goodbye 2010, welcome 2011.

so, im gonna share whats happening in this year. Wel, last but not least topic for the END of 2010. So, im gonna start frm january. My opening year was kind of messed up. But, then, thank God i attend to some of tha functions of Dream's 21. Until one day, in one of the functions, on the second month, feb, i still and always remember the date where i meet a pretty girl with a gorgeous' smile. Its was on CNY and a Valentine's Day. I meet a girl who really blockd my focus during Nuts and Bolts. Since its full house as in ramai org, i was standing next to the toilet's entrance. On my busy-ness, i saw her come towards the toilet, so we've learnd how to smile in all functions and being humble. So, i opened up the door for her. That time, i remember still i got something information frm my own brother about Dreams. Then, when the functions ended. I started built some relations to everyone. And yeah.. By that time my shadule was tight with my comfort zone. Right after the function, i drove off to pick up my bestfriend, si jubur and we're off to tutong. Dinner there as promisses. And there where i see a real family. Care to each other, its family's care. Then, i looked at myself, asking wheres my family ? I also wanna have a great care with my own family. Then, on our way home, we stop by for a shotting star. And that night as well, i learned about leaving the person you love the most as in people's passed away. And realized that, time is ticking so fast, life moves on, and young to old. There where ive decided to just stick with my family before its too late. Then, during the month, ive known a girl who really is something to me. Day by day, she's something to my life. Until months passing by. Tears, smiles, sad, happy, negativity, busy-ness, positivity we've gone thro, til she's part of tha dreams every minutes, every seconds, every day and night. Functions to functions, LS to LS passing by. Ive learnd and still learning the mistakes ive created frm my past and ive decided to change my lifestyle from the better to tha greatter. And alhamdulilah, i atleast know how to think for anything. Learn how to thinks that matter. And yet, theres alot tests frm tha Creator. Alhamdulilah as well, ive learn that, 'the problem is not the problem, the problem is how to solve the problem.' and i even learnd that being somebody, got to be REAL. REAL as in, Relationship, Equipping, Attitude, Leadership. Thats what ive learn frm John C. Maxwel's book. And only one quote that make me still staying strongly thro my year is from my babylove,

"i want you to be a better person." - Iwani Momin.

Then, yeah.. I appreciate for what ive been thro all this year.. Ups and downs, theres always a middle. When theres a will, theres always a way. When theres, 'will not be', theres always, 'will be'.. Some might understand, some might dont. Again i thank God for my 2010. I learned ALOT frm my mistakes. I appreciat that ive found someone special in me. and what most not to forget is, the Jush's family is smiling back in positive ways. So, as marley always said, dont worry be happy. And yeah, good friend we have, good friend we lost. Always marley words.

So i think im gonna stop here. And since today is the last day of the year, here i wanna say happy new year all, and success always ! Hunt for a greatter lifes. May God bless us to tha coming 2011. Cheers ! ;D;D

-wiraa julahi. <>

She always said that, "its only a dream. Its sleeping's games."

One day, she told me that she had a bad dream as well. But, all i know that, both of us cried in that dream. Which we endup our relations. Its a year plus ? But then, today, i do had a bad dream as well. In that dream, we had a happily life already. But yet, she had to study overseas. The day she move to OZ, i meet a long lost friend. Who is that girl is my exgirlfriend's cousin. And that girl used to be my admire way back in school. But then, yeah.. She just got back frm graduates frm KL. Which shes asking if i live alone or what ? And that time, i do. I had my own appartment. So, she wanted to supprise her family that shes back in Brunei. But what happend is, when she live with me, we got imbushed by the polis and we had to marry each other. ;s and yes, that was a very big supprised to both our families. And thats sucks. ;s but, since me and my girlfriend promise to each other that, nothing can stop our relations. So, agreed or not, both me and my friend had to marry. But then, what happen after that is, eversince we got married, i've lost contact with my girlfriend. Which, my so-called wife who incontact with her. Which i dint know that at all. Waiting, waiting and waiting for my girlfriend, she dint even showed up. I always keep her promise not to make out with other girls, until my so-called wife's mother really wanted to have grandchild before shes gone. But, luckily my so-called wife, understand about me and my girlfriend. But, then.. Thats her mother. And shes my mother inlow. So, yes no yes, we have to had child. Then, thats when my love started to built up to my wife. And i realized that, how patience my wife for this years waiting for my love. Day by day.. My love's getting bigger to my wife, until she give birth to our first baby girl. But yet.. She passed away. Thats when i realised that she had virus on her brain, which thats why her mother wanted atleast a child frm her own daughter. Then, i went back home, and for the first time, i enter our room, which i can smell my wife's perfume. And the room was tidy. Smart as i always wanted. And even, she dint even sleep on our bed for this few years. And i saw a box next to the bed, and yeah.. Everything was in the box. She wrote every single day that how much she wanted me to be around her, but then she respect my decisions for waiting still and hoping my girlfriend to come. But, then.. The ring door bell. I went out, then the door been knocked, then again, and again.. Then, i heard my mum's voice, "wiraa, bgnth.. Kn sembahyang jumaat lgi.." then, i open my eyes, i realised that just a dream. Alhamdulilah, i dint hanyut far away.. And thank God that im still awake and thank God it is just a dream.

P/s ; my baby always said, thats, "sayang, thats just a dream. Mainan tidur saja tu." and yeah, i agreee with you sayang. I love youu.. :,)