iDREAMyou.

salam. Blogger, today was awesome! I just got back home frm NBT. Woh.. Its different brabis rasanya. Empty. Seeing my friend with his partner tdi, wah.. It remind me of us chasing the dreams. But yet, i sees you still. And i almost texted you saying what i felt tdi til now. But yet, its not worth it, i know.. Wel, i dont.. Antah! Lost sudah.. Feels like wanna high myself off crazily til stupid. But yet, i had commited to myself, its enough with that stuff. And move on to a better things. Dreams ? Yes, thats more better. I saw them travelling. Since mum's dreams wants to travell, so its a why not to make it happen. Travelling for free with the family, thats what i can see tdi. And your face poped out everytime i blink. :')

since theres no one to share, i just share it here. Even if theres someone where i can share, its gonna be the family. I learnd something about sharing jua. Mesti ada pihak yang sakit hati. So, i should not share with random people this time. Lately, i learned alot. Alhamdulillah.. I thank God for whatever happens to me. And i always appreciate to someone, and thank you for being part of the family for almost two years. Thank you and may God always bless you. Amin.

I just need to find my new dreams this time. And yes, i know i can dream it, and i know i can achieve it. "Hold tights your dreams, and never let dream stealer steal your dreams." thats the qoutes that i put in me. Good evening guys, and happy always. Cheers.

it fixed.

salam. Wahh.. Goodmorning blogger! :D alhamdulillah, im awake and alive today. I still had the chance to live and to learn more about living. Somehow, this few days back, i was aiming to fix my sleeping timing and yes, it works. :D

so, let me share here hows my days this week. Eventho it was not so good, but i managed to face it and tried my very best to move on. With the help of book that i read right now, it make me understand more for what just happend. But, yeah.. Nothing last forever. Not just the relations, but the pain as well.

So, yesterday, i was out with my business partner for a breakfast. Since ive been askd to build relations with her, its a why not ? Then we had our breakfast at ca mohammad in gadong. And since she wanna upgrade herself with her studies, whe went to Bahagian Pendidikan Lanjutan. And terus i wanna refun my tickets. But, since batah.. I just walk around and who might never know i might find my diamonds ? :)

since abng kanzul was there, sama ya tia all the way. And since hes going after that, i was with my other business partner who studied there. So, had to chance to know new people. His friends. And i even had the chance to meet my friends there yang applying. Long lost ugama's friend, mates masa kraja, and ramai. It was fun. Eventho, cematu.. Secara inda sengaja, i was hurting someone's feeling. Which i dint expect that at all. Even her texts was .. Mad ? Idk.. I was guilty jua on a same time. But, i might understand. Shes being emotional on her period mood swing. So, she needs the space. Or she deserved another lover. Cause what ive learned frm yesterday lesson, if its a real lover, they will find a way to stay and growing while learning frm their mistakes.. Cause, no one is perfect in this pretty world. Thats why theres learning.

Nah.. Jauh pulang ksna! Somehow, at 2pm yerterday, we got beauty clinic training with mentor frm Jakarta. It was great. Bnyk belajar. Eventho im too weak, but my mental makes me stronger. Thank God.

Then, after the training, i was sempat consulted with my mentor, kajah about my problems. She who always askd me if i attend the function alone. Somehow, shes understand. With the young age, the process atu banyak. And her solution, mun sudah bru cemani mengusut, and you both cant handle, its better to find another. You will meet someone better in your way heading to your dreams. Dont think too much, just think for your future. :')

then, on my way home, i saw her and her friend heading to my place. And yeah, shes giving me back all my stuff and go. And yet, it makes me stronger. Stronger to run towards my dreams.

Then at 8pm, we got LC Swing. And it was awesome! I learned alot and i learned something new. Alhamdullilah.. Somehow, ada hikmah disebalik atu. Walaupun in a bad situation, theres always good things waiting. Yes, everything is fixed. Bad to good, negative to positive, no to yes, you to me, dark to bright, and stress to success towards my dreams. :'D

"If you can dream it, you can achieve it." - Walt Disney.

oh, again!

salam. I just post it straight to the point. Everythings hard before easy. True. Inda pernah sanang if you aim for a better one. Must been given alot of process. And some, its unexpected. Padahal, baru jua ani, sudah tia. Baru jua atu, ani tia. But, whatever happens, happens.

I know that God's timing is always right. No wonder i be given that dreams. At first, i ignored it, but yatah sudah tu. A sign lah tu kali ahh. But.. Semua pnya hikmah disebalik atu. I believe that. Dipertahankan sesuatu yang diperjuangkan selama ani, its only alot of wasting time. But, inda apa.. The learning process that matter.

End or no end. Sama pun saja. Everyone is still alive. Breakup, is just part of the loves game. But breaking up with the best player, thats the lost. But yet, player are everywhere. Fit or fat, that aint matter at all. To win or to lose, never the point. Cause winners, are the one who stays longer.

Somehow, i thank God this happend. Exactly the right moment where 'this babe' are coming. She always remind me, she'll be mad once we did this. But now, i believe she never care sudah. If she did, she wouldnt gonna end this. Again ?

Biar tia lah. Maybe shes just given to me just for me to learned something about life. But yet, i think its the time to learn something new. Not frm the same person anymore.

Talking about what happend, well.. Seriously, what i did was based on internet's world. The other world yang hanya words who do the talking ? But yet, i know my limits. It only stays on the net's world. Thats in my case. But yours, ada wah gambarnya tarang tarang. Tubuh sama tubuh. Mun kan cakap pasal sakit hati, aku bah inda pernah bejumpa orangnya. Kau ? Almost everyday ? But then, bhapa ku kn stress memikirkan ? Walau ku inda nampak apa yang kau buat, but God knows everything. I know my limits. Limits here, including the feelings that i should, or i should not. Somehow, ada hikmah disebalik semua ani. So that maybe you could focus more on your studies, and me with my goals. Idk.. All i know, baik buruk datang dari Tuhan. :')

"I just want you to be my last, i never want you to be my past, but since you choosed to be my past, i had no guts bringing you to my future."

end.

with the help of God's willing.

dear blogger,

its true when she said that, "eventho we're not together, deep in our hearts we will never be apart."

true! I also cant deny that. And seriously, i thank God that you accept me back for who i am. Alhamdulillah..

Im just a lost dude without no future when youre not around me. Cause baby, i only can see my bright future when im with you. When i see your smiles, laughs, and even with all your kisses. I felt my future is getting nearby. Our future. Its clear much.

Somehow, when youre not around, i can still feel you. I can see you everywhere. Eventho when they talk about Sydney next year, i only can see you clearly. Its like, worth for me to fight it. Or should i say, atu patut diperjuangkan.

Seriously, i cant deny that im sooo madly inlove with only you. Eventho theres alot of misunderstanding between us, tears, sadness and hates, but its funny, the meds for all these problems is being with you. We both knows how to find our way back together. I really appreciate that.

I even thank God for giving me the chance to love you. Not just loves, but i had the chance to understand myself and to know who i am. Alhamdulillah..

Honestly, i learned alot frm you. Mostly i learn how to be sabar. Eventho its never that easy, but yet it happens to me. I even learned how to control my feelings towards you, towards lifes, and towards everything.

I even realised that mum, always support us dalam diam. Idk what she saw in you. But all i can say, shes always being supportive when it comes to our relations. I thank God for that.

Eventho im not that great in your relatives' eyes, but yet i appreciate your fighting so hard to be still with me. You are a figther in me. You inspired me with your struggleness just to have me. Thank you, God. :')

somehow, i hope theres never too late for me to say, im sorry. And again, i really am sorry for what ever happens to us. Im sorry, love. :')

this time on, it makes me promise to myself that i will take care of you as i promise to your mum at the begining. I'll try my very best to understand you very well. Cause i know baby, youre worth it to fight for.

Lastly, again i wanna thank God for letting me to love you and grow with you. I really am thankful for whatever happens between us. Theres always a way, when we have the will. With the help of God's willing. Insha-Allah..

Incase youre reading this post baby, i also wanna say, i always love you with all my heart. I sayang you.. You can reply your loves by texting me right now to my phone. I'll wait, no matter what. And i always love you whatever it takes, Iwani. I love you.. :')

<3's,
Wira Julaihi.

move on.

dear blogger,

i know its never easy to end a special relationships. But, yet.. Why it still happening ? God's always had a better plan.

Seriously, its not that easy to lose a girl like you. But, what to do ? Since semua inda kn lurus sudah and end up sakit hati tplng, so better off alone.

But, i do appreciate it. Eventho it hurts, but had to accept it no matter what. Theres always a lot of fish in the sea, but yet, having a mermaid is never easy. And i know, for you, theres thousand of stars in the sky, but for me, theres only one moon.

Moving on is the only way. Cause, i know thats the best for both of us. You go your way, and i'll go mine. In happy or sad mood, thats never matters.

Somehow, here i wanna say thank you to you for loving me and thank you for having me 'menumpang' in your heart. Thank you.. :')

i really appreciate for your appearance in me. I even learned alot frm you. Eventho, its a simple thing. I thank God for giving me the chance to get and learned something frm you. Alhamdulillah..

To you, i just hope you'll be good and be strong this time. Like how strong you dont wanna listen to me. And how strong you dint care about my feelings at all.

But yet, not just girls who had feelings. Everyone does. I never blame you. I blame myself for cant handle your emotionals. I know its never hard, but i know its never easy pun.

I think i make the right choice this time. So that you wont make me worry and no longer hurts me. By reading all your texts, its confirmd that we shouldnt be together anymore.

I know, that im the one who wanna leaves you balik balik. But, the more i wanna leaves, it should be the more you gonna come. But, i think that wont happen tia.

So, i guess.. This is it. Before its too late, i wanna say sorry for hurting your feelings all these year and thank you so much for having me as your lover. Thank you. :')

without no reply, i take that as a no. So, yeah.. You be good, and achieve your goals in your studies. And make your dreams crystal clear for your family.

Lets just end this eventho i never want it to happen, but everythings happend, it happens. So, goodluck to you and enjoy your life. Adious..

<3's,
Wira Julaihi.

The end.

dear blogger,

seriously, its the end of something special for me. Idk, but i think WE should appreciate it as you said. So, its a why not ?

Somehow, i learned that, every bad ends, theres always a good beginings. So, yeahh.. Out frm comfort zone.

If you are really inlove with someone, you should not hurt their feelings. But yet, im hurted.

Later on, its nuts & bolts. The function where i first meet you. But yet, i guess on the same function as well its an end for us.

Wel, maybe something that i need to learn. Thats why it happens. To be honest, why should i care for someone who act like they care but they dont sebenarnya ? Dont you think thats a waste of time ?

Oh yes, time is money. Why wasting ? Plus, theres gonna be alot of new great beginings. I believe that.

Maybe, i deserve it this time. Time to move on. Moving to the next level of life. With or without, thats just the part of the deal.

Enough is enough, and i think i had enough. Never worth it. Somehow, all words frm parents is a blessed. So, just accept it. Theres a lot of plenty things that need to be done.

Why would i struggle to make people's right, since i know that i can find the right people ? Thats more interesting i guess.

Its just that, i dont wanna get hurt anymore by the same person all the time. It makes the word sorry turns ugly.

Antah.. You just dont care baby. Cause if you do, you'll understand it well. People do mistakes, thats true. But people repeatly do the same mistakes, thats stupid.

Idk, i think its time to be alone sudah. And hopefully, no distructions interupt my way achieving my goals and dreams. Insha-Allah..

<3's,
Wira Julaihi.

beraya.

salam blogger,

i just wanna share my day here. Its the 3rd of raya sudah. Times ticking so fast. Inda sadar sadar, Ramadhan is end and here come the September.

I realized, its time to wake up. Face anything.. Peacefully, no harm doings, be truths, moving on and being positive.

Somehow, dealing with hurts and pains, always had an end. And some pains might ends with some rainbows. Miracles happen.

My miracle was after i done my zohor yesterday, im about to go out braya. Biasa lah open house. Its a why not ? Share some ideas, and everything. Until, i saw paris.

Its a small effiel tower figured, and it can reminds me of the trip for this year, which im not qualified.

But yet, next year, more trips lagi ada. Like, langkawi, sydney and so on so on. I talk to myself, its a why not ? Why not make it my family trip. Why not fighting for it ? Berjuang. Dreams..

Somehow, once reached home, dad's relatives braya kerumah. It was like, wow.. Its full house. I realized that i got relatives di kb, limbang, labuan, serawak, kl. Its all local legs. It was great had the chance to meet them all tdi. Walau ada yang i don't know. Its Amazing..

After that, my baby and the families braya pun. And yeah, minggle around, chit chat, share ideas, learning characters. Its fun.. :D

after that, rest for awhile, magrib apa, sambung braya. Was ke jerudong tdi, with some families. It was great also when braya ramai ramai. Siuk.. :)

then after that, lost sekajap, and end up di lambak. Few houses tdi di aga, braya, then ke manggis joining the parents braya.

Sending off di lambak, tarus braya for the last house. Before twelve blik pasal kn menyampati membli minyak. Then blik.

Sampai rumah tdi, ampar while waiting, then finish the undone things, and yeah.. Done everythings, and now im here waiting for subuh. Cause i know, once i sleep inda lagi tbgn. So, alang alang.. :)

i think sampai sni dulu then. Will post lgi when i got time. Selamat menunaikan solat subuh. And have a nice day. Cheers.

Loves,
Wira Julaihi.