morning up.

dear blogger. I know that im still wide awake. Too much thinking i guess. What about it ? Wel, life brings me. On everything. Include relationship. And i know thats suck. But, gotta be sabar no matter what. I believe in miracle. Thats what my brother always tought me. Every good and bad comes from God. Everyone knows that. But, some people dint learn whats the meaning of that quotes.

Every words theres a message hiden to us. I dint say that im 'suk tau' or 'setau tau' but, hey.. We've learnd that before way back in school times. The different is only cara penyampaian. Somehow, you people know better than i do. But everything is dengan izin Allah.

Wel, talking back about me. Im just a little messed up actually. With my goals, my target, my focus. I just, fuck the up. But, some cds does help me with some words from abang. As i say, every words has it own meaning or message. I thankful that to God for giving me chance to at least learned something about life.

Why messed up ? It all started with a smile and a stare which involved feelings thro the end. Talking about an end. Theres a word says, always finish thing til the end. Same goes to feeling where i think i can handle it by my own. Which i tried many times to against it. But i maybe not that strong enough to handle something like that. The feeling that you couldn't think or feel of anything ? Like, should i say lost ? Its blackout where you cant find any ways to go. And thats when we supposed minta bantuan Ilahi. Alhamdulillah, ayat penyelamat my mum always remind me to amalkan.

The worst part lagi, when we dint even realized for what we think we did is right, where some reason its wrong to the other. Theres where different feelings joining in and make it more worst. What feeling ? The guilt, blame, everything that will contains negative at the end. Negative force. And that one is never right.

Too much to handle. If i were before, that kind of situations makes me end up unsober. But, yeah.. Things have change. Alot.. Life goes on. Actually, what im trying to let it out here is, life is like a rolling tyre. Ups and downs, atu tantu sekali. Its just life. Want something different, then do something different. How sabar we face it and how sabar we fix it.

Forgive, forget and move on. Thats the summary of the above sharing. So since its morning, i would like to say good morning to all and have a great weekends. Cheers.