without you, im going.

im stuck! Im stuck in the middle of my packing right now. Idkw.. Cause, usually.. You were there with me. You always support me no matter what. And i remember how you make me wanna write a letter to you everytime i wanna leave Bruland. But, now.. Everything has changed. I just, idk.. Even now, im still wide awake and still my things havent fully pack yet. And i realized i only have few more hours to go.

Seriously, without you.. Im stuck. I just, lost ? Lost everything.. But, my mind keep on reminding me that, LS, i will find my answer. All my questions will be answer di LS. 12pm, thats my flight frm BWN to JKT.

You usually there, always giving me support. By sending me off to the airport and you always find a way.. But now, its gone. Just like that. Somehow, i miss that moment when you said, "be good there, and think of me." that words always make me dont wanna do bad things behind your back. Eventho, youre not around me. But those words make me feels you were always there with me where ever i go.

Now, without your support, i just pray God to keep me strong whatever it takes. My eyes even fall a tears when i started packed some of my things. It reminds me of you.. But yet, where ever you are, i always pray for your success and mostly your health. Hopefully your breathe wont stuck as it always happend and i hope, mami will always getting better everyday. And i also hope the best for your family.

Now that im going, this will be a new chapter of my story. Where i try not to look back my past life. Eventho, meeting you, loving you, and having you in my life is always been a good chapter, but this time, i promise i'll make a great journey of my story. Dynamic Living Seminar Live for 6hours with Skip Ross, i am so positively will learn alot. With Allah's will.. Insha-Allah.

Eventho to end it, its never my will but moving on is what we both must do. Even its never that easy at the begining, but have to face it patiently. With the will of Allah, i'll be stronger to walk thro part of the deal. Insha-Allah..

"ya Allah, tunjukkan lah aku ke jalan lurusMu, kuatkan lah aku dari segala penolakkan dan jadikan lah aku kepada insan yang berguna diatas nama keluargaku."

end.

Leadership.

salam and hello blogger. I feel like blogging. So, here. Imma share something.

Today, i wokeup early and alhamdulillah, i showered and sempat my subuh prayer. Then, i continued my reading. One chapter done today. And it was awesome! I really learned alot. Alhamdulillah..

Since, i dont wanna be lazy and in need of changging and being a better person, i now start to work out. Mostly on my fitness. I wanna be fit, instead of being fat. Inda sehat usulnya.

So, what happend is.. I went hiking for the second time di Tasek Lama. Its was.. Grrrreat ? Eventho tired, but it really does helping my mental toughness. And i learned alot! As they said, "Once our "nawaitu" wanted to learn, everything around you will be a teacher." its true! Its happening to me eversince my 4th or 5th LS.

Talking about hiking, im a person who like advancerous since i was in high school way back 2003ish to 4. I was in Scout Team before. And i had alot of experiance when it comes to jungle tracking or should i say hiking ? It was fun to be close with the mother nature and seeing all green or i should say, God's creations ? I always felt calms eventho its tiring.

Then, all that things has been burried eversince i left school. But, when i was in PPB, ive been send to Belalong since im selected for being AJK there. And its like, siuk brabis! Got team building, dream building and mcm mcm. Will shared about it some other time.

What i wanna share is about my second time hiking tdi pagi. It was siuk, sakit, sasak, stress, fun, enjoyed, tiring and if i can define it in one word, i might say, Leadership.

Being a leader, its never that easy. One mistake we made, they will duplicated tousand mistakes. Being a leader is like a fish living inside the clear aquarium. The bigger you can be, the easier you can be seen.

And as a leader, he himself who must leading on. Shown a good example. Then people can followed. Its like, if a leader who leads 3 people, then there was a dead end. Atleast 3 people still can turn back. But, what if 300 people ? Tough decisions. Thats why leaders are never easy. But, it will be easy if you think it is. Plus, all great leaders are great readers.

So, whats my point here is.. Its so obvious that problems are everywhere. But, the real problems is, how WE gonna solve it. I know that sometimes, we felt like wanna give up, we felt like wanna quit. But yet, we never realized that, if we just maintain it and just carry on with the pain and hurts, in the end, we'll get what we wanted and atleast, we'll have something to learn. Or i should say, ada hikmah disebalik kesulitan.

Just focus more to solutions, not the problems. Thats a real leader. Leading on and most import thing is a real leader, the one whos being a problems solver. The one whos never quit on their dreams.

"Pemimpin adalah pemimpi." - IM.

End.

Audioslave - Like A Stone.

on a cobweb afternoon
in a room full of emptiness
by a freeway i confess
i was lost in the pages
of a book full of death
reading how we'll die alone
and if we're good we'll lay to
rest
anywhere we want to go

(chorus)
in your house i long to be
room by room patiently
i'll wait for you there
like a stone
i'll wait for you there
alone

on my deathbed i will pray
to the gods and the angels
like a pagan to anyone
who will take me to heaven
to a place i call
i was there so long ago
the sky was bruised
the wine was bled and there you led me on

in your house i long to be
room by room patiently
i'll wait for you there
like a stone
i'll wait for you there
alone

and on i read
until the day was gone
and i sat in regret
of all the things i've done
for all that i've blessed and all that i've wronged
in dreams until my death
i will wander on..

Creep - Radiohead.

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell I'm doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out the door
She's running out
She runs runs runs

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here..

good becomes great, bad becomes worse.

salam and morning blogger. Seriously, ive been off the limit this lately. Lost everysince i received that msg. But somehow, alhamdulillah, ada bisikkan azan memanggil.

I learnd that, life must have satisfactions. Once we get satisfied, people who's we're dealing with also deserve it like we deserved. Whats worse is, when we felt the satisfactions but, people don't. Thats obviously goes to the term of jealousy.

Last time, i went to Time Square with a friend. And there i saw the actors frm Malaysia. And seriously, i saw one of the artist's girlfriend looks jealous when her boyfriend taking pictures with different girls. But, frm what i can see, thats just part of the deal. How she humbly just shut up and sit there quitely. And she understand that she deserve that at first place. Artist ? She couldnt do anything.

Then i think back what i did wrong. Its alot! But, with God's will.. After what happend between us, i managed to learn and contacting back all the girls who has been with me just by saying sorry for my any wrongdoings. Thank you, and thank God for what happend. Alhamdulillah.. Eventho, its not all.. But, dgn izin Tuhan, i'll find my way to say sorry with the guide of my prayers.

Perfect ? No, i am not.. Just that, everytime i face Allah with my prayers, i felt like im being myself. I was sunked and lost in my love life. I dint blame love, but love doesnt stands for, Legs Open Very Easily. Then i realized how easy they were and also how easy them to move on. Oh God, kids nowdays.

But, whatever happens, it always frm Allah. Either we take the chance to learn, or just leave it and having fun with the sins ? Its your choice.

What i learnd lagi, bad things, negative things, easily influenced them. But when it comes to good things, positive things, people just ignored it without thinking. So pitty how they dont wanna take some chances. But again, only God knows.

Idkw i post this, but.. Im just being random lately. Being phlegmatic should i say ? Tau ikut ikut saja.. Nyehs, stupid!

Somehow, i am back on track. LS are just around the corner. Need to focus more, and dream more bigger! To have my own twins babies. ;p Oh, i just love babies! Hahah. But, sabar saja. Now, Im focusing more to Umrah 2013. And by that time, i'll get married. Insha-Allah, dgn izin Tuhan. :)

"Dimana ada kemahuan, disitu ada jalan."

have a great day everyone. God bless. Cheers!

End.

Cake - I Will Survive Lyrics

At first I was afraid,
I was petrified
I kept thinking
I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you'd done me wrong
I grew strong,
I learned how to get along
And so you're back from outer space
I just walked in to find you here without that look upon your face
I should have changed my f**king lock
I would have made you leave your key
If I'd have known for just one second, you'd be back to bother me
Oh, now go walk out the door
Just turn around now, you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die? Oh not I
I will survive, yeah
As long as I know how to love, I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live,
I've got all my love to give
I will survive, I will survive,
yeah, yeah

It took all the strength I had just not to fall apart
I'm trying hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry but now I hold my head up high
And you'll see me with somebody new
I'm not that stupid little person still in love with you
And so you thought you'd just drop by and you expect me to be free
But now I'm saving all my lovin' for someone who's lovin' me

Oh, now go walk out the door
Just turn around now, you're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die? Oh not I
I will survive, yeah
As long as I know how to love, I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live,
I've got all my love to give
I will survive, I will survive,
yeah, yeah..

Ada hikmah disebalik kesulitan.

i dont know why i sounded desperate when it comes to 14th. It supposed gonna be our great moment. The 20th monthsarry. But then, its no used when what i get is only been ignored. Whats the point ? But yet, let me share how i rolled my 14th.

When it turns 14th, i was wondering about her. Was expecting frm atleast a single text or whatsoever frm her, but nada. So, its alright. Alhamdulillah.. I bet she forget about me sudah. That fast ? Wel, cant deny that.. With new bunch of people shes hanging out with, new invironment shes having, new stuffs and i bet, new life shes holding. Wel, thats congrates to you for being easily moved on.

Somehow, i was watching movie with them. And i learned alot frm that movie. Since the night before, i got inpired by the movie, 'Facing the Giants'. Yet, it says that.. Once our nawaitu is despretely wanted to learn, everything around you will be your teachers. I agreed with that.

After that late nite movie, i was having a little conversations with my good friend about, my love life, since hes sleeping over. Somehow i learnd that, not to give up on something that we really want. And yet, my guts told me to get her back. But, i guess thats my weaknesses for not doing it, instead, damaging my mind with thinking ? Sakit jua jadi meloncholy ani. But, i just believe in miracle. I believe that God has a better plan for me. Amin..

By 8ish morning, we wokeup. Cause swimming every monday morning is our schadule. Since lama sudah rasanya inda swimming atu, so why not ? We reached Anggerek Swimming Pool by 9ish and we swim. It was great, but sunburn saja. And by 3months ahead, i know that i could swim better. Dgn izin Tuhan. And i know that i really should quit smoking for good. Pindik nafas besigup ani. And i felt unhealthy. Since im working out for my fitness, so yeahh.. I think that i should. Insha-Allah..

Then by 12ish, went back home and Alia was there. And God knows how much i miss my little lover. Spend time with my niece, and i want me who teach her how to walk. Just like i did to Iman.

After done with my zohor prayer, i went out to Kiulap then went to jalan muara. To settle the signing up thingy. Then had to go back to Kiulap. Then, balik..

At home, i took my 15mins to continue my reading and was chit chat with my oldest brother for having a new phone. Still confused which one is better. Between, iphones or htc. But, since soon to be we're going to Jakarta, plan kan beli blackberry jua. Aiyo..

Then i realised that it was dark outside already. And plan kn jogging, cancelled. Tetidur wah.. Aiyaah!

Done with my isyak, then i went for my dinner alone. Kaka came, and chilled with her til abng came. We minggle around and wishing all the siblings were here with us. Then the parents came. Few mins after that, kaka's fiance came. Then we went out.

We went out to get some foods. Went to pasar malam, and beli sikit, tapi rezeki banyak kena bagi. Alhamdulillah..

Balik rumah, and enjoying the foods. I enjoyed eating lambchop. :9 seeeeeeedap!

It was fun to hanging out and mingle around with the one we love. It wont felt empty eventho you were and when you felt missing. Somehow, i thank God for whatever happens. Alhamdulillah.. :')

just remember 3 things,

1. God.
2. Family.
3. Business or Jobs.

"Every heavy storms, there's always a rainbow at the ends."

end.

Karna ku sayang kamu.

Seandainya, kau ada disini denganku
Mungkin ku tak sendiri Bayanganmu, yang selalu menemaniku
Hiasi malam sepiku
Kuingin bersama dirimu
Ku tak akan pernah, berpaling darimu
Walau kini, kau jauh dariku Kan slalu kunanti
Karna ku sayang kamu

Hati ini, selalu memanggil namamu
Dengarlah melatiku
Ku berjanji, hanyalah untukmu cintaku
Takkan pernah ada yg lain

Adakah rindu di hatimu Seperti rindu yang kurasa Sanggupkah kuterus terlena Tanpamu disisiku, ku kan slalu menantimu

Seandainya, kau ada disini denganku
Mungkin ku tak sendiri Bayanganmu, yang selalu menemaniku
Hiasi malam sepiku
Kuingin bersama dirimu
Ku tak akan pernah, berpaling darimu
Walau kini, kau jauh dariku Kan slalu kunanti
Karna ku sayang kamu
Kan slalu kunanti
Karna ku sayang kamu..

Dirampok.

Orang-orang yang berbahaya bukanlah mereka yang memukul anda dengan tongkat pemukul dan merampok anda dengan senjata.
Pencuri tidak akan menyerang ciri-ciri karakter anda atau meremehkan kemampuan-kemampuan anda di depan anda!
Kemungkinan besar seorang teman yang bermaksud baik yang akan menghancurkan tekad anda untuk menang.
Tidak, ia tidak merampok anda, dengan menodongkan senjata, ia hanya berkata, "itu tidak bisa dikerjakan."
Ketika ditunjukkan kepada ribuan yang telah berhasil ia tersenyum dan berkata, "Mereka lebih unggul! Bijaksana secara kepribadian dan kemampuan, mereka lebih unggul daripada yang orang lain dapat lakukan!"
Tidak peduli apakah kata-katanya itu salah. Kerana, anda merasa "orang lain" pasti mengenal anda!
Jadi, anda dirampok dari harapan anda, dari impian-impian anda untuk sukses.
Dirampok dari berkat materi yang diterima, dirampok dari iman anda yang berkata, "Aku bisa," dan dirampok oleh seorang teman yang bodoh dan tak bersenjata.
Jadi, orang-orang yang paling mematikan bukanlah orang bersenjata, tapi orang yang paling mematikan bukanlah orang bersenjata, tapi orang yang memberitahu anda "itu tidak bisa dikerjakan!"
Kerana apa yang telah diambil oleh para perampok dapat diperoleh kembali, tapi apa yang dapat menggantikan tekad anda untuk menang ?

Bermimpilah lebih besar. Hilangkan rasa ketakutan dengan memperjuangkan impian anda.

End.

so yesterday.

salam and goodmorning blogger. Alhamdulillah, i started my day with my subuh prayer. And when i opened up my blog, i realized my post was very rude, so i just deleted it. Inda ku sampai hati membaca.

Anyway, today has a great date ever. Its remind me of an ex way back in school days. We once pernah couple thro this date. 11.11. But, what makes it different, awal ani datenya is 11.11.11 more nicer and ruuuuggedd! I just wish i could make something good and make a memories thro this date. Friday tah lagi. I'll find a way.. :)

so, let me just share my yesterday. I wokeup somewhere around 1ish to 2 i guess ? Went out frm my room, and both brothers was there. So, join them mingle mingle til kaka came. So as them parents. We chit chat and talk about the world's update ? Hahah.

Then i endup doing my zohor. After that, my friend wokeup since hes sleeping over, then we have our late lunch. Andangnya drumah ani we usually lunch around 3ish to 4pm ? Freedom of time to have quality time with the family. Financial freedom lagi we'll have soon enough. Dgn izin Tuhan..

And so, since i supposed ada follow up di TS at around 4ish, after lunch im sending off my dad to Kiulap. Balik rumah, doing my Asar, since inda jdi follow up, i just stayed at home til dad minta ambil. Once he did, we jalan and picking up dad di Kiulap.

While in Kiulap, me and my friend went window shopping near by sana. But then, mun kan membeli baju atu, alang alang tah di Jakarta. Since im counting days awal ani. And yet, pasal belayar ani, i am so jealous that my brother had a free trip to Paris this coming 24th kali. And what makes im jealous brabis lagi, he got stop by di Amsterdam. Oh my.. Always been a dream country for one of us. Inda apa, my honeymoon, im going there with my future wife. Amsterdam, Venice and Hawaii. This three places is a must go for me on my honeymoon. Insha-Allah..

Then, sending dad home, and we went to Gadong just to kill the time. By 6ish to 7, blik tia. Stayed at home til around 8ish to 9, we went out. Planned kn ke Jp, but we end up ke Gadong ? Gadong jua.. But somehow, ada jua tejumpa jumpa old school mate. But sudah on my namelist. Hee.

Then by 10, we went to Jp. And it was sunyi brabis, but i did saw my ex girlfriend way back in Primary School jalan with her family. Wait, why lately im dealing back with my exes ? Hmm.. But alhamdulillah, ive managed to say sorry to them for my wrongdoings towards them. I believe whatever happend to me right now is based on my past karma. Thats why God shows me my past lately by sending them exes to my present just to forgive and forget towards my mistakes before. But, alhamdulillah i had my chance to say sorry to them just to have their peace in me and maybe peace in them.

Then, since im in Jp, sampat lah jua menungking. Thanks to my bestfriend who always there to remind me in everything i do. And thanks jua that you who understand me in any condition i am having right now. Thanks, Aqezzah Sirat. I love you! :'D

and so after Jp we went to Waterfront in Bandar. Inda ku paham tempat atu. Why it was build at first place ? Oh, i get it.. Untuk merusakkan kaum belia or should i say the young generations dgn kegiatan tidak bermoral, kegiatan melepak sampai ke subuh dan kegiatan social yang menjahamkan remaja di usia muda. Thats why..

Why i said so, because.. Asal i went there, mesti ada sekelompok anak anak muda yang mabuk mabuk, pergaulan bebas, lepak lepak. But then, antah lah.. Im not being sibuk dgn kehidupan drng, is just that ive been there. And i really knows how it feels. The comfort zone. Zona yang nyaman. And usually, kenyamanan adalah punca kegagalan. Gagal dari apa ?

Gagal untuk menghadap Tuhan. Sedangkan barang yang wajib tplng ditinggalkan ? Yang inda wajib di buat tplng nie ? So, gagal untuk menghadap Tuhan.

Apa lagi ? Gagal meluangkan masa bersama Keluarga. To know them well. Know their personalities. Their love languages. Sayang sekali mun di abaikan. Family comes first. Once we know the meaning, we'll be blessed. Dont ever miss it. Be a champion for our family. Jgn pernah gagal demi Keluarga.

And lastly gagal on educations. Ani lgi parah nie. Mana inda, masuk class, ngantuk bgas lepak malamnya. Exams fail, inda beguna kan merah mata. Inda guna kn menyasal. Endup, memalukan keluarga.

Just remember, once parents menagur or memarahi, thats just for our own good. How i know ? Cause ive been there.. Somehow, i thank God for whatever happend in my life.

Why am i that far, idk. Just that, they said, belia aset Negara. But look at belia nowdays. Sakit..

Somehow, bck to my story, after dari sana, we went back home tia. Was with them abng tdi. Then, tidur. Tbgn subuh tdi, atu yang post diatas tia.. Wel, til here then. Have a great Friday. Cheers.. :)

when i go blablablaaa ~

salam and hey blogger! First of all, goodmorning. :)

so, im gonna share something weird happend just now. Its funny how i got mentiond by unknown and ada link nya that i wish i could open it. But, wait til im using proper apps for twitter. But some how, that link got a reply frm my posted. When i checked, it was my 1month post to my almost-so-called lover. And i find out that she followed me back. And that makes me, idk.. Go thro it ?

Seriously, i really know the pain you having. And i know i never was good enough for you. I know i maybe a liar. And i also noticed that im not that perfect. Im not that well-born. I did mistakes which i can learnd frm it. Im confused! :'s

seeing back all our tweets before make me miss you and mostly when you call me 'sayang'. It somehow, can make me smile when i think back how happy crazy unlimited life we had. But yet, i just couldnt do anything. I dont wanna annoyed you. But somehow, i can see you're being happy and moving on. I just dont wanna interupt and try not to bother you're life. I only can pray for you and your family well. :')

seriously, its never that easy to let you go at the first place. But, you pushed me away by asking me to move on. I did, but i know deep in me that i couldnt let you go. But, once said, true love, it'll come back and know where to be headed.

Am i sound like im hoping ? Idk.. Hopefully this coming LS will brainwashed me for good. I am so cant wait to go Jakarta. Please come fast.. I know that all answers ada di LS. Skip Ross tah lagi.. By reading his book awal ani pun makes me think wide open. I am so sure this upcoming LS is gonna be mind blowing. Which i suppossed bringing you along with me. But, its alright. I maybe deserved someone better. Shes just not ready to live the life that i live right now. Shes too young to handle i guess. But, shes always the smart one in me. Always been.

Wel, idk already.. Im just kinda lost without you. Eventho i tried not to. But i know very well that i need to learn more frm my mess that ive created. Leaving just like that, never been a better solutions.

Idk what im saying, just a crap!

End.

Dream catch me.

salam, and goodmorning blogger. Idk what to post, but i feel like blogging.

Wel, last night it was a great infonite. Menaikkan semangat. But, semangat gnya inda cukup without the works. So, i need to work smart now. 90x stp, per month, thats one of my goals for this month. 1 done, so 89more to go.

Countdown! Yes, being a melancholy, we needs countdown. I need countdown. Just to work smart and to get smart results. Its time to focus more. Sydney next year ? Wel, im more focus to Umrah upcoming 2013. I must qualified with the whole family. Seeing the video masa NBT, with the Umrah Trip. It was amazing! Memanggil manggil sudah. I wanna feel it. And being insaf ? Why not ? To be a better muslim guy. Always been a dream in me.

Talking about dreams, i just need to focus more. I just need to bigher my dreams. I just need to search more desire. I just need to find something that makes me run more faster. Yet, bringing both our families Umrah always been my dream before. It is still since i owe mami a sin. Not just a sin, but too much sins ive made. I wanna bring her atleast Umrah sama sama untuk menebus balik all my wrong doings towards her daughter. Insha-Allah, dgn izin Tuhan, pasti tidak akan ada halangan. Amin.. :')

yes, im a dreamer! A big dreamer and also a big achiever. Once i can dream it, i definitely can achieve it. Think big baby, and dream big. Thats the only key to succeed when we put believe in it. Idkw im this far.. But, now i realized that i need to do something. Its now. Today, and won't be Too Late. Insha-Allah..

"Dimana ada kemahuan, disitu ada jalan."

have a nice day ahead, and smile always. Cheers..

End.

i've made a mistake.

salam and goodmorning! Damn.. I really dont like this anymore. To sleep in the morning, and wide awake at night ? It seems inda sehat rasanya. I seriously need a change. A big change in my life. If people deserve it, why not me ? Why not Wira Julaihi ?

I know people do mistakes, cause i know too that no one is perfect. Ive made up mistakes. And somehow, ive learnd frm it. Always did.

Frm the book that i read, it says that we need atleast one minute with our ownself. Think positives, and spend your one minute with just yourself. And i did try, but.. Unfortunately, you appears. Ireallydontknow already. What to do, and did not do. You appears, thats when i started to get confused.

I tried my very best to follow whatever you said, but sorry to say, it didnt work. But, if thats the best for both of us, i will never stop trying eventho its full of pain. God will guide my way of being right.

Yet, i dont wanna look back. I dont wanna look back on whatever wrong doings ive made. Its somehow, make me goes negative. I agree with my ex-girlfriend by saying, just think positive. If shes worth to wait, time will tell. Thanks, Dirah. You've always been the best one when it comes to advice me.

Life must go on. No matter how struggle i was sebenarnya to move on like you asked me to, but idk.. I always believe in miracle. We both believe in that, i know. Just appreciate for whatever happens. Part of the deal will always tested us. How strong we might be.

Why im posting this, idk.. I just find out that one of my friend get thro breakup and she also been asked to move on. Seriously ? I know how it feels.. Struggle! Only God knows.. But, sabar saja tia.

Focus masalah, sakit saja otak. Move on, move on tah tu.. If she thinks shes better, shes right. Oh God, napa tia post ku sampai jauh kemari tia pulang ? Im sorry..

End.

genap sebulan since you want me to move on.

i wish i could text you and make it right. But, its no used i guess.

Somehow, today's genap one month since that happend between us. But, yeah.. I felt missing, cant deny that. I felt empty, and i felt naked without your smile and everything.

But yeah, atleast ive find out, we're not that different at all. May God bless us both. We're not perfect, i know.. And we deserve better in anything.

I wish i could say how i feels. :)

end.

Not 'the problems', but 'the solutions'.

salam and goodmorning blogger. First of all, again i wanna say, "Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha" to all muslimin and muslimat. May God always bless us with strong strength, love, and also mendapat rezeki yang halal. Amin, and alhamdulillah..

So, blogger! Here, i just wanna share my few days back and things that i learned.

It all started with a special time last friday with our mentors frm Indonesia. It was so great! Awesome brabis. And seriously, i miss Jakarta already! Batah end of November ani. But, sabar.. Hee.

So, yeahh.. No just mingle with the mentors, but we had the chance to learn something new about everything. Mostly about life. I learned mostly about life. Alhamdulillah..

Then on saturday night, we had our night. Our Leaders night, and it was crazieee! So, complete informations and sharing frm the mentors was valueable. Its, great. Menyadarkan brabis and its really awakenings frm the sleep, and being lost. Since one of my goals to be a better person and being a great leader, that Leaders Meeting was really helpful brabis. Thank God, and alhamdulillah..

The next day nya, on sunday, which is yeterday, wah.. Lagi tia gila banar! Its really mind blowing, and i got inspired by all speakers. Mostly frm our guest speakers.

Not just them, but the environment make it happening yesterday with all positive people and excited leaders. Siuk brabis.. Its really different frm before before yang pernah terjadi. But yet, aku bersyukur atas apa yang terjadi to me myself sebelum ani, and alhamdulillah im in this Business with my family. Thank God.

Seriously, i learned alot. And mun kn di post, luan banyak, so i just share yang really had an impact to me, is about, problems are everywhere. We cannot run frm problems. Even in lifes. But then, what ive learned, all problems punya solusi. Ada solutions.

Mikin dipikirkan masalah, mikin bertambah plng masalah. But, why not focus more on solutions instead of problems ? 'The why', then you'll find 'The how' to settle it. So, the more you focus to, thats you will get. Everyone knows that, i know. But, we just dint apply things that we know. Thats our problem. But yet, not the problem yang penting, tapi solusi.

"Every problems, theres always a solutions."

til here, adious.

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Only God knows better.

salam and goodmorning blogger. First of all i wanna thank God for whatever happens to me. Alhamdulillah..

Let me share here, yesterday it was a very great day for me. Idkw, but yeahh.. Let me start it frm the first time i opened up my eyes yesterday. I woke up quite late. And i planned to cut my hair masa patang. But then, i ended up with my business partner the whole evening.

We went to Kiulap, to decorate for the special time party malamnya. So, we've been askd to look for the stuffs that needed. Which, end up with two items only ? Gila bah.. When pink things involves, thats when i get lost. Inda wah ku pemandai. :s how i wish i still have the one i love, i bet she will know what to do. Ada jua orang kn di-refer. But, sabar saja. :')

so, we send the stuffs back to Kiulap, then we went out for shopping. Since the themes was pink and white, and, since we've been asked to use pink, shopping baju pink plng nah. We end up in Gadong. And yeah, found it. Seriously, it was my first time beli baju warna pink. Silly..

Then, went back to Kiulap. And yeah.. Mendangankan men-deco, then by 6ish, rush tarus begunting nearby my place. Then, went back home, tarus bsiap. Around 7ish, we reached Kiulap. Since the party was in Kiulap. Then, thats when something happend to me.

We celebrated, eat, chit chat, and sharing. Sharing frm the mentors makes me think wide open. And you, poped out on my mind in all of a sudden. I bet its because their were sharing more about relationship. And, whatever the masseged yang kena sampaikan atu, its true. Its about ego.

Cant deny that every single one of us, ada egois. Including you, and me. Its true when they said, ego tidak harus diasuh dan di belai. Every since then, i keep on blaming myself for whatever happend between us. We once created our dreams and going stronger. We once pray to God to protect us whatever it takes. We even shared every single things together. We even make ourself promises. To be together no matter what, and always been together whatever it takes. Idk, but you poped out on my mind out of nowhere. It really does made me think it back and how i really wish to fix everything back to who we are used to be. But, idk.. Miracle happens. :)

summary to the special time last night, it really slap my face with their sharing. And they also said, most importantly is, our relations with God. Alhamdulillah, it makes me sadar for who i am. And i will try my very best not to do the same mistakes whatever it takes. I will focus more to my dreams.

After the celebrations, i went follow up kan my business partner pnya kedalaman. Then after that, went back home. Minggle around with the siblings and friends. While watching big fat liar. And again, you poped out. It seems, something which i dont know apa. Like, the more i dont, the more it does.

Then makan, and after that, we've watchd sang pemimpi. Ive watch it for the second time. And idk, i made my keputusan not to miss my Subuh prayer. And after that, as always i pray and asked for an answer towards you.

Then, i end up kn baca buku, one minute for yourself. Kali, i was wondering whats my bookmark for this book. Since before, i used picture as my bookmark, it makes stand up and ambil family picture that i keep frm very long time ago, and guess what ? I found a very first letter that you gave me, along with your pictures that always been my fav.

It really does make me think, why shes never been that far away frm me ? Why must you appeared again ? Why ?? Was it same goes to you too ? Are you think about me too ? God.. If you do, you know what to do. Kill our egos together. And God, He knows everything. Cause, the mentor shared, always greatful for whatever happens. :')

"Only God Knows."

til here, cheers guys, and have a great weekends. And you, have a great day ahead. Semoga Tuhan memberkati kitani sekeluarga.

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God's timing always perfect.

salam blogger. Idkw, but i feel like wanna blog. So, here.. My 2nd day, was not bad. Wel, theres a friend sleeping over. Lapang lah jua otak. Inda jua tpkir kn itutu.. Haaah!

Yet, it was a great wednesday tho. Biasa, with Alia and them. Never bored me.. And plan kan jalan yeterday patang, tpi inda menjadi. So, stayed home. And learning something yesterday. How to organised everything in a great conditions. Being melancholy is always needed, not just sometimes, but all the time.

Then, before 8pm, when out with my business partner to close NBT tickets, and gone to wywy lambak. Oh, wywy lambak, where i first time meet and know someone whos awesome to me lately. Not just being awesome, but a nurse to heal my broken heart, and a teacher frm different school. Hahah. ;p somehow, she makes me awesome. Cause she is awesome. Cant deny that.. Hee. <3

oh, jauh tplng nah.. And so, wywy lambak, had the chance to meet them all, meeting new friends, even long lost friends. Wahh.. Siuk tdi.. Best part is, sampai wah hajatku tedapat lagu ahh!! Hahah. Bnyk processnya.. But yeah.. Never give up. And sometimes, you gotta roll the dice. Hee.

Making appointment, sampai inda sampat jumpa tia.. Inda apa, God's timing always perfect. Hee.

But had the chance to meet and built relations to new comers. It was great last night. Alhamdulillah.. And today, and tonight, i know its gonna be a very busy day and night since friday we got challenge meeting. Wuhuu.. Siuk!

But, yang membuatnya inda siuk, mostly, their more gonna talk about relationship. Oh my.. What a waste of almost 19th months, in the end, its ended just like that. Nyehs.. But somehow, alhamdulillah.. Ada hikmahnya. Getting more focus, more freedom, more rezeki. Alhamdulillah..

Bah, til here dulu then. Gonna get enough rest for later.. Adious people and have a nice sleep. Goodnight! ;)

my November opening.

salam blogger, and a very good morning. So far my November comes with a great opening. Mostly when it comes to infonite. Semangat lah jua leh nya.. And it makes me focus on my goals.

Let me share my first day of November. It all started with the end of everything. Including the book i read pun abis sudah. And now, new month, new book. Hee. Yet, i cant wait to read book by Skip Ross, say yes to your potential. But.. My guts tell me, i should read book pasal moving on. And its in english. Plus i need to improve my english so bad. Eventho i do have private english teacher, but, need to be more better. I wanna be a better person. Who doesnt right ? Everyone does.. :)

so, it also started with prayers too. Its true when they said, its better to fall inlove with God, so that people will loves you back. Cause, i believe in karma. What goes around, always comes around. Npa tia ku jauh sampai kemari ani, antah.. Idk. ;p

then, Alia's was here jua. And it calms me and cheers my November. And makes me wonder when can i have my own kids, my own twins. Oh, i still dream to have it tho. One day, insha-Allah. :)

then out with dad, and yeah.. Had the chance to share ideas with him in the car, know him well. Know his love langguages, personalities. Oh, how i wish i read those books before when i was 18yo. But, its alright. For sure i wont do the same mistake that i did to my kids in the future. Insha-Allah, kalau ada rezeki. Hee.

At night, i got class. Weekly class moved again, every Tuesday. And yeah, tonights gonna be a great night. We got coordinate meeting for coming NBT. :D busy opening for my November. But yet, once your busy, problems will disappear. Problems will run away frm us. Cause, the problems is never the problems, its how we solve the problems. :)

somehow, yesterday i learnd something thro qoutes secara inda langsung. It says, "Past is always been a past, and memories is always been a memories." cool. It makes me speechless tho, but antah.. Why should i think about it right ? Move on.. And i think i should read that "move on" book. Hee. :)

after infonite, we got business discussion and yeah.. Always been a fun business discussion when it comes to the siblings. Hee. So far, my November opening is so awesome. Hope, same goes to you baby. Cheers guys, and have a nice day. :))

the end of "October" and here comes November. :D

salam blogger. Wahh.. October has ended, and here comes November. New month, new life, new goals, new dreams. And yet, past is past and now is the future!

Seriously, sekajap masa atu berlalu. Let me flash back my October.. Its quite awesome. Atleast, i got to learn something in it. Harus bersyukur for whatever happends. Atleast i know, shes not the right one for me. Thank God it happens awal. So, true.. When it says October is full of drama, tragedy. Mcm mcm! But yet, i get to meet new member and new people in it. Alhamdulillah..

So, since its November.. Lets move on. Move to the next level of life. Next focus, next goals and next path. The whats next is i need to be more focus to my goals. No more perfect distructions, no more kiddo's problems, no more past. Its straight ahead now.. Love God, Love Families, and Love my Business. Thats the first thing first.

Since im free, its time to fly high.. Its time to run. Its time to learn something new. Its time to jump high. And its time to go big.

I dont know what im posting actually.. But, yeah.. Lets move on, and run faster ahead. Dreams are waiting for us. For me! Haah.. "Move on" ? Oh, yess !! :D