happy birthday !

just wanna wishh youu HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Nadirah Nordin. may god bless youu and always do take care. hee. be happy and success in live. and im sorry if i ever pernahh buat salah to youu. im sorry. :')


p/s; sorry, ndaa chocolates involved lagii. hee. :P happy birthday. :):)

my dad is my hero. x')

first of all, i would like to say im sorry dad. i dint meant to hurts youu. its just that, i dont like when youre acting on your on ways. it hurts me alot. i know its difficult for me to say this. actually, i do love youu for the rest of my heart, dad. without youu, im nothing. eventho we're not that sekepala, but all i even wanted is just youu being a father and me being your son. i just need to be loved by youu. thats gonna be enough for me. i know i did alots of mistakes sudahh. i know it hurts youu. eventho youu dont know why im being stressfull enough. atuu punn sebenarnyaa, its because of youu dad. i had to admit it.

it hurts me when youu get hurt. seriously, everytime im alone in my room, i did think how to solve your problems. how to clear your dept. i even cried. youu dont know that. i cried inside. eventho youu had to pay your dept, but youu still can lend me some money. i know its so muchh pengorbanan. and it can cause youu and mum had a small fight thinking about money. but, i promise youu this dad. one day, withh my business i had, i will clear your dept. i will prove to youu that i can. i know that i can prove nothing now, but one day i will. eventho i had enough buat youu maluu and stressfull. masaa i was in school and till im here now alive. i know i always menyusahkan youu dad. and, here i wanna say again im sorry for many reason.

i know that i dint make youu proud of your son. i know that. but, being a father like youu, i always admire youu because youu can still accept me as your son. youu can still do anything for me. eventho im the one who indaa peduli langsung. i love youu dad, i always do. youu are my hero. and i promise youu, i will be your hero one day. that i can promise youu. and all i ever dream of is that, i want us to be happy like we were before. walaupun i dint success in my education, which i know youu hate me for being that. but i prove youu wrong, i will success in life. i promise..

one day, i will make youu proud. i want youu to be on top semulaa. like youu used to be before. i just want youu to be my only hero in my life. no used if i just let my tears falling down without i do the things. so, i will and i will do anything to make youu happy. and i will create a smile on your face, agaun ! that i promise youu, daddy. i love youu, H.M. Julaihi.

i'm sorrry ! :)

wow.. when i read back my posted, macam semuaa thh kann nigatip gnyaa. wel, here i wanted so say, i'm sorry for being maybe rude and all. sorry much ! youu know.. people with feelings. anything cann happend. aiyoo.. kurang bacaa bukuu tuu ertinyaa. anyhow, here again i make it out loud, I'M SOOOOOOORRY ! titik ! :/

funny, funny, funny !

well, its always started with happiness and ended with sadness ! thats just love.

gilaa, i just wanna share sikit here how stupid my love life is. and thats why i never wanted to be or anythings with love shit. wel, some would say that, love is that, love is this. but, in my case, love is good when youu think its great. what im trying to say here is, if we started on a nice track of love, and i believe its gonna be nice all the way, no matter what. what i mean no matter what is, even the relations ended, nothing called enemy or against to each other.

mun ceritaaku lain, awal siuk ih.. ituu laa.. ini laa.. behh sanaa.. behh snii.. but, come on ? sudahh problem, kan semuaa di ungkit ungkit ! likee, WTF yo ? segala galaa kan diungkit ! sampai yang org lain indaa tauu punn tauu waa.. macam apaa ! worst thing lgii, our privacy in bed kann di heboh hebohh kan ? macam.. apaa kann yo ? mestii kaa cematuu ? is it a must ?? atuu tplng kann jdii issue nie ? it happened to siapa sjaa. munn sudahh suka samaa sukaa, sayang sama sayang. even we did that shit pun, mau samaa mau. anii macam, akuu tplng yang pnyaa salah nie ? come on.. akuu indaa majal ! if youu want it, then fcuk it. if you dont, then dont.

then youu talking about maruah now ? wel, munn ko kan pkir kan about that, then youu should mentioned it awal. munn nyaa big bro tuu, "sudahh tantuk, bruuth kan sadar ?" yatahh calii tuu ! then, akuu ko ucap menipuu laa. apaa laa. ituu laa. yang ko ? cakap sayang, tpii ko sumpahh sumpahh ! ingat apaa ? barbie doll ? mann.. think before youu said it ! duluu, te-lap u, lap u ! anii, akuu plng kann ko jadikan kain pelap muu ?

and one more thing, i believe some of youu guys would be mad for what i said here. sorry to say, but yeahh.. thats just my stupid love life line. maybe youu dont and wont respect my request, but i obey what my parents dicision ! ko sendiri indaa respectkan parents kuu, why would i respect your keturunan ? hell no yo ! mintaa maaf sjaa. my parents who madelove and beranakkan akuu. i will and always obey their orders ! munn kan ikut org lainn, sorry sjaa !

and seriously, i dont wanna post this shit, but since youu makes me wanna do it, then why not ? youu let the world know our shits. so, why cant i ? samaa samaa dihh.. u lap me, i lap u kann ? for youu i will laa konon ! youu jump, i jump laa konon. ceritaa cematuu kann ko ikutkann. liat dihh balik ceritaa titanic ahh.. manaa tiaa youu jump, i jumpnyaa atuu ? sii rose sendiri juaa yang letting sii jack tingalam ! kamii lelakii anii yang matii kelamasan !

HAHAHAHH !! some shit post ! and, just the heart who wanna let it out. so, yeahh.. no terasa terasa. rekaan semata mata dan tiada yang hidup dan yang mati. HAHAHAH !

ggodmorning and have a nice day ! :)

p/s; " live is hard, when youu think its hard ! "

atuu lamaa !

mann.. lamaa sudahh indaa blogging. heeh.. its been so very the long. but, yeahh.. one day.. will active balik nie. hee. sabar sabar sjaa. hee. wel, for the time being, tak active this blog. so yeahh.. WILL BE BACK ! :D cheers people ! and have a very nice day. :)

PPB, we ended !

Wow.. Its been a very long time i dint update my blerg.. Hahah. Wel, here i wanna share something. Mostly to the ppb-ians who very care muchh. Wel, the story about me and mashy, its always has a start and also an end. Eventho, youu guys know we ended bidaaly. Wel, its all when our privacy been published ! Mann.. Masehh rupanyaa adaa org cematuu atuu. So kesiann youu know.. Masehh adaa yg sakit atii mcm kanak kanak atuu. Dont they think ?? Goshh.. Get a life bitches !!

Wel, the story goes like this.. Sii CHAKPONGG, mencurii pendrive and kuncii locker sii mashy yg yaa ampaii di vendor. But, paluiinyaa.. Npaa yaa indaa bgii mashy semulaa. But then, sii TASHAA finds out that mashy got a lovebite on her body. Whichh i believe i know who's the bite-er. Then, they finds out juaa yg sii MC, got it juaa. And whichh i know who's the bite-er juaa. So, supayaa tutup the story, they both pretend to be a lesbo. Whichh sii MC pnyaa ideas. Mashy doesnt want it at first. But, pasal adaa lesbo yg idungnyaa mcm babii atuu tauunyaa kn menyibuk gnyaa hal orgg, diugutnyaa sii mashy. Mengugut duit $50 lagii tuu.. Mcm, wth ? Walaupunn indaa knaa bgii allowence dangg.. Hahah.

And so, she exposed to all the ppb-ians yg both mashy and mc ani lesbo. The silly part is.. Yaa staie kn taipauu arhh kuu atuu waa. Padahal, i know the story.. Cause, we created the story.. Kesian bnr idung babii atuu.. She got no life to live.. Hahah. Pitty bitchh. So, yeahh.. She tot that she did cracks our relations. Between me and mashy. Wel, on their eyes we did pretend that we're nothing. But instead, we're happy until now.. Hahah. Indaa thh ko jeles tuu buii ? So, since she promise to exposed our privacy arhh org admin, then she did. She did that on 13th of oct.. They meet PL ( PEGAWAI LATIHAN ) kiraa mengaduu laa. Mann, indaa tiaa calaa tuu ?? Sananggthh hidupnyaa tuu kn cematuu ahh ? Kalah kalahan juaa tuu ! Hahahah ! So, since PL doesnt know the story, he make a decision to end our life di PPB. So he did..

The next day, both me and mashy had ended our lifes di PPB. Wel, only god knows better right ? Maybe, disnaa dint suits us klii.. We deserved a better place i believe. And to make sure arhh kamuu semuaa, i know that sii TASHAA AKA LESBO IDUNG BABII atuu bgii arhh PL drii gfnyaa dii luar. YES ! GIRLFRIEND ! Dii ppb adaa juaa gfnyaa.. Mcm, wow.. Dude, larap bnr juaa ko ?? Mcm ndaa lelakii gnyaa dduniaa anii ? Ohh, yeahh.. I forgot.. All guys yg she ever fall on withh, semuaa beralihh arhh.. Maybe because of her piggy nose klii ? HAHAH ! Kesian.. Bgii thh braces ihh idungmuu ahh dangg ! Sekalii.. What ive heard today, nie bruu anii.. Diputar belitnyaa lgii ceritaa tuu ! Like what ?? They said that sii mc tplng yg mengexposedkn our pict dpendrive atuu ? Dont chuu think thats stupid ? GFMUU DILUAR DANGG BECERITAA ABIS KO BCONTACT SAMAA IYAA ! Hahah. Mauu lgii kn menipuu tuu.. and because of that, yang membuatkn akuu mempost di blog anii. I dont care whats good or bad now.. Yang pentingg, we're honest. Im sure god's on honest side.

Moral of this story.. To people out there, please.. Jgnthh adaa pikiran yg kutur atuu.. Berpikiran sehat thh.. Indaa salahh.. Tantuu, agamaa punn merestui tuu. Hahah. And jgnthh kn sibuk hal org lain. Mun dirii atuu perfect sangat, bulehh laa klii.. And privacy org jgn dikacauu. Walauu punn dirii atuu hancur sudahh.. Jgn lagii hancurkn hidup org lainn. And i believe, for what she did to us, she'll get back inreturns. Insha-god ! Only god knows.. Lain laa if ko mintaa maaf dangg.. Hahah.

Wel, both me and mashy accepted the faith for what god leads us. And still, we're happy as always.. No matter what, we will always pray to god that, we'll let the god leads our ways to a better places. Amin.. I hope, everything's clear here. And thanks to those who read this and thanks to those who shit it. Adious !

Books.

Now i do knows how good is a book. Err.. I know ! I think im too late for saying this but yeahh.. I kinda realized that, no wonder we all human been asked to read books from our young age. Heeh.. I should say that, i am menyasal muchh for not reading and hates the books. Wel, i do reads.. Just that, if i couldnt sleep, then only books will solve it by asking me to shut my eyes. Stupid ? Maybe i was.. x/

and i also realized that, we people will be nothing without the books. As youu can see, from the young age sudah we've been asked to read books. Some, they did. But the others ? They just hate books so muchh. Which they dint know that only books can changed our lifes and being a successfull human being. Why i say that, thats because.. Mun dipkir pkir, not all people are the same. Wel, i know ramai yang agreed with that. But, they dint think that, we people are the same sebenarnya.

if sorang dapat jdi successfull, why not me ? Why not youu ? Think it bnar bnar. And the helps of books are the reason for orang orang yg berjaya. I should known this awal. Wel, i do.. Just, too muchh nagatives i think ? And those nagatives th yang jahat brabis tuu. Thats why ada orang yang stress laa, kusut laa, apaa laa. Tpi, indaa drng pkir tuu. Wheres it came from. Cubaa banyak membacaa, sanang hidupnyaa. I can garenty.

but kn, adaa yang cakap juaa, org yang baca buku ani, nerds laa, apaa laa.. But, cubaa liat.. Whos got the greatest marks in class selalunya ?? Tuu, org nerds yg kena ucap ucap ahh. And for thoes yg mengucap ? Baik masa stady marksnyaa ? Nadadaa !! How can i know this ? Cause, honestly, im one of the pengucap-er in class before. Thats why i knew it very well. Heeh..

but, alhamdulilahh.. I just started to change everything to basic. Heeh.. Kesian ? SADANGG !! Hahah. "Time to change", nya si obama. Hee. But, by the helps of my brothers, friends and my own mistakes juaa, i can start it pelahan pelahan. Eventho i started it pelahan pelahan, which i know, sikit sikit lama lama jdi bukit is it ? But, in my case, i want it to be gunung instead of bukit. Biar tamak sikit. Hahah. Yes, i am being tamak for anything that makes me positives and being success ! Siapaa pun inda mauu berjaya kn ? Baik th ubahh cara pemikiran atuu for those yg kn mengusut ngusut gnya atuu. Read books, chill your mind, think positives, and im sure you will feel how i feels awal ani.

and theres someone who had thought me how to change to be a positive people. It says that.. Adaa yg ckp, people changing their lifes thro their life partner. Wel, that was just a lie to yourself sebenarnyaa. No one can change us melainkn bukuu. Why i said this, its because, sii wiraa ani drii dulu sudahh kenaa masukkn nagatives toughts. Always with the words, "JANGAN WIRAA.. " so, yeahh.. Its been 20years man. Nagatives th gnya !

thats why i said, only books can change us. Jgnth jauh, indung tni sendiri sjaa tni inda dngr ckpnya. We even lawan them back. Inda mauu mauu. Perasan handal, sama jua babalnya. Mun buku, awuu.. If the books askd us to do that, and this.. Awuu, marahi tiaa buku ahh. Jgn sja knaa antar ke ward gilaa sudahh. If im not mistaken, theres more to learn how books are usefull for our brains. But, too bad im kinda sleepy to mention here. Ngaleh dah ngatik ngatik ani. So, hope youu guys do the searching. And lastly, just start to read books yo. Indaa rugii.. Indaa buduh.. Kn ? Hahah. Dont be a dumber, be a dreamer instead. Insha-god bejaya tuu. And your life will be nyaman dunia akhirat. And bnyakkn berdoa semestinya tho. Our lifes, only god knows better. So, yeahh.. Ituu ajaa kli yaa ? Sleep well. Cheerious. x)