when i meet her. So, yeahh.. Why would we hide frm being whn we are right ? See my true colour. Apaa adaa kn tapuk tapuk ? Being ourself is the more honest and better should i say ?

Once reached home, i was on someting. And damn, i only remember that, i cannt move. I was laying on my bed, and so fcut up muchh. Only her cann describe me that time. I cant even felt anything sudahh.. And i realized that i almost dont feels myself sudahh.. Until, i cann hear some whisper on my ear. Saying, "im sorry.. Im sorry.. " and i even cann feels her touches.. :') and she did calmed me down.

And since that shit happend, i realized that, i would die for that girl. The girl that i love the most. And yet, i still dont know her that wel, but im still wanna know her deep and deeper. Yes, syangg ! I wanna know who youu are. I wanna know the girl that i love. I want her as my parents want me to be.

I even know, some people would say that, better becintaa withh someone youu know lamaa tiaa apaa.. But, hey.. Its me who falling here. So, its my future that im heading. So, what ? Just, let me be happy. I deserved that.. I wanna be happy. And i love her so muchh. I love that girl. I love her.. I love, ikramin iwani. So muchh.. Syangg, iloveyouu.. :')

so, yeahh.. To couples, please do understand your partner well. And honest. And remember.. Once your not being honest, than thats when shit happens against youu. So, yeahh.. Like a song says, " what goes around, comes around. " -end.