Chapter 1.

I know im just a dude who wants to want things ? And wanting to know things that i dont ? So, here. Let me share about this one girl that im dealing with right now ? 

Since its the first chapter, let me tell you alittle bit of my crazy stupid love stories ? I know, it seems like im crazy to own and having a perfect women of my life just for me to settle down things ? Maybe people might think im crazy ? But yeaaaah! Thats just the whole plan i guess ? 

Which it come to more worst that i ever think of ? Too much lady but cant seems to find the better one ? Maybe i did, but i wasted it ? Wel.. I dont blame them, but me ? I somehow knew that its me who needs to be fixed. 

Until, this someone entered my life ? Her story is very the unique! I tell you.. 

It was past few years back, when i broked up with my ex who had the same name like her ? Wel, both of my exes' names got her name on it ? Funny! Wel, yeaah.. I broked up, then that time i asked my little sissy to hooked me up with someone ? Which shes my sissy's bestbabe ? Lol.

But, during that time.. She was very much "jual mahal" should i say ? Or idk ? Pokoknya, i dint get her feedback at all ? But, thats when i realized i added her on my fb ? I think.. But, it ends there.. Fullstop ?!

So, i again moving on and meet another girl which you guys can just refer the little bit of story about her on my previous post. Inda banyak cause shes very much psycho i guess ? Sorry for that.. Long story short, we broked up. But i thank God it happend ? Cause if not, im not gonna be who i am right now. 

So, since then ive decided to be alone for awhile ? And being single for this whole year ? Which last month is my "a year anniversary" for being single ? Lol. But, behind the sence, i managed to flings around with, idk ? Many girls i guess ? God, im not proud of it, but i know thats bad! 

Until at one point, where i actively on wechat ? And we happend ? It happened, very funny. Really are unexpected ? Lol. 

It all begin with a drama shit of her with this one dude ? Which im involved ? Since i know him that much i guess ? Which idk ? But, her first text to me was on my instagram ? Way back im in Labuan, heading to KL. And that time, we're only just like that ? Cause i somehow respect the stories of this crazy lovebirds ? Which endup being an angrybirds ? Haah.. 

Then, 11th of July.. She texted me asking for his number which im shocked that, shes madly inlove but didnt have his number ? Wel, i dont know "their" story. But, yeaah.. Since then, we're getting closer and closer ? The right moment when i ended my story with the teacher. 

So, yeaah.. 

Crazy!

Thats the thing what i dont ever understand, when someone at certain point ya cemani, then cematu. Like, whaaaaaaat ? True, we're nothing and all.. Bla bla blaa.. But, what tha hell ? Its like, youre riding a roller coster ? When you look at the trails, its really scarry ? But, you still wanna ride it ? Just to feel the afraid of the feelings of being scarred ? Then, when you ride it, you exactly enjoying it with those mixed feelings of fun, scared, afraid, and yada yada yada ?  But, yet.. The moment has been created ? Which it can jdi memories ? Mcm, antah ? Sandi brabisan ?! I dont know what im talking about here! But, antah eeh! I just believe, God has a better plan indeed ? I know i might sound this and that.. But, yeaaaaaaah! Antah ?! Astagafirullah aladzim. 😔 

P/s : imy.. 😚

Shes still in needs.

Assalamualaikum, and good morning all! 

How are you guys doing lately ? Hope you guys doing just fine as my prays in my prayers everyday. Hee. 

So, my yesterday was awesome! Ohh, before that.. Fo those who bimboo much still here, my post always been for what happend kelmarin ? Yesterday ? So, basically, whatever happend yesterday, im gonna post it here whenever i had the time ? Hee..

Soo.. Here. Yesterday was great day ever ? Why so ? Pasal, it was great you know, waking up by "someone" texts ? Hee. I maybe angau ? But i dont give a F about it ? Janji ku happy and doing right and make me happy ? Hahahah. Selfish much ? So what.. 😜

But, somehow yesterday was awesome pasal inda ya ngusut ? Inda mental and inda bgi sasak ? Instead, manja ya pulang ? Which i loike ? Hee. Until, when she went out ? Then, shes gone ? But, naah.. Dont wanna think too much on that ? Krg aku tplng yg kusut ? Haah.. Pasal, somehow statement ani lurus ? 

So, better dont ? At all ? Which banar ? Nada bah ngusut ? Hee.

Then, another one came ? All of a sudden ? Right when shes not around ? Mcm tau tau sja ? Heheh. The one who i mengeluh at before ? We're making a great convo's somehow.. Panjang laah jua. Anu, dri mengucap, "10" ? Jdi panjang berabisan ? Hahaha. Funny.. 

She send me her photo ? Mcm, wow.. Baik jua time azan magrib kan ? Mun inda, awu.. Abis kecundang! Bahaya bagi Brunei! Hahahah. That reminds me of our convo with my bestfriend, yanii. Pasal bahaya bgi brunei ani. Pacaaah! I know if she read this, shes gonna laugh ? Hahaha.

Then, the convo stop just like that. Until we started to chat about her anak buat and all ? And she send me the video of her anak buah ? And he is such an adorable little moving thing ? Cute much!! 😍😍😍 mcm, i feels like i wanna have one ? Or two ? Or twins ? In sha Allah..

Cemani jua usulnya ? Hee. In sha Allah.. 

Then, masa im on my way, i texted her ? Kli tdur kan yaaa ?!! Mcm apaa! Patut jua ilang ? Hahahah. But, its alright ? She must be tired ? Inda lgi beair ? Sakit bah tuu.. Hahaah. Then, shes being cranky ? And i decided to be away ? But, no ? She managed to make me stay instead ? Antah aah.. Iya ani bomoh kli aah ? Hahahaha. But, naah.. Thats just her which i couldnt say no ? Shes just, someone. Someone in and outside of me. Shes everywhere i go ? In other words, "maybe we're friends, maybe we're more, maybe its just my imaginations ?" Hahahaha! Kan belagu lah ku jua kan ? Angau much!

Then, as usual.. Every wednesday, got #epm's class. And #fto's extraclass. Tpikn.. Mcm, sampat laaah jua lgi kmi be face time ? Pacaaaaaaaah jua tu ? Mcm, pacaaah berabisan ?! Hahahaha. But somehow.. The miss mikin kurang ? And betambah jua ? Temixed feeling ya my "missing" mode aah! Hahaha. Padan muanya! 😜 but, yeaah.. I was very happy to see her smiling! 😁😁

Kli, epm tiaa. And it was great! And to be honest, i was a little down that all my prospects inda dpt dtg last last minutes ? Mcm, kan mengclose new XES jua ku nie!!!! 😔 but, inda papa. Enjoy the process!!

Thanks to Emo Sharin tdi saying something motivates me. He was like, no matter what, must attend epm's class so that we can charged ourself ? Cause je said,

"Our dreams needs the energy to be charged!" - Sharin Metusin.

And alhamdulillah, thanks Allah for shows  our the right team the Xtreme Team. Really blessed. I am soooo grateful! Alhamdulillah.. 

After epm, kmi face time lah jua lgi ? Anu inda buang peluang ? Since ada wifi sna ? Hahahahahaha! Pacaaaah much! And she complains that i bullied her by asking all my family member to wave at her ? Kli kan mcm merah lah jua mua nya ? And ya awkward ? Hehehe. How i just wish you could be close with them like brabisan close ? In sha Allah.. 

Kli kan, we went for foods hunting ? And kononnya kn menyampati ke perayaan ? Tpi kecundang ? Haah.. But alhamdulillah we managed to get something to eat. Alhamdulillah..

Then, sampai rumah.. Another one person came ? Heee! Who really are unexpected ? That somehow creates the smile on my face with her stories ? Ot was fun. And shes random ? And the awesome part is, she can sing and play guitar ? Ohh my ~ such a turn on ? She really remind me of zee avi ? But ani, Bruneian's style. Not "gangnam style!" Atu, auuut brabisan tia! Hahaha.

Talking about that, gila.. Pernah tu ive heard that a couple had a fight just because of that korean's annoying song ? Godd!!! Sudah pun annoying ? And buleh bah org kelahi leh nya ? Sandi ? Hahahah! 

Then, still no one can ever beats my one and only someone ? She she has this package things called skalor power ? Which not every girls has it ? Cause, "Shes a no, but a yes ?" Pikirkan tia! Steves jobs lgi mulah bepikir. Hahahaha. But, yeaah.. Shes still the vavavum ? Hahahah. In sha Allah, one day i will post a very novel type of story about this someone. Hee.

Texting texting sexting.. Sampai jua menyubuh ? And theres another one came ? And ya ani pun, somehow can feels me ? So, we're making a nice cute convo and ngam jua i was watching "into the greek" with them brothers ? While waiting for the prayers, kmi chitchat. And yeahh.. After ya pray, i asked for her pict with her telekong's on. And before she pray, shes asking me to be her imam ? Mannn!!! Sajuk bah jua badan ? Haaah.. Why out of all questions, atu kan tnyanya ? Cair jua ku tu.. Hee. Alhamdulillah.. In sha Allah, one day. 😊

Kali she send me gambar her so-called-twins ? 

Mcm, okeh ~ hee. Boleh laah! And by that time jua.. My someone asked me to go "hilang!" 😌😌 

Wel, i did. Just for awhile? Just to asked forgiveness for my any wrong doings i have made ? Sengaja inda sengaja ? Hee. Alhamdulillah.. And im hoping, everything will be just fine. Amin..

I think i post too much here ? So, til here then. Have a great day ahed everyone! Think big and be positives on whatever you are doing! Cheers!! 😁😁😁

Okeh! I dint noticed that i dint post this ? Due to aku tetdur ? HAHAHAHAH! So, here a very late post! Enjoy.. 😁

Bitter Sweet.

I am like a bittersweet pie, 

Filled with love and also denial. 

When you're not around, everything goes down, 

Everything goes wrong with me! 

When you're not around, everything goes down, 

Why in hell you cannot see? 

[x2:] 

I can feel your love is real, 

But I know that you're making me sick! 

Girl, you're serving me your poison meal 

And I know that you're making me sick! 

I think I'm better, 

I think I'm better, 

I think I'm b-b-b-b-b-b-b-b-better! 

I think I'm better, 

I think I'm better, 

I think I'm b-b-b-b-b-b-b-b-better! 

Without you. 

You are like a bittersweet pie, 

But you are filled with cream and the cherry top lie! 

When you're not around, everything goes down, 

Everything goes wrong with me! 

When you're not around, everything goes down, 

Why in hell you cannot see? 

[x2:] 

I can feel your love is real, 

But I know that you're making me sick! 

Girl, you're serving me your poison meal 

And I know that you're making me sick! 

I think I'm better, 

I think I'm better, 

I think I'm b-b-b-b-b-b-b-b-better! 

I think I'm better, 

I think I'm better, 

I think I'm b-b-b-b-b-b-b-b-better! 

Without you.

The L's Season. 😏

Hello and assalamulaikum all.. 

Im back to my reality now. Cause i was just away for awhile ? Wel, to be frankly honest, the mood was abit choosey lately. It follows my situations ? Its random ? Where sometimes bagi sasak jua ? Sometimes bagi mental jua ? Sometimes bagi banci ? How i know, cause thats what i exactly felt ? 

But yet.. No laah.. Im not that stupid enough to do all those stupid things like i used do before ? Like, being high and dont wanna think in a normal ways ? But, as i wish for this october, i wanna think more mature enough ? And alhamdulillah, im done reading another chapter of John C. Maxwell's book called, Ujilah Impian Anda, or Challenge your dreams.

It was quit good. It motivates me.. And talking about motivates, ive learned a new word today that i got from twitter on #gemini's tweets. The word, cynical. It means, you motivates others while you being demotivated ? Haah.. Sudah di baca banar banar, mcm banar tia jua ? Pacaaah! And yes.. I think i need my motivationals' input ? Soooo bad!

Back to my story, my day was soo fine, just that i realized that ive been dealing with the libra-ians ? Haah.. I somehow realized its their season now ? And to you who birthday just few days back, again i wanna say happy belated birthday, and may Allah bless you to the fullest with your beloved adorable son! Hee. 

And for you who birthday tomorrow, here i wanna say happy advance again! And im hoping sampai to bring you out for a movie session ? In sha Allah.. 

Hee. Cute much! Im hoping you guys reading this ? And again, may Allah bless you guys. Hee.

But not just that happen, but something good happend jua. Something that creat smile on my face. Which is i noticed that there someone out there who really are looks like you ? My God! Or Subbahan Allah! Its really shocking much ? Hahahah. Eventho i was just acting cool to you ? But, no.. Im amazed! 😍😍😍

How awesome is that ? Ohh, as i mentioned, "This remind me of you!" Lol.. Eventho its not me who finds it by myself, but still ? Antam saja tia labu ~ hahaha. 

Wel, i think till here dulu then.. Its almost waktu jua. I need to shower and get ready for my prayer. To all, selamat menunaikan solat subuh! Cheers! 😁😁

Not over you.

Dreams, that's where I have to go 

To see your beautiful face anymore 

I stare at a picture of you and listen to the radio 

Hope, hope there's a conversation 

We both admit we had it good 

But until then it's alienation, I know 

That much is understood 

And I realize 

[Chorus:] 

If you ask me how I'm doing 

I would say I'm doing just fine 

I would lie and say that you're not on my mind 

But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two 

And finally I'm forced to face the truth, 

No matter what I say 

I'm not over you, not over you 

Damn, damn girl, you do it well 

And I thought you were innocent 

Took this heart and put it through hell 

But still you're magnificent 

I, I'm a boomerang, doesn't matter how you throw me 

I turn around and I'm back in the game 

Even better than the old me 

But I'm not even close without you 

[Chorus:] 

If you ask me how I'm doing 

I would say I'm doing just fine 

I would lie and say that you're not on my mind 

But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two 

And finally I'm forced to face the truth, 

No matter what I say I'm not over you 

And if I had the chance to renew 

You know there isn't a thing I wouldn't do 

I could get back on the right track 

But only if you'd be convinced 

So until then... 

[Chorus:] 

If you ask me how I'm doing 

I would say I'm doing just fine 

I would lie and say that you're not on my mind 

But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two 

And finally I'm forced to face the truth, 

No matter what I say I'm not over you 

Not over you

Not over you

Not over you

Shit happen!

Wel, first of all.. Sorry to all that i dint blog for an ages due to busy-ness and building my business. 

Things happend, shit happens. Good, bad, happy, sad.. It happened in my life. But, now.. I think i should just stick with this one babe instead ? Tired of being fuct up all the time.

But, thats the thing.. I learned alot! Alot much more how to handle life i guess ? Its just things happen unexpectedly ? But yet.. I only can accept it if its worth it for me ? 

But yet.. Alot need to be fixed in me somehow.. Not just them, but me ? I who needs to be right first.

Wel, no promise.. But i will post things that i did here if i got the time. In sha Allah.. 

Last but not least, here i wanna post some picture along my post. 😊

Have a great day everyone! Cheers! 😁