lucky im in love ? x)

wel, i know im tired and all bgas berperatingtingg. but, now.. heeh ! i cant even closed my eyes. once i close it, her face appears tiaa. i feels macam.. indaa tantuu ? antahh.. macam, i like it juaa. but, since i know it wont be happen between us, so macam lupaakn sjaa. but, too badly i couldnt ! xS even a single thing about her. manaa lgii this laguu i play repeatly. wel, yeahh.. that lucky song. macam, aaaaaahh ! it keeeps me pkirkn about her. her smiles, laughs, randomness and all about her. butkn.. x( idk why i couldnt even branii make a move to her. whichh i know i might one day ? might not as well. just that, shes a very good friend of mine. we're happy this way. just that, i takut.. things would be different when i make my moves and shit. so, better not kn ? im just messed up awal anii. indaa waa tantuu. but the question is, is she punn begituu as well ? hemm.. if awuu, okehh laa.. what if not ? bidaaa waa tuu.. and yes, shes keep on creepingg me kn every single time i wanted to go to sleep ? macam, antahh ahh.. its just random about her. and i even learned random things when im withh her. ohh, god.. what should i do ? that smile just meltd me always. and take note, i couldnt even gives my fragile love to any chicks but her. but still.. shes just a friend who i sayang, love the most. and yes, its just hard. so hard between us. so, i endup like this.. feeling it sorangg sorangg. and, im happy being that ways. kebiasaan ho sudahh. but, yes.. she is special brabis. x) two years, thats not enough for me to know her yet. and yet, i wanted to know her from a to z. atuu punn, depands on her. if she ever let me punn. thats just me, when shes around, i'll be a normal close friend. but, when shes gone from my eyes, i'll be crazy like shit ! xS and yeaah, here.. i dint want any pityness from her. and i am not mintaa kesiann here. sajaa, let it out. and let the world knows it. shes just my everythingg ? yeahh, kindaa for me. but, antahh.. i dont want us to be like sii joey and rachel. janggal should i say.. hemm.. and againn no biggy, i just miss her. x') yes, i know.. too muchh girls ive been dealing withh but yet, they just not the same like her. she brings me joy and happiness. x) i dint say the rest, indaa buat akuu happy. but, antahh.. just different happiness i guess ? and i even tried to move on, but i couldnt ? heeh.. see, hows magicaa she is to me. she even cann buat i forgot all things just like that. but, yeahh.. either she knows or notice about it, thats all on her. yes, on youu my only "her" huhh.. and and, cemanii thh kuu sajaa nie. being tapuk tapuk feelings. sakit ? sadangg.. but, at least we're learning about it right ? and yes, i miss youu againn. i will always be punn. x) and yeahh, in that song says, "i wait for youu, i promise youu" its just perfect to me towards her. x\ am i lucky ? not ! i know.. chill sjaa kn. hemm.. cintaakuu bertepuk sebelahh tangann ? atuu, jiwangg tiaa juaa ! tpii, once di pkirkn that words, adaa juaa learning beyond it. salahh salahh waa ! cemanaa kn tuu ? and again, im just letting it out here. to whom ? antahh.. the unknown her ? i just think that im inlove withh her nothing. x\ but thats okehh punn. i think i cann handle it. insha-god ! and pasal, this post about unknown her thh buat kuu cemanii. beingg random. so, yeahh.. no sweat about it. hee. maybe im just dreaming all this. love that cann never be happend. heeh.. like, when dog falls for cat ? and when cat falls for mice ? thats just never happen. hee. i understand punn about that definations. hemm.. -im out..